9 Ana’s Pas (2/2)

I then kept the luggage inside at the corner of the room and welcomed them inside.

We offered them breakfast but they denied saying they already had their breakfast.

My mom then said ” Kevin, help them with their luggage. Keep their luggage at first floor.”

” Okay” I replied that and went ahead to the first floor to keep their luggage.

Mrs Ema said ”Ana, why don't you go and arrange your room, I want to talk something with Eliza.”

She then came to the first floor, we were both alone on the first floor and for no reason I was started getting nervous.

In nervousness I said

” You know this was my room ”

And then I thought what the heck did I just tell her.

She replied ” I didn't know that. Sorry for taking your room ”

I got flustered and said

” It's ok, I actually shifted my room so it's all yours now. ”

I thought how dumb can someone be, Ana just came today to live here and I stupidly said it was my room.

If sometime God gave me, a chance to change something, I would definitely want to remove that memory from her mind.

” I am quite happy you know ” Ana replied with a low tone. Just like the first day when we met, today again she was not maintaining eye contact. But this time she was timid.

She said ” I guess you already know our family condition. Because of divorce, my mom shifted to our grandma's home.

But when the day before yesterday mom said that we are shifting again, I got worried.

I said mom that I don't want us to shift at someone house. I am not good at interacting with others and I will not be comfortable living there. But mom said, we are shifting at my senior 's house and she is a very kind and genuine lady. You will not face any problem living there.

After listening all that still I was not convinced, but then again I can not just cut my mom's words. So I agreed. ”

After listening to all that I understood why she was feeling lowly when she arrived here. Then everything was getting clear.

She then said

” I had an abusive childhood, so I get insecure and doubtful about any friendship or relationship.

When I was in school I never made any friends, I was the girl who always sit alone in class. At lunch time when everyone shared their food I was alone. I was jealous, because I didn't have anyone to share my food with.

I was lonely.

One's I tried making friend, he was a boy from neighbourhood. I called him home to play but then my dad got angry and scolded both of us. After that day he never came back to play with me.

When finally my mom divorced him, I thought I'll start my new life at college and will make many friends.

It was my mistake not making friend at school but I thought I would try to undo all those mistakes that I made.

But it was not that easy,

It was tough talking with all those fancy people at college.

I thought, again I will be lonely in college, but then something happened.

I met a boy who helped me on the way home, he was altruistic. Seeing me depressed, he tried to make me laugh.

He talked with me all the way home and when he left I thought I will lose a chance to make a friend again so I grabbed his cycle. ”

After listening to all that I was stunned.

She smiled and said

” I was happy that it was your home, because if I would have gone some where else to live I would have been really depressed.

You were the first person I talked with in my college life, I was really happy.

I really appreciate our friendship. ”

I was shocked, I didn't know what to respond at that time.