Part 16 (2/2)

I got to the Convoy to find there was no news of the barge, but I had to dismount all the same--duty is duty--and I kissed the grey's nose, little thinking I should never see him again. The barge did not come down till 9 o'clock the next morning. _C'est la guerre_--and a _very_ trying one to boot!

The weather was ideal just then: warm and sunny and not a cloud in the sky except for those little round white puffs where the Archie sh.e.l.ls burst round the visiting Huns.

One afternoon about 5 o'clock, when breakfast had been at lunch time and consequently that latter meal had been _n'apoo'd_ altogether, I went into the E.M.O.'s for the chits before leaving for camp. (These initials stood for ”Embarkation Medical Officer” and always designated the office and shed where the blankets and stretchers were kept; also, incidentally, the place where the Corporal and two men slept.) As I entered a most appetising odour greeted my nostrils and I suddenly realized how very hungry I was. I sniffed the air and wondered what it could be.

”Just goin' to have a c.o.c.kle tea,” explained the Corporal. ”I suppose, Miss, you wouldn't care to join us?” I knew the brew at the Convoy would be long since cold, and accepted the invitation joyfully.

Their ”dining-room” was but the shed where the stretchers were piled up, many of them brown and discoloured by blood, and bundles of fusty army blankets, used as coverings for the wounded, reached almost to the ceiling. They were like the stretchers in some cases, and always sticky to the touch. I could not repress a shudder as I turned away to the much more welcome sight of tea. A newspaper was spread on the rough table in my honour and Wheatley was despatched ”at the double” to find the only saucer! (Those who knew the good Wheatley will perhaps fail to imagine he could attain such a speed--dear Wheatley, with his long spindle legs and quaint serio-comic face. He was a man of few words and a heart of gold.)

I look back on that ”c.o.c.kle tea” as one of my happiest memories. It was so jolly and we were all so gay and full of hope, for things were going well up the line.

I had never tasted c.o.c.kles before and thought they were priceless. We discussed all manner of things during tea and I learnt a lot about their aspirations for _apres la guerre_. It was singular to think that within a short month, of that happy party Headley the Corporal alone remained sound and whole. One was killed by a sh.e.l.l falling on the E.M.O. One was in hospital crippled for life, and the third was brought in while I was there and died shortly after from septic pneumonia. Little did we think what was in store as we drank tea so merrily!

Wheatley insisted on putting a ba.s.s bag full of c.o.c.kles into the lorry before I left, and when I got to camp I ran to the cook-house thinking how they would welcome a variation for supper.

”c.o.c.kles?” asked Bridget. ”Humph, I suppose you know they grow on sewers and people who eat them die of ptomaine poisoning?” ”No,” I said, not at all crestfallen, ”do they really, well I've just eaten a whole bag full!

If they give me a military funeral I do hope you'll come,” and I departed, feeling rather hurt, to issue further invitations.

I was drawing petrol at the Stores the next day and as I was signing for it the man there (my Charlie Chaplin friend) kindly began to crank up.

As he did so I saw Little Willie move gently forward, and ran out to slip the gear back into ”neutral.”

”It's a Hun and called 'Little Willie,'” I explained as I did so.

”Crikey, wot a car,” he observed, ”no wonder you calls it that. Don't you let him put it acrosst you, Miss.”

”He's only four more days to do it in,” I thought joyfully, as I rattled off to the Quay, and yet somehow a premonition of some evil thing about to happen hung over me, and again I wished I hadn't lost my charm.

The next day was Wednesday, and I had been up since 5 and was taking a lorry-full of stretchers and blankets past a French Battery to the E.M.O.'s. It was about midday and there was not a cloud in the sky. Then suddenly my heart stood still. Somehow, instinctively, I knew I was ”for it” at last. Whole eternities seemed to elapse before the crash. There was no escape. Could I urge Little Willie on? I knew it was hopeless; even as I did so he bucketed and failed to respond. He would! How I longed for Susan, who could always be relied upon to sprint forward. At last the crash came. I felt myself being hurled from the car into the air, to fall and be swept along for some distance, my face being literally rubbed in the ground. I remember my rage at this, and even in that extreme moment managed to seize my nose in the hope that it at least might not be broken! Presently I was left lying in a crumpled heap on the ground. My first thought, oddly enough, was for the car, which I saw standing sulkily and somewhat battered not far off. ”There _will_ be a row,” I thought. The stretcher bearer in behind had been killed instantaneously, but fortunately I did not know of this till some time later, nor did I even know he had jumped in behind. The car rattled to such an extent I had not heard the answer to my query, if anyone was coming with me to unload the stretchers.

I tried to move and found it impossible. ”What a mess I'm in,” was my next thought, ”and how my legs ache!” I tried to move them too, but it was no good. ”They must both be broken,” I concluded. I put my hand to my head and brought it away all sticky. ”That's funny,” I thought, ”where can it have come from?” and then I caught sight of my hand. It was all covered with blood. I began to have a panic that my back might be injured and I would not be able to ride again. That was all that really worried me. I had always dreaded anything happening to my back, somehow.

The French soldiers were down from their Battery in a trice, all great friends of mine to whom I had often thrown ration cigarettes.

Gaspard (that was not his name, I never knew it, but always called him that in my own mind after Raymond's hero) gave a cry and was on the ground beside me, calling me his ”little cabbage,” his ”poor little pigeon,” and presently he half lifted me in his arms and cradled me as he might a baby. I remained quite conscious the whole time. ”Will I be able to ride again?” kept hammering through my brain. The pain was becoming rapidly worse and I began to wonder just where my legs were broken. As I could move neither I could not discover at all, and presently I gave a gasp as I felt something tighten and hurt terribly.

It was a boot lace they were fixing to stop the haemorrhage (bootlaces are used for everything in France). The men stood round, and I watched them furtively wiping the tears away that rolled down their furrowed cheeks. One even put his arm over his eyes as a child does. I wondered vaguely why they were crying; it never dawned on me it had anything to do with _me_. ”Completement coupee,” I heard one say, and quick as a shot, I asked, ”Ou est-ce que c'est qu'est coupe?” and those tactful souls, just rough soldiers, replied without hesitation, ”La jaquette, Mademoiselle.”

”Je m'en fiche de la jaquette,” I answered, completely rea.s.sured.

I wished the ambulance would come soon. ”I _am_ in a beastly mess,” I thought again. ”Fancy broken legs hurting like this. What must the men go through!”

It was singular I was so certain they were broken. But a month before I had received a wire from the War Office stating one of my brothers had crashed 1,000 feet and had two legs fractured, and without more ado I took it for granted I was in a similar plight. ”I won't sit up and look,” I decided, ”or I shall think I'm worse than I am. There's sure to be some blood about,” and the sun beat down fiercely, drying what there was on my face into hard cakes. My lower lip had also been cut inside somehow. One man took off his coat and held it high up to form a shade.

I saw everything that happened with a terrible distinctness. They had already bound up my head, which was cut and bleeding profusely.

The pain was becoming almost intolerable and I wondered if in time I would cry, but luckily one does not cry on those occasions; it becomes an impossibility somehow. I even began to wish I could. I asked to have my legs lifted a little and the pain seemed to ease somewhat. I shall never forget those Frenchmen. They were perfect. How often I had smiled at them as I pa.s.sed, and laughed to see them standing in a ring like naughty schoolboys, peeling potatoes, their Sergeant walking round to see that it was done properly!

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