310 307. With the past.txt (1/2)

At night, we are alone in Nosfi's room.

Through her thoughtful narration, we finish hearing the story of Nosfi Fuzzyaz from her birth to today.

I learn that she is a 'magic stone human (Jewelcrus)' born while I was on my journey and that we are genetically related.

'I see ....... You are the child of me and Yotaki ....... So that's how it is, isn't it?

Yes, sir. I am your...

Can you believe that?

Naturally, I'm going in from total denial with my voice raised. The existence of Nosfi, the environment and circumstances of his upbringing, the wedding today - nothing was acceptable. It's so ridiculous that I even begin to laugh as I hold my head up.

''Ha, ha, ha, ha ....... What's this imitation ......?　What's the trap: ......?

A trap - in other words, he decided that he was currently in the middle of an enemy attack.

Since my immediate memory was the battle against the Apostle Sith, it was natural to think of this situation as an extension of that.

Nosfi was confused by my reaction, but she wished to calm down.

''Uzumi-sama, it's not a trap ....... Please, please listen to me carefully .......

Yeah, I heard. I get it now. Did you create people with my genes while I was away at ......?　Yeah, I understand. I do!　I did, so I'm telling you!

But I'm not going to be cool with it.

I wildly pay my hands off to the side and shout wildly at Nosfies, who don't want to admit it, away from me. Then I slap a swear at the apostle in the corner of the room.

'I'm disgusted, as always, with all these monsters who don't understand the human mind!　You guys are really good at playing with people's dignity!　Haha, it's even funnier!　Legacy, I'm talking about you!　You people always do.　You've got to be kidding me!　Don't be silly!

”What, Uzumi-sama ......?

Nosfi was completely deflated by that angry voice from the bottom of his stomach.

Seeing that he could no longer carry on a conversation with Nosfi, Legacy proceeded to take over the conversation with me.

'...... Brother, this was just what the Hoosiers needed to hear. And, let me make an excuse, I had no part in this.

'That's not what I'm talking about!　I said stop!　You're always looking and smiling by yourself!　I already know what's going on in your mind!　Oh, shit!　d*mn you!

All I can say is I'm sorry about that .......

d*mn it!　I'd rather start from the beginning than apologize--oh, enough!　It's no use talking to you!

Legacie calmly stated every word, but my anger never subsided.

And as if he thought it was pointless to talk about ethics with an apostle, I quickly cut the conversation short.

That's when Nosfi, who finally made up his mind, intervened.

'Oh, that father ...... what, so much ......?　We're finally saved: ......?　From now on, it's just me and my family and we're going to take it easy: ......

Nosfi thinks.

Aikawa Uzumi lost to the Apostle. It was also a disastrous defeat. He took the fight to this otherworldly opponent and was completely defeated.

It was a complete victory for the apostle.

-- therefore, the battle is now over.

I really thought that the role of the loser was to spend the rest of the epilogue slowly in the world created by the winner. But if I could make such an easy decision, I hadn't become 'the one who steals the reason for the dimension'.

'Did you say nosfies, ......?　For the record, I don't know who you are. I've never heard of you. So you and I have nothing to do with each other.

'What ......?　Your father ......?

'Stop calling me that!　And that figure, too: ......!　Looking like Yangtaki and Tiara: ...... makes me want to puke!　It's similar, but as if it wasn't enough!　So you think you can act like a human being!　It's not human, dude!

Sorry. ...... Father--Uzumi-sama .......

Nosfi was cursed and apologized while being frightened.

With Nosfi's head bowed with the single-minded desire not to be hated, I will perform magic - 'display'.

''--A spellery 《Analyze》. Ah, I know because I'm 'the one who steals the reason of the dimension'. You're just a doll made of magic stones and flesh and blood, not a proper human being ....... I'm sorry. My daughter, that's impossible!　It's not possible!

And they are in denial.

You cut off all involvement and refuse to acknowledge its existence.

............!

Nosfi's face contorts with grief.

The light I found in the darkness is shifting away.

All the color is lost from the world, and the meaning of life is lost.

And then my relentless pursuit of the world comes into play.

The number of lives of the transgressions goes back to the projectile that draws to the end of the line. --Magic [Dimension]

Even though I have just had the 'price' of 'chanting' taken off my shoulders earlier, I say 'chanting' in front of that person.

And what you see with that magic 《Dimension》 is the scene outside the room. The girl in front of me was no longer in my eyes, and she was gathering information with her dimensional magic, trying to decide her next action. Seeing the activation of that magic, unbearably Nosfi let out a voice.

''Oh, please wait!　That 'chanting' is dangerous!　Finally, a purified Uzumi-sama's heart!

'Huh ......?　Yeah, I know. It's mind-blowing, right?　In my case, there's only one - I can't think about anything but my sister, or was it ......?　So what's the problem?　You're a newbie, though, you wouldn't understand. The 'price' of 'the one who steals the reason' is just paying what the guy himself originally wanted. So it doesn't matter how much 'price' you pay: ......!

So don't talk to him, he roughly chased away Nosphy as he approached.

''Ka, Uzurinami-sama: ......

I want you to stay out of my life. I won't have anything to do with you ever again. Even if you were my daughter, ...... we'd be happy to stay out of it.

'No, it's not: ......!　Absolutely!

In response to those words, Nosfi shook her head as if to shake off the tears in her eyes.

She tearfully complained that her only happiness is to be with Aikawa Uzumi.

I was a little upset in front of the crying girl, but I quickly regained my resolve. However, I quickly regained my resolve and coldly returned the words.

''...... Anyway, Aikawa Uzumi is almost done with me. You'll just have to forget me.

That's the last thing I know about my own location with dimensional magic, and I walk away to escape. I tell Nosfi, who tries to chase me, ”Don't follow me,” and leave the room by myself.

As I was leaving, I was muttering to myself. Hearing that makes Nosfi stiffen and unable to move.

'I don't have a daughter (・・・・・・・) ....... There can't be. There can't be. There's no such thing as a relationship: ......!

I left the room and closed the door wildly.

In the midst of the reverberations, Nosfi obediently listened to me and remained in the room.

Nosfi stopped and continued to repeat in his head the words that had just been slammed into him.

All the words of denial of existence told to him by the person he thought was his father and husband. 'I don't know you,' 'I don't know you,' 'You're just a puppet made of magic stones and flesh and blood,' 'You're not a decent person,' 'Don't get involved with me anymore,' 'I don't have a daughter,' 'There's no way I'm going to have one' - each of those words was said just once, but all of them were said over and over again. It echoes in my head. Repeatedly, I deny Nosfies.

'Ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh ......!'

I moaned and the tears I had been holding back spilled out.

Anxiety, fear, frustration, grief, and despair.

All kinds of mental darkness were closing in on Nosfi's world.

In normal times, Nosfi might have been able to recover. But right now, she had just taken on a lot of debt from me.

There was no way she could handle those bad feelings, and they were swelling to no end.

Naturally, my legs wobbled and swayed, and my body moved to the corners of the room.

Legacy, who was watching it, hurriedly stops it.

''W-what, hey?　...... Hey, wait!　You're going to die!

Basically not interfering physically, Legacy, unusually, bumped into Nosfi with his body. Even more unusually, he even desperately tried to persuade her with an impatient voice.

''Wait!　That was ...... probably the 'price' of 'chanting' earlier!　That's the nature of dimensional magic!　Now Kanami's mind's capacity has been reduced and she can only see one person!　You just have fewer and fewer thought options, and you can only choose one!　Think of it as being in a tremendous mood!

'Is that true ......?　Is it really ...... just one 'chant' earlier?

............. Yeah, it's true: ......

''Uzumi-sama has defiled his mind again ....... So ......?

Nosfi ruminated over Legacy's words and tried to confirm their authenticity.

Whether or not there is a 'price' for Uzuraha-sama's 'chanting' -- that's where I carried the 'replacement'.

The extent of that distorted mind's tolerance. --probably less than I am right now.

The curse of being able to see only one person. -- Certainly, there is only Uzumi-sama for me anymore.

There's only one choice now. --Yes, I understand that too.

--I'm the same as Uzumi-sama now. So I understand.

Only one.

One man. One man. Only one.

I don't want to accept that there's only one way for us to end up with the one true love.

To do that, we need Lord Uzuma-sama. Uzumami-sama is here. Master Uzumami is there, Master Uzumami is there, Master Uzumami is there--he can't help it. I can't live without Master Uzumami, I can't live without Master Uzumami. No, we'll never even get to live--

In the middle of thinking, I easily came to an answer and my feet were already moving.

'...... Hey. Where do you think you're going?

Legacy asks, a little scared.

'I'll go after him,'

Nosfi replied straightforwardly.

Very frankly.

'Now I know what I really want.

I'm going to talk about the 'unfinished business' of the body.

There are things you can understand because you've had it once. It's because I've left you that I feel for you. --You're not going to be able to get away with it. I just wanted you to hold my hand like you did that day. I just wanted you to hold my hand like she did that day. That's my only wish: ......

The one thing that continues to stick in Nosfi's mind is the father and son in the hospital that Regacy showed him five years ago.

He finally confesses to the apostle now that he has been seeking it, wandering and fighting for it all his life, and that he has come this far.

Legacey takes it in stride and confesses that things went as expected, but not as planned.

You're right, ....... That's what I've been wanting to tell you for a long time: ....... But, you know, you've suddenly become very honest ......?　I'm a little surprised that it's so decent: ......

Legacy is trying to analyze the situation.

He's probably suspicious of Nosfi, whose mind is too clean, even though he should have taken on all my debts from his sleepwalking state.

And after giving it enough thought, Legacy agrees to Nosphy's departure.

'Anyway, yes, you're right: ....... I suppose what you have to do now is catch Uzumi's brother ....... There's no doubt about it: ......

Yes, I'll go after him.

As long as you're there, you don't think it's anyone else's business, but Legacy will give you a lot of uncharacteristic advice.

”Northfield ...... no, Nosfi. When you catch that one, don't let go ....... Keep holding it. If you don't, you will undoubtedly run away again, somewhere else. That's the way it is.

Yes, I will.

”Love and love and be loved. That's the first right a man is born to fulfill-- that's what I think.

It's a--

Nosfi kept nodding back, but he was slow to respond to this advice.

'I think that's a bit different. Now I've finally realized the truth about me.

Truth ......?

Perhaps I am not yet born: ....... I'm still in the womb - I'm not even born into this world. So--

I haven't met the requirements yet.

I haven't been born yet.

Nosfy as an entity could not exist.

So I can't die yet.

The moment I realized I wasn't born, I wasn't drawn to the window anymore. So I chuckled to Legacy that it was all right now.

And Nosfi only looks forward.

He bears every 'price' and still moves forward. He showed the apostle that this is the new Nosfi Husseys' way of life.

'Finally, ....... You got to see a little bit of the face I want to see: .......

Legacy passes through surprise and smiles.

He didn't expect to see such strong will-lit eyes today after carrying so much mental trauma 'instead'.

I'm rooting for you. After all, I'm a fan of this kind of thing. I'm starting to see the truth about me, too. I like to see hardworking people like you work hard. ......

He looked enviously at the unique human mechanism that the apostle couldn't reach, and smiled an age-appropriate smile.

''So that's the kind of person you are, Legacy-sama. However, I'm sorry that we've come so close, but I'm going to be busy from now on, so I'm going to be--'

Yeah, you can go. Just go. I'll talk to you later. I'm going to be busy because I've got some things to check, too.

Yes, sir. Well, I'm off. Goodbye, Mr. Legacy.

After saying goodbye, Nosfi leaves the room with a refreshed look on her face.

Just before that, Legacy's muttered voice from behind her back could be heard in her ears.

''--Is this (...) a ploy by Di Prakula ......?　Or is it the Lord's interference?　Who, and why, would drive them both to this point: ......?　No, to begin with: ....... In the first place. Who decided that Uzumi's brother was 'dimensional' and Nosfi was 'light'?　Definitely neither of them are suited to that attribute. So how did this happen?　How did the conversation go down that day?　Remember. Who was there, in that place, at that time and place--

Sitting down in the chair I had been sitting in earlier, Legacy was muttering like a detective. He's talking about something quite interesting, but I, who have 'past vision' with Nosphy's hair, can't hear the murmurings until the end.

I can only follow Nosphy's feelings and vision.

Inevitably, I move to the scene of Nosphy leaving the room and walking down the corridor of Hoozeyers Castle.

She was just having a reflection session by herself as she walked.

'It's my fault for what happened earlier ....... Uzumi-sama is not bad ......

Nosefy, like Legacie, entered the world alone, muttering to herself.

And, to her horror, she believed me for having done all that, and she had a justification for me in her head. The logic goes like this--.

I was no good.

That was too much out of the blue. It's natural to be confused if you're stuffed up like that. Despite knowing the situation Uzumi-sama was in, I was completely lacking in compassion.

It's my fault. I was angry because I'm a bad girl.

A very obvious consequence. There's nothing funny about the information I've learned about my family over the past five years. And I know exactly how to fix it - and I know how to fix it.

Be a better girl ....... Be more honest, straightforward, and straightforward. Be a good, honest, straightforward girl and you will be ....... I'm sure you'll be ......!

I knew that if I was good enough, my father would come back to me.