18 Demise And Vicissitude (2/2)

i waited in my chamber i was beset about Remus, would he come or not i wanted to see him very badly i heard a knock on my already open door Nina stood there and said ”Princess his majesty want you to come and join the ball and many of the guests has already arrived” i nodded in reply and followed her looking last time at myself in the mirror i wanted look my best for Remus.

As i was nearing the ball room i was getting excited and anxious, excited to see Remus and anxious for his absence, i halted myself just before the entrance of ball room afraid that what if he will not be there, Nina halted her steps and looked at me ”Princess is there any problem” she asked, ”no” i replied and entered into the ball room looking down as i entered the ball room, the whole room went silent and i can feel all the gazes on me, i didn't looked at anyone keeping my gaze down i walked towards my father following Nina, i held his arm and felt bit of relief ”you look pretty my daughter” father said covering my hand with his which was on his arm i looked up at him and smiled” thank you father” now guest removed their gazes from me and moved back to their conversations, i looked all around the ball room but there was no one from Xenia.

I saw King Elrond and Queen Riven having conversation with our guests but Raiden was not with them he was nowhere to be seen, it's means he hasn't come he is the reason for all this pain and suffering of mine. I shouldn't blame him he said what he had in his heart it was my mistake to kiss him back I'm the one to be blamed not him.

I was getting depressed but i heard the commotion at the entrance of ball room ”here comes his majesties close friends the King Edmund Zorla and Queen Aila Zorla with their sons Prince Remus Zion Zorla and Bloom Rey Zorla” as i heard his name i felt a relief in my heart as the commotion ended they entered the ball room, as soon as i saw Remus i felt like breathing again, as Remus saw me his mesmerizing smile was faded from his his face and he gave me an hatred look, which caused an piercing pain in my heart i looked away cause my heart can't bare hatred looks from him, i became overwhelmed and walked into antechamber, my heart felt an inexpressible pain, tears pooled in my eyes i don't want to cry i was controlling my tears, i was experiencing a intense pain in my throat due to controlling my tears, i didn't let a single tear leave my eye, i sniffed repeatedly and controlled myself,' you can do it Zeri control your emotions, don't let your emotions control you' i said to myself after wee minutes i walked out in the ball room, i found a perfect place from where i can see all the corners of ball room, i sat there and i started looking for my Prince, i found him he was having a conversation with Bloom and this person was not expected to be here and be with Remus, it was Ashley she was nerve-wrecking, after couple of minutes Bloom left them two alone, they both were giggling which caused an exquisite pain in my heart and angered me to my very core, i saw Bloom walking towards me with a glass of wine in his hand, he looked so desperate, i just looked at him with smile and he sat beside me, i faked a smile and asked ”how are you Bloom” i thought he will believe me but after listening what he said, i was dumbfound, ”you're a good actor Zeri, you disguised yourself well with your innocence and i never thought you would betray my brother, you're such a liar i let you go for Remus's happiness and foremost for your happiness, my brother loved you so much unconditionally but what you did you betrayed him” he infuriated, before i could say anything he said ”i'm not done yet, i wouldn't have believed it but i saw it with my own eyes from carriage, when Remus came to Aaira for picking up Raiden i too came with him, Raiden waved at you and you waved back at him with a smile you weren't even bothered about my brother, when we reached Xenia he described me everything you did to him i saw it myself in how much pain my brother was and is, so this was your way of handling him huhh, you don't deserve Remus's love” he said and scrammed.

He didn't even gave me a chance to speak, i may not deserve his love but i didn't betray him and when did i waved back at him, the window through which i saw them was covered in fog and i was standing behind the drapes, i was at the edge of crying but i controlled myself with every second i was becoming uncontrollable, i saw Ashley and Remus getting close his hands were on her waist and her hands were wrapped around his neck, there was only mere difference left in between their bodies they were on the dance floor with others, my eyes were filled with tears and burning pain in my heart, he looked towards me and pulled her closer to him crossing the mere distance between them and smiled slyly their bodies were abutted and tears leaked from my eyes, now it was unendurable if i'll be here anymore i'll burst out into tears in front of everyone, so i just gave him a hurtful look and i wiped my tears looking at him, he was still staring at me i stood up i wanted to run away from their crying but i walked into antechamber before entering into antechamber, i looked at Remus who was adhered to Ashley and was still staring at me tears rolling down my eyes uncontrollably, and i ran away to the back wing of the castle which led to gardens, i opened the door and i was hit by the cold air, there were no knights guarding there so i took the advantage and ran out into the gardens tears making it difficult to run, so i stopped in the middle of the gardens and collapsed on the ground sobbing i wiped away my tears and started running again as i heard someone coming towards me ”Zeri, stop where are you going” i halted running and turned around to look on hearing familiar voice, it was Remus ” you shouldn't care about where i'm going when you hate me” i hollered and started running out of the gardens towards the woods,”Zeri please stop listen to me don't go in there i don't hate you please” he yelled whilst running behind me, i know he hates me he's lying so he can stop me from running into woods.

Ihalted running and turned around to look at him with teary eyes he stopped few feet away from me panting ”but i hate you now” i sniffed turning my back on him, my braid was messed up due to running so i opened it tossing my hair behind.

Remus fiercely turned me around holding my waist ” look at me” he yelled but i didn't so he grabbed my hair pulling my head back to look at him i groaned in pain holding his hand ”you're hurting me Remus” i cried out.

” not as much as you hurt me Zeri” he infuriated looking into my tearful eyes ”why don't you just go and be with your Ashley” i quoth my voice was breaking he tighten his grip on my hair and pulled back harshly my head was throbbing with pain and i cried out, ” you're the one who betrayed me, your'e the one who kissed Raiden, you're the one who lied, i only loved you so much Zeri and i still do” he said his eyes softening and he let go of my hair caressing them, his eyes were full of tears i moved away from him angered ” how many times do i have to tell you, i didn't betray you why don't you believe me Remus i agree i kissed him back  i didn't wanted to kiss him but my body was working on it's own i was disable to stop myself” i yelled.

he smirked” what about you waving at him, when he was leaving your castle you didn't even came out to meet me, but you waved at him how can i believe you when i saw everything with my own eyes”

”i didn't waved at him, i only stood there and i didn't came out cause i thought you will come to meet me and even if i tried you would be gone until i come out there” i replied.

”stop lying i saw you waving at him”

”i didn't ”

”you did”

”you don't deserve my love you're still lying” he stated.

he don't know how much he's hurting me, he's accusing me for the things i haven't done, punishing me for the mistakes i haven't made, i can't take it anymore

”okay fine i don't deserve your love, i'm a betrayer i'm the definition of every bad thing in the world, a person like me doesn't deserve to live you will know one day that i wasn't lying, you will regret it you will cry for me and miss me but i won't come back” i said acrimoniously and tears slid down my cheeks he was appalled on my words and didn't said a word, saying that i ran towards the woods, he was running behind me yelling my name but i didn't stop and kept running holding my gown i entered into the woods, everything was pitch dark inside i didn't understand where to go  i heard Remus still hollering my name so i continued running deep inside the woods, i halted near the tree panting hard, it was chilling in here i sat down leaning against the tree, i closed my eyes and rested my head against it, i heard foot steps approaching towards me, but i didn't opened my eyes i was so tired due the running i did, the sound of foot steps stopped just in front of me, i thought i might be Remus and didn't opened my eyes, he started moving closer to me and stopped few inches away from my face, i felt his cool breath on my cheek i snapped open my eyes and found myself looking into bright blood red eyes, i was petrified and pushed him away letting out a scream......................................