Chapter 97 (1/2)
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”You lied to me?” Lin Anlan whispered, ”you lied to me, didn't you?”
”I'm sorry.” Cheng Yu could hardly speak, ”an an, I didn't mean to. I didn't want to cheat you, but I...”
”But I...”
His mouth opened and closed, closed and opened. He had never felt so bitter in his throat. He said, ”but I, I love you.”
Lin Anlan shakes his head. Of course, he knows Cheng Yu likes him, but that's not the reason.
Wishful thinking is never a reason.
”Do I love you? Before I lost my memory, did I love you? Do I like you? ” He asked.
Cheng Yu opened his mouth, the air rushed into his throat, cut his throat, ”don't love.”
Lin Anlan's tears came down in an instant.
Cheng Yu flustered, ”I'm sorry, Ann. It's me. Don't cry.”
He anxiously apologizes to Lin Anlan. He reaches out his hand to help Lin Anlan wipe the tears from the corner of his eyes, but Lin Anlan stands up and avoids his touch.
He wiped away the tears in his eyes, raised his head, and said with a big smile, ”I know. Thank you for not lying to me this time. We were both wrong about what happened before. My mistake was that we shouldn't come to you or knock on your door. Your mistake was that you lied to me and lied to me. You're wrong about this, and I'm wrong about it. It's because both of us didn't do a good job. So now that things are clear, it's time for me to go back. ”
With that, he laughed again and turned away.
Cheng Yu follows him and sees him go back to his bedroom and start packing.
Cheng Yu rushed up and asked him tremblingly, ”are you going? Are you going back? ”
”I should go back.”
”Why?” Cheng Yu looked at him prayingly, ”can't you continue to live with me? What's wrong with me? You tell me, I can change it. ”
Lin Anlan shook his head, ”you're doing well, but I shouldn't be here.”
”Why shouldn't you be here? You have lived here for half a year. You are here now.”
Lin Anlan did not speak, took the clothes and stuffed them into the trunk.
Cheng Yu pressed his hand, ”don't do this, Ann. I beg you. You can beat me and scold me, but don't leave me, OK? You said, you will always be by my side, do you forget? You promised me that. It's in this room. ”
Of course, Lin Anlan didn't forget. What's the use of promises based on false lies?
If the foundation is crooked, how can the promise come true.
”Ann, I like you. I really like you, don't you know?”
”I beg you, I promise you everything except this, OK? Why don't you stay? ”
Lin Anlan looks up at him. He looks at the sadness in Cheng Yu's eyes, and his heart is filled with grief. ”Cheng Yu, that's all false. Everything is false at the beginning. What can be true about what he said?”
”It can come true if you want to.”
”But I don't want to.” Lin Anlan said, ”how do you make me willing, how do you make me accept that the lover I think is not my lover at all! You are not my boyfriend, but I think you are. I think you have always been! ”
Lin Anlan looked at him with red eyes and said, ”don't you think about what will happen when I know the truth? You're not afraid that I can't bear it! ”
During the period when he lost his memory, except for himself, he only believed in Cheng Yu.
He believes Cheng Yu so much that he thinks that he is the only one in the world who can't cheat himself. However, from beginning to end, Cheng Yu is the only one who can cheat him.
Lin Anlan can't accept it. It's too hard for him. He has been with Cheng Yu for half a year. He has regarded Cheng Yu as his boyfriend. Even his future plans have Cheng Yu in them.
However, all this is false.
He thought he fell in love with Cheng Yu again after he lost his memory, but they were not lovers at all.
He just took advantage of his amnesia to make himself his lover.
He doesn't love Cheng Yu. He never loved him before he lost his memory.
Lin Anlan's heart seemed to be twisted together. He experienced love for the first time and learned to love others for the first time. He was very happy, but in the end, it was all false.
His boyfriend is a liar at all.
He put his things into the box, his mind is very confused, mood is also very confused, he casually packed a few things, want to close the suitcase to leave.
Cheng Yu pressed the trunk and looked at him sadly, ”don't go, OK? Don't go, Ann. Don't go
Lin Anlan picked up the suitcase, Cheng Yu took his hand, ”let's talk, there must be some way to solve all this, there must be some right?”
”How to solve it?” Lin Anlan asked him, ”what can I do?”
Cheng Yu is speechless, there is no way to solve it, there is no way.
He cheated Lin Anlan. He let a relationship that didn't exist. The best solution is to let the relationship disappear again. But Cheng Yu can't do it, and he can't say it.
”What do you want? I promise you everything, OK? You tell me, how you can not be angry, do not leave, I can promise you anything, really, you do not go, ANN, I beg you, you do not go
There are tears in Lin Anlan's eyes, slowly blurring his eyes. Looking at the person in front of him, he feels that Cheng Yu is about to cry.
For a moment, he didn't even know who was more pitiful.