309 306. Heart.txt (1/2)

The 'chanting' takes place.

Smoothly as if singing, calmly as if praying.

Above all, it sounds clear as an offering.

”'The darkness that decays, the light that decays, is equally white and unwhite' --

It is a part of the life that Nosfi has to offer.

At this time, she had an innocent soul that felt neither light nor darkness. That lake like soul without any impurities is now stagnating.

''The darkness of the dream and the light of the dream will be equally black and inky--''

The color that is applied to her soul, the one that steals the reason for light, is white.

The dark white, like dry paint, dyes her colorless soul. She is attacked by the light of light, and her mind shimmers and shines and is rewritten like a magician of light.

First, the 'price' is paid, and a vast amount of light-attribute magic power overflows from her entire body. The magic power stolen from that world is not used up, it has nowhere to go and fills the room.

The more that light intensifies, the more clearly you can see the darkness.

Now, even if Nosfi doesn't speak the name of his magic, he's trying to 'take the place' of Aikawa Uzumi's mental wounds with the miracle of 'The One Who Steals the Reason'.

Naturally, the darkness of Tida, the one who steals the logic of the darkness, was also mixed in with it.

I can see the blackness of that darkness.

A stain other than white began to stand out in Nosfi's white-painted heart. The stains became black lines, creating a pattern of cracks in his mind. It looks like a heart on the verge of cracking and shattering.

Carrying the wounds of another person's spirit - that would be a fear that an ordinary person would want to scream in disgust and scratch their throat in discomfort.

But at this moment, Nosfi was laughing. He formed a very pleasantly deep smile and felt pleasure in his depravity.

Finally, he got it.

The feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction was stronger than the discomfort.

Her birth as a ”Magic Stone Human (Jewelcrus)” did not give her any humanity. Nosfi had no desire for anything, she didn't even protect her own life, she was just a machine that kept on doing the good things she was told to do.

Now she has finally obtained a standard for empathizing with others.

The standard is the standard, even if it is an excess of 'honesty' as a person.

The sense of alienation fades away.

He laughs at the joy of being one of the people.

Then Nosfi hears.

Through the power of The One Who Steals the Reason of Light, my eyes, which have been empty for so long, have been lit up. And now, from my lips, which have been groaning and moaning all the time, I finally--

This is ......?

The words were uttered with solid reason.

''--Well, Uzurinami-sama!　Now, make your voice heard at ......!　Do you understand?　This is the moment!

Nosfi interrupted his magic and walked up to him in excitement.

'Now, at this moment ......?　We're in the ocean ...... or is this the night sky?　The light is far and near: ......

I am supposed to be in the room and I say the words 'sea' and 'night sky'.

I can't recognize the floor, the walls, or the ceiling. I may have regained consciousness, but my vision is still unclear in the midst of strong hallucinations.

Nevertheless, Nosfi almost spills tears of joy.

The symptoms, which had shown no signs of healing, had been alleviated. Impressed by the fact that he had taken a step forward, he took a physical step closer and introduced himself in the long-awaited manner.

'Nice to meet you, Mr. Uzumi: ......!　I'm Northfield - 'Northfield Hoosiers'!

Hearing his voice, I turn my eyes to Nosfi.

'Eh ....... Oh, oh, ......?　You took care of me while you were unconscious: ......?　I'm Aikawa Uzumiami ....... Nice to meet you, Mr. Northfield. No, you?　...... Let's see, Northland is an unusual name. No, I think it's a cool name.

It was a completely unstrained reception, even though he was in a strange place, facing a strange person.

It's a reaction that may or may not have been able to recognize Nosfi's appearance. But he was properly greeted for the first time. Just in time.

'Is that a funny name ......?　That's the name I got from the apostles, so, er, ......

'Oh, another Sith guy. He's a nice guy with a good root, but he's a bit of a dick: ....... You should complain to him. It's good for him.

I'm not complaining about that ....... I'm happy enough with Northfield ....... It's a nice enough name .......

Nosfi had noticed that I was acting strangely. The fact that I'm normal at the mention of the name of my grudge enemy, the Sith, is the best proof of that.

But Nosfi puts the issue on the back burner.

This lack of tension in our interactions was something Nosfi had wanted for years. He can communicate with me, and smile cheerfully at me. That alone makes me feel happier than ever.

Just like that .......

But that's just the way it is, ....... I think you should at least give it a nickname.

'What, is it nicknamed ......?　Mine?

'Yeah. How about a simple nosephee for now: ......　I think this sounds like a proper person's name. It looks good on you.

Nosfies: ......!!!!

A person-like name for now.

It was light - it was probably meant to be a really light suggestion.

But not for Nosfy.

'I'm happy, I'm happy ....... I'm very happy ......!　It's the first time I've ever been called by a nickname before: ......!

Nosfi had never been called a person, let alone a nickname.

It's as if she's been called by a place name and a number until now.

The people had interpreted it favorably as being a heavenly person, but all along, Nosfi had wanted a name for herself as a person.

Now, he finally gets it.

Nosfi is convinced.

After all, this man in front of him is the one he wants to be - the one he wants to be.

'I see. You're just like me someday, aren't you ....... I'm no one at school either ......

I, on the other hand, sympathized with her words and started talking about the former world, which I didn't expect.

She must have remembered that when she was a child, she was called ”that famous Aikawa's son” instead of the name ”Kanami”, just like Nosfi. He's gradually turning blue, impatient, and muttering as he recalls more and more events at school in a chain reaction.

'...... is, school?　Yes, ....... I have to go to school, I have to go ......!　　And I'm on duty today!　I'm with that girl and I decided to go before anyone else today. ......!

What?　Are you Gacko? ......?

Suddenly I look around and walk around, muttering, ”Where's my bag ......?”.

Of course, there is no such thing in this room.

There is no such thing as a school yet in this other world.

'Thanks for waking me up, Nosfi,' I was about to be late again. It really helped.

'No, that's fine, but ....... Uzumi-sama, what is Gacko--

'Oh, yes. Let's go to school quickly ....... If we don't get out before our dads get home, we'll be pissed off again ....... I'll be disillusioned again. No, that's an absolute no-no. Absolutely .......

I interrupt Nosfi's words, reach out to the empty space and begin to wobble and prepare myself for school.

'Ka, Uzurinami-sama: ......'

The scene is both bizarre and bizarre.

Seeing me trying to head to a school that doesn't exist as if I were being driven away by something, Nosfi feels the need for further mental recovery.

There is no doubt that I'm heading towards a good feeling with the power of the 'One who steals the reason for the light' I mentioned earlier.

I, who had only seen Tiara for a long time, finally called her by the name of Nosfi. But it's not complete either. A single chant wasn't enough to heal the wound that was carved so deeply and intricately.

Hence naturally, Nosfy thinks.

More.

More.

More and more 'chanting' of light...

'The darkness that decays and the light that decays are equally white and unwhite'--!

There was no hesitation.

Nosfi accepted and claimed with a smile as his mind twisted.

Nosfi had the feeling that the more he spun the words, the closer he got to me in front of him. In fact, this act is much like the 'connection' of the mind. During this 'chanting', we are connected to each other in one way, but without a doubt, like a family. Just like a family. So it's not a painful experience--.

But what flows in from that connection is not normal.

They hurt Nosfi's mind at a terrible rate.

And first of all, the brightness of his vision dropped (...).

The fear of death, which he had felt before, swelled rapidly, and then he fell into the illusion of blindness in a room with no change in brightness again.

Knowing it's just a hallucination, Nosfi continues to 'chant' without fear.

He receives my state of mind one after another.

”'The darkness of my dreams and the light of my dreams will be equally black and inky--!

Nosfi felt his breathing grow shallow.

When he suddenly turned his gaze to his own chest, the distance (...) made him nauseous.

His chest, which should have been just a few inches below him, was as far away as the ends of the earth. The sense of distance, rather than space, was twisted and misaligned. The senses of centimeters and kilometers have been swapped.

Suddenly, he moved his gaze again.

The back of his own hand was in the corner of the room, as if it were not his own.

As I move my gaze to escape, I see the furniture in the room next. Chairs, desks, beds, shelves, and everything else that could be found were inches in front of him, and he almost screamed.

Nosfi shakes on her legs, dizzy on her feet.

He knows it's a hallucination, but he's drunk on over-inflated anxiety and feels like he's floating.

The gravity is scattered in all directions, making her restless and unable to stand well.

Suddenly, gravity turns directly upward and the contents of my stomach rises upward.

Immediately, I go down on my hands and knees and spit out the contents of my stomach as they pass down my throat.

Beyond my mind, my body is beginning to suffer.

It's not safe to continue further. Just when there is that slightest hesitation--

”--Yes, that's right ....... It's not even school right now: ....... I'm, I'm ......--

Nosfi's hearing captures my words.

That's all it took for her to become a big smile in her hallucination, not even wiping the gastric juice from her mouth.

Then, while laughing, she thinks, ”I'm sorry.

Now Uzumi-sama is recovering.

This power of mine is useful.

I can live for my family as I had hoped.