251 246 Dont you feel depressed when you realize that you are like this? (1/2)

There were times when I recognized a woman at work as the opposite s*x.

I'm a man.

I was old enough to have thought about marriage for a while.

It was busy at my old company, but I still had a sense of it.

And although my previous company was a black company by all accounts, and I was in and out of the former company, there was an unspoken rule of favoritism among the male employees that a certain figure, so-called pretty women and beautiful women, would be treated as white.

The desire of the men to prolong their few encounters revealed their tearful efforts to extend their overtime hours and increase the time for communication with women.

Thanks to this, many female employees worked longer than male employees in black companies, which was the result of their efforts.

However, such efforts were more likely to produce disastrous results.

The more effort they put in, the more male employees walked away.

Because before their efforts to secure time for the opposite s*x to come to fruition, their bodies broke down or they reached their mental limits, and the craving for the opposite s*x was outweighed by the danger of their lives.

So, I have had my fair share of times when I've looked at a colleague as the opposite s*x on a whim.

But in my case, even if I liked a woman, I was the type of person who cared more about tomorrow's work deadlines than the interaction with the opposite s*x, so unfortunately I did not have a girlfriend at my previous company.

It is more accurate to say that I couldn't have had a girlfriend at my previous company.

It is the sad nature of a company employee to make time for tomorrow's meeting material, rather than to find time to throw powder on a woman you find attractive.

I was supposed to be an ordinary man who lived such a life and half-heartedly wished to get married, but now I have three women who like me, and I am going out with three of them at the same time.

You never know what's going to happen in life.

It may be called a three-way, but in my case, we have a relationship with other women and I've been able to continue this relationship officially, so I don't think it's what is called a three-way or cheating in Japan.

I had an even more improbable problem with women's relationships, a situation that I used to think was impossible.

Have I ever been this desperate for a woman?

That day, at the end of dance practice, I saw my supervisor's back and saw myself as a woman, not as a boss.

I looked at the supervisor's back and saw myself not as a supervisor, but as a woman on his back.

Suela, Memoria, and Himikku, I felt puzzled by my desire for more women, even though I was dating three different types of women, and although I was concentrating on the class during the lecture, when I was alone, I remembered my own thoughts of desire leaking out, and opened the window of my room, which was given to me in the Tokimoto room. I was blowing cigarettes and making a dent in it.

But fortunately, I don't know if it was a blessing or not, but I was more or less aware of the fact that I was full of feelings for women.

I don't know if it's since I came to this company, or more accurately, since I started to fight.

I feel that I was seeking a woman's warmth and security, and in proportion to that, my survival instinct for procreation was also activated.

My son, who wouldn't have been so energetic in his previous company, is now so active that it's almost as if he's regained his youth.

The first day with Suela was a beast of a time, as we were joined together and it was as if we were devouring each other.

Since then, skin to skin and even with the addition of Memoria, the momentum didn't stop but rather increased in my case.

Now, Himikku has joined in, but the momentum never falters.

In fact, they sometimes complain to me, embarrassed that I'm too intense.

...... What's happening inside me?

That in itself is something I can be proud of as a man, but the problem is that the value of women has changed so much that it is starting to become the norm for me.

I'm beginning to compare the old me with the new me, and I'm beginning to worry that I'm not going to be me anymore.

The self-diagnosis has come out as well as the self-diagnosis that it should not have been so in the past, as if you were always the one who had such a strong sense.

However, the male averages in these stories are vague and not very helpful.

So it is hard to judge whether I am normal or abnormal as an adult male now.

But I will say this.

If anyone starts messing with any woman, it's the end.

......

The solution to these situations, when you have doubts about yourself, is to solicit an objective opinion and conduct a self-analysis.

It is best not to solve the problem by your own internal rules.

It is time to put a stopper on it, although you may wonder why you are ridiculed as a harem man.

Now, the problem of the stopper.

”Who should I talk to about my problems?

If it's about work, you can talk to someone without hesitation.

But this consultation is clearly a private matter.

Besides, it's about content.

First of all, the women are overruled.

No, you should consider talking to Suera and the others first, but the environment does not allow you to talk to them right now.

Of course, the women of Kitamiya's party are none of our business.

There's no way you can talk to your own supervisor or his assistant, Tatte.

So, the scope of consultation is naturally limited to the men: ......

”You can't win with Kaido.

Sorry about the former, what's the problem?　And I can see the trend of encouraging harems and exploding rear ends, and I know that I can't get an objective opinion.

The latter may be a matter of pride, but what would you discuss with a younger minor?

In that case, two instructors are appropriate: ......

These two guys are also the standard for otherworldly common sense in these two guys.

Helpful or not, that's the question.

”Can't a man turn his back on himself?

Not consulting is not an option.

If this change in values is somehow connected to the insanity, then you have to let the problem go and deal with it before it's too late.

With that in mind, I pressed a cigarette into an ashtray to extinguish it and left the room, my hips heavy with the dual meaning of being tired from today's lecture and mentally exhausted from worry.

”Kakaka, so that's how you came to me, isn't it?

”I'm sorry for the night

”The night falls asleep. It's not so bad if you're a sleepless eagle, thinking it's just to pass the time.

And I chose Fuschio as my counselor.

I had seen him interacting with the supervisor and I thought he would be a good choice as a consultant.

If not for the skeleton, Fussio would have looked like an elegant aristocrat as he sat in his chair in his room in Jiyuan's room, holding a glass of wine in one hand.

It didn't appear to be wine in the glass, but the scent that tickled your nostrils was the smell of liquor.

The lecture was over, and I apologize for asking in my leisurely private time, but the instructor welcomed me with open arms.

By the way, why didn't you ask for instructor Kio: ......

”Just push it down and get it over with!

I felt like I was about to be given a manly word for it.

You keep your imagination to yourself, explain the situation to Instructor Fusio, and he snaps his jaw as usual as if he understands.

I see...so it's a change in values. That in itself is not strange. But Jiro's common sense says that the change is unusual or ...... difficult. We won't blame you if you honestly follow your feelings.

I wasn't allowed to date more than one woman unless I was a very rich man or a very coddled man. It's confusing to me to feel that there is a woman you're dating and you naturally want another woman.

A glass of wine is then magically brought to me and offered to me.