C66 Even so … (1/2)
Every time you called me, she would ask me about you and Qing Er. She knew that you had dug a big hole in the newspaper, and had gone down to help out the poor. She was very anxious, but at that time, she was also unable to help you … Later on, she and I talked about it. It wasn't necessarily a bad thing to talk about poverty reduction, and it was a great way to temper one's will. Perhaps, there were some unexpected gains, and she really hit it right on. Earlier, Liu Yue gave me a call. I told her about your promotion and your relationship with Qing Er, saying that you were eating at my place. When she heard it, she immediately choked up and cried on the other side of the phone. She said that she hoped that this day would finally come. She said that she hoped that both of you would live a good life, that you would treat Qing Er well, take control of yourself, work, live and take good care of each and every step of yours … ”Also, tell me to tell you to remember the words she once told you. At any time, do not lose yourself …”
My tears blurred my eyes, and my lips trembled violently, but I could not speak.
”Just now, I asked if she wanted to talk to you. She was silent for a moment, but she couldn't say it. She said that green mountains are always here, and there will always be green rivers flowing. We will meet again in the future …” She also told me to tell you that she is currently living a good life and living a peaceful life, so you can rest assured that you don't have to worry about her … ”
My tears finally came.
I thought that I had always been incomparably strong, but for Liu Yue, I shed tears who knows how many times. Difficulties cannot defeat me, but, in the face of love, I am so weak, so young.
My tears of sadness flowed freely. I forgot that I should feel ashamed for crying in front of the Sister Lan.
Sister Lan looked at me quietly, her expression evidently a little surprised. She must have never thought that I would actually shed tears for Liu Yue, she obviously didn't know how deep my feelings for Liu Yue were.
Sister Lan handed me a tissue and I took it. I tried my best to hold back my tears as I sat there quietly.
But my heart was still bursting with tears.
Having suffered so much and suffered so many humiliations yet still caring about me, what kind of feelings is this? What kind of temperament was this?
Heartache, is the result of my love, cheating, is my ignorance of the operation.
Liu Yue allowed my childishness to become sensible, mature, and my arrogance to become ignorance.
I was thinking, love, not in the rain for the other side to hold an umbrella, but can accompany the other side to go to the rain.
I know that if Liu Yue were to one day walk into my heart again, she would definitely cry, because it would only be filled with sorrow and longing for Liu Yue; if one day I were to once again walk into his heart, Liu Yue would definitely cry as well, because it would only be filled with concern and care for me.
Sister Lan looked at me and fell into deep thought. Maybe, she was thinking, the deep feelings between Liu Yue and I might have exceeded her imagination.
Just then, a commotion came from outside and Qing Er woke up.
Sister Lan and I woke up from our contemplation and rushed out to see Qing Er.
Qing Er was walking unsteadily in the living room. When he saw us, he laughed embarrassedly: ”Hehe … ”I was asleep, I drank too much …”
”How do you feel now?” I held onto Qing Er's body.
Qing Er picked up the cup on the table and drank two sips: ”Aiya, I'm only drinking, I haven't eaten yet. I'm hungry, meow …”
Sister Lan laughed: ”Stupid girl, go inside and sit. I will bring you guys food!”
The three of us stopped drinking and began to eat.
After we ate, it was getting late. Qing Er and I took our leave, and before we left, we thanked Sister Lan once again for her hospitality.
The Sister Lan looked at me and smiled: Xiao Jiang, don't stand on ceremony with Sister Lan, it's inconvenient for you two little bachelors to start your own business, you can come if you want to, since I'm so bored at home, why can't you two come and chat with me when you're here …
Once again, I looked at Sister Lan with gratitude in my eyes and nodded.
I think that Sister Lan should understand that the gratitude in my eyes is not just for this meal.
Then, Qing Er and I will go back.
Qing Er still felt a little dizzy. As he walked outside, he cleared his mind a lot with the cold wind.
”feng-ge, I've slept for so long, what are you and Sister Lan talking about?” Qing Er asked me.
I raised my head to look at Dong Ri's lonely starry sky. ”I didn't say anything. It was just some common folk …”
”It can't be. When I woke up, I felt like I could hear all of you talking about her …”
I didn't wait for Qing Er to finish speaking before hugging Qing Er's shoulder and reaching out to cover Qing Er's mouth: ”Qing Er, just let it go over there. Don't mention it anymore. ”Look, this starry sky is beautiful. Do you remember how many times I looked up into the starry sky and counted the stars with you …?”
Qing Er raised his head and looked up into the night sky, with an expression of longing: ”That's right, feng-ge, in the past, we often counted stars together, but there are really too many stars in the sky, there's always an endless number. Some of them just disappeared after counting, and some just popped out again after counting.
I hugged Qing Er's body from the back, and rested my chin on Qing Er's shoulder. ”Qing Er, because the stars are like the sorrows in this world, coming and going, going and coming, feeling both happy and sad, repeating it over and over again …”
Qing Er nodded as if he understood something, and said, ”I don't want to be sad, I want to be happy, I don't want to let sadness go … … Let's go, I want to be happy forever … …”
After he finished speaking, the corners of Qing Er's eyes were shining, emitting a weak light in the darkness of the night.
I hugged Qing Er tightly. ”Qing Er, I won't leave you again, I'll be fine and be with you!”
Qing Er revealed a sweet smile on his face, ”feng-ge, today, I am the happiest person, the happiest person, the happiest person … Thank you, feng-ge. You allowed me to start a happy life once again, and you allowed me to once again recover the love that I had lost … ”
My heart is in distress, Qing Er is so easy to be satisfied, this is clearly my fault, but he still wants to thank me.
I touched Qing Er's face when I held it. Qing Er understood and consciously closed his eyes.
I lowered my head, and gently kissed Qing Er's lips.
The surroundings were very quiet. The night was cold, and the stars shone brilliantly.
Qing Er and I had lived together for four whole years on our university campus, hugging each other passionately. We could sense each other's heat and true feelings from each other's bodies, and we could also use hot and wet to communicate with each other's love and soul.