257 252 仕事の後の楽しみがあると、モチベーションが変わる。 (1/2)

”...... date?

”Yes.

My heart may be beating even harder now than it was when I was fighting.

After all, you are asking a woman on a date without any preparation or arrangement, and you never thought you could ask her out on a spur of the moment basis.

Since you asked the supervisor, a woman who needs to be carefully prepared, the atmosphere in the room seems to have changed a little bit since you asked her out.

The look on the supervisor's face when she asks back is one word: suspicion.

That's all I can say.

He seemed to be trying to figure out why I was doing this at this point in time.

”Did those two guys give you a run for your money?

”No, it's my decision.

It may have been Instructor Fusio's words that triggered it, but it was my intention to stand here and release those words.

My behavior was puzzling to the supervisor, who seemed to think that the two of us were involved.

But my answer was a negative.

The supervisor is even more unconvinced, folding his arms under his chest and murmuring, ”I'm sorry for what I said the other day.

”Do you care about what we talked about last time?

”I suppose that's what triggered it.

I respond with alacrity and an air of being at an interview.

I answer without lie and without lag in what they ask for.

The supervisor's brow wrinkles as he responds without hesitation.

......

As for me, I thought that if there was no pulse, I would just say it was stupid and be discarded.

Rather, I thought it was more or less the pattern.

And if there was a slight chance of a pulse remaining, I thought that if there was, I would get an answer right away, but surprisingly, the supervisor's answer was silence.

That is to say, he was troubled by my answer.

That's a rare sight in a way.

But, for better or worse, I think it's a good trend.

Because being torn means there's at least a chance that it's not zero.

But regardless of whether I have a pulse or not, I'd like to have at least one date with him.

”Huh.

I stood thinking about it for a minute waiting for the supervisor's answer, and the first thing that came out was the supervisor's sigh.

She hates to show her weakness.

As I wondered if it was that much of a wish, the supervisor opened his mouth with a disgusted laugh.

You say you have a wish, and guess what kind of a wish you want to date me. It's not a suggestion. In a way it's a tall order, but I wonder when it will happen again. When is the last time a man asked me to meet him?

Then he slowly walked toward me.

And without saying a word, he looks at me.

There's not much difference in height, but the supervisor is slightly shorter.

As a result, I end up standing like a scene from some romantic drama where I'm being looked up at.

It's tactful, but I have a question for you. Why did you ask me out?

As befits the scene, the supervisor's tone of voice was much softer than usual.

”I've thought about it,

What did you think?

I only acted because I was at a loss as to why I asked the supervisor out on a date.

The reason was plain and simple.

I wanted to see if I could like her myself.

I have feelings for the director now.

But whereas I used to like the supervisor as a supervisor, I see the supervisor more as a woman these days.

Whether as the opposite s*x or as a supervisor at work, my feelings have been blurred and I'm asking this question to find out.

I don't want to know anything, and I don't want to be just vaguely influenced by the situation.

I can't get married just because of my job as a political marriage.

I knew exactly what I should think about in that part of the story.

So, what I did was to go on a date with the supervisor and get a firm grasp on my feelings.

It may not be the same as going back to the beginning, but I think it's a good idea to re-evaluate.

And in order to do so, we need more than just a normal conversation.

That's why I was so fired up to ask you out on a date like this.

Or a political marriage, but I wanted to make sure that we liked each other afterwards.

If you can like each other, fine.

I can be with her.

But if I couldn't, I'd probably regret it even if I got ahead in this demon king's army.

I didn't want to act that way.

To put it simply: marry if you can love her or refuse if you can't.

A choice might take me away from my career, but I knew that this was the way it had to be.

I decided to surrender to these two choices without complications.

It might sound like an excuse, but that's about the only reason I asked you out on a date.

I'm sorry.

After I got it all out, the supervisor apologized to me.

He could have cut me off as an idiot, but the supervisor took me seriously.

You were just involved,” he said, ”but you could have grown up more slowly.

How feeble.

I'm not sure if it's an act or not, but I have no reason to believe that those words were her true intentions.

”I have the status, but I would have preferred to take my time with Suela and the rest of the business, not marry a woman like this.

The supervisor's words could certainly have been my one future.

If it weren't for me, the vanguard.

If my instructors hadn't been the two I have now.

If there was someone more active than I am now.

You can talk all you want about if.

But that was a process, a passing thought.

Maybe if you lived that life, and you had the chance to hear me talk about what I'm doing now, you'd say it would be better.

I'd be lying if I said that the supervisor's words were not attractive .

Doing my job normally, no commotion, having dinner with Suela, going out with Memoria, playing with Himiku... it was a happy life, I'm sure.

I'm sure it's a happy life, but I have no regrets about the experiences I've had since I joined this company, although I might say it's been tough on me.

If is if, and reality is reality.

So maybe it's not so bad that I got into this relationship with my supervisor.

If the consequence of that action is a political marriage with a supervisor, then it's self-imposed at worst.

At best .

Because, you see. After all, you get to date a beautiful woman after you've worked hard, right?　People will say that I'm a perk as a man.