309 306. Heart.txt (2/2)

At last, I feel worth living for now.

The chanting won't stop.

It can't be stopped--!

-- ”'The darkness of decay and the light of decay will be equally unwhite and white.' The darkness of the dream and the light of the dream will be equally black and inky.”--

What followed was the auditory hallucinations.

This was also a natural consequence, since Nosfi would be carrying all of my hallucinations and auditory hallucinations 'instead'.

What echoes in my head is the sound of clawing at the glass.

An unpleasant sound that was physiologically disgusting and squeaking in the very back of my brain. It sounds as if my hardened mind is being chipped away.

The sound shakes my brain and my hands tremble.

At that moment, I felt as if all ten of my nails were about to fall off.

But that's not all. I felt as if all of my skin was going to melt away at any moment.

I suspect that my body, which had maintained the same shape until yesterday, will not be able to keep its shape today - an ominous sound similar to that of a boiling mud bog has been reverberating in my ears since a moment ago.

But even in the midst of that steadily mentally destabilizing sound, the lovely voice arrives properly.

''-- Ah, ah, yes!　I fight and fight and kill and kill!　After that ......!　After that ......--

Nosfi heard me recovering nicely, coming back to myself and digging up my own memories.

So, smile. So, I can't stop.

In her head, on the verge of collapse, all she can think about is me--

I have to be a 'replacement' at least until I can talk to you properly.

All of the pain you are experiencing now, Uzumi-sama has felt until now. As a family, we have to share that pain. The most important thing is that Uzuma-sama was not afraid to talk in the midst of this terrible suffering. Uzumi-sama was smiling and chattering away, not realizing that she was in the abyss herself. I definitely need to save her. You can't save Uzunami-sama for the rest of your life if you, as a family member, don't save her. You can't be saved--!

Even in this situation, Nosfi was more worried about the suffering of others than his own.

And he continued to 'chant' over and over again with a single mind. Repeatedly and repeatedly.

”'- 'Both the decaying darkness and the decaying light, equally inky white, both the darkness of dreams and the light of dreams, equally inky black.' In White,” ”In White,” ”The Darkness of Dreams and the Light of Dreams,” ”In Equally Unglorious Black,” ”The Decaying Darkness of Dreams and the Decaying Light of Dreams,” ”In Equally Unglorious White, --

The contamination I held in my arms is being passed on to Nosfi.

-- Thus, on this day, their paths overlap.

It is a common history that the two of us can 'relate' to, and it is also the birth of a causal relationship that will last for a thousand years to come.

At the end of the succession ritual, the two exclamations of the two of them are the wooden spirit in the room.

'The light of the --' 'Equally Immaculate Kuhni ...... Kuch, ugh!　I'm-- ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ------！！！！

'Oh, oh, no, I'm not!　 ------！！！！

The exclamations that emanated from very similar vocal cords overlapped nicely.

The wailing lasted less than a minute in time, but it felt like a whole day to Nosfi.

Then they collapsed side by side on the carpet of the room.

After vomiting up the contents of his stomach, Nosfi tried to wake up his body, which was full of nothing but the feeling of exertion.

Wobbling, he somehow manages to get up and turn his gaze forward.

There was me, also wobbling and breathing.

-- or, more accurately, I was the only person in the world that existed.

In Nosfi's vision, only Aikawa Uzumi has luminous intensity, and the rest of the world is wrapped in the fabric of darkness (the veil) and its existence is diluted.

Nosfi's confusion was thin against that strange world. It was because he had heard beforehand that this sense of narrowing of vision was the 'price' of the 'chanting' of 'The One Who Steals the Reason of Dimension'. And I had guessed that the dark cloth (veil) was the mental interference of Tida and the Sith.

We knew that.

That this was a 'substitute'.

It was strangely clear in my head.

Of course, I still have hallucinations and auditory hallucinations, but I can see the world so well that it doesn't bother me.

The world was very clear because I could only see one thing.

It didn't matter what was useless anymore.

The thought in Nosfi's mind now was simplified to the extreme.

It was the thought that I love you.

And the thought that I love you and I want you to love me because I love you.

Please tell me that I can stay here .......

Please, I want you to hold your face between your hands and worry strongly about me. ......

Please be wished alive and reach out to me .......

That is now, from this moment on, Nosfi's wish.

And as I was being wished for, I was checking my surroundings while regulating my screaming and disorganized breathing. I'm desperate for myself alone.

'Hah, hah, hah!

By this time, I should have already come to my full sanity. Having shared my mental debts, I am free from a lot of abnormalities.

Thanks to this, I now finally know exactly what I am in.

To me at this point, this is a strange room.

When I wake up, I feel an extraordinary sense of physical exertion and an extraordinary sense of memory loss.

In front of me is a girl I met for the first time.

That girl is clearly - strong.

I feel the same power as the avengers, the 'one who steals reason'.

It is impossible not to be alarmed.

''What in the world is this ......?　Who are you ......?

'Oh, finally ....... Uzumi-sama, I am me ....... I am your nosphy. ......

Nosfi replied in a friendly manner.

Her words exuded a madness that wasn't there not long ago.

I recognized the girl's name in front of me as Nosphy. But I guess I didn't understand the meaning of the other words. I stayed alert and backed away.

In contrast, Nosfi continues to introduce herself in a straightforward manner with an unguarded smile.

''-- I am your wife, daughter and family.

What?　...... wife and?　No, eh ......?

There was no way I could understand.

I don't remember what it was like for me at this time when Nosphy nursed me back to health. I do have the feeling that I was dreaming in the deep darkness, but it would be 'a dream of marrying Tiara and living happily in the bright Hoosier's Land'.

Hence, for me, I suddenly flew into this room after I was defeated by the Apostle Sith.

It's understandable that I'm confused - and evasive.

After all, what can only be described as madness is leaking out of Nosphy, who has declared himself a family member.

And Nosfi herself is oblivious to it.

Now she only had the feeling that she was finally being honest.

All she could think about was the hardships and misfortunes she'd had to date. And about the rewards that were worth it.

To put it simply--.

I want to live with Uzumi-sama forever from now on.

I'm a little tired of myself. Yes, I'm tired of a lot of things.

So, I want to forget about all the unnecessary things, pretend that I'm not unhappy, and just be alone with my family.

The family I finally got.

A family where there is no mistaking the double confirmation that Uzuraha-sama is a father and husband.

Here's what I've been chasing for a long time.

The person I've longed for, loved, and wanted is now right in front of me.

I want to spend eternity in peace with him.

That's all I want.

I want to be loved like that mother and child in that hospital.

I want to nurture that love. Forever, if possible.

Forever alone with me.

It's the only way I can feel safe in the darkness anymore.

The Nosfi way of life. The only way left to live.

--that's the idea in my head.

Naturally, the expression on his face and the look in his eyes are frightening, and the magical power that leaks out is evil, and I, the one who is facing him, get ready to fight with fear.

”Wait, wait. ......!　Don't get any closer to me than that: ....... I don't know what you mean by wife or daughter: ....... Anyway, stay away from me. If you take one more step, I'll shoot my magic ......!

I was completely frightened.

I was frightened from the bottom of my heart against a girl who was smaller than me and younger than me.

Noticing the expression on her face, Nosfi quickly suppressed her own magic and responded in a ladylike manner.

''Oh, I'm sorry ....... I know that we have just awakened each other now, but I rushed the conversation a bit too quickly. No wonder you are confused .......

Oh, oh ....... Now I'm just waking up and what is it ....... I mean, are you just waking up there too, ......?

''Yes (...). So let's quickly tell you all about my relationship with Uzumi-sama again. Let's sort it out again. This time, let's be gentle, slow, and definitely, let's understand the two of you together ....... Fufu--

At this moment, Nosfi was certain.

He believed that if only he could explain, they would be forever more than this.

Because to Nosphy, I was 'the only one who was meant to be'.

Hence, there is no other end to it. In this dark world where there is no real sense of anything, the only response is 'Aikawa Uzumi'. Even from the other side, in this dark world of lost everything, the only meaning of life is ”Nosfies”. The only meaning of life in this dark world where everything is lost, is the family that loves each other. Then the two of them have no choice but to live together.

That's what happened to Nosfi.

The 'price' of light made me unusually honest, and in my 'place' the world was closed to darkness, and I could only see 'the one person who was destined to be the only one', and so it was.

-- my face, which had been confirming the origins of that nosphy with 'past vision', becomes distorted.

I felt my heart being pecked at as I saw the truth about Nosfi and myself. However, the magic of the past vision is unwavering.

Not yet. You can't solve it here.

Rather, this is where the real work begins.

This is the beginning of my mistake.

I'm going to have to watch the rest of the story: ...... how I am going to verbally abuse this nosphy and hurt its heart irreparably.

Never, ever look away .......