2 Chapter 2 - Past is Pas (2/2)

”I know, I'm sorry... anyways, let gets inside.”

As we enter the shop and went back to were I was sat. Before I could sat down he gave me a tissue to wipe my teary eye.

”Thanks”

”Have you ordered?”

”Yeah, I've eaten as well.”

”Okay, wait here I'll just order a drink.”

When he returned with his hot coffee and sat down. He looked at me and smiled. He pinch my checks so hard the I wish to punch him.

”You've change...”

”Huh? I'm still me.”

”You've really change a lot.”

”How come, I know I've lost weight since I did starve myself almost to death because of him and I don't get enough sleep but apart from that nothing change. I'm still me.” I said to him while giving him abig cheerful smile.

”Even your smile has change.”

”Oh...”

”Its fine, I know one days you'll be fine.”

”But I'm fine already...”

”Don't lie to me or lie to yourself. Your not fine...”

”It hurts but I'm alright now, I've accepted what happened between us. It's all my fault for taking him for granted.”

Hehit my head and frowned at me.

”You didn't he did...” he said as he sat back and scratch his head. ”How many times have he lied to you and forgiven him. Yet in the end you forgive him and that bastard still choice to be with the b*tch.”

”Hey, watch your mouth. There are people around us.”

”Whatever, all I can say is he was never good enough for you.”

” I know...”

”Anyways, forget about him his your past.”

As we continued to quarrel about my ex and enough the comfort of each other. That we didn't notice the time it was almost getting late and I still need to travel home. I arrived pretty late and when I got home and phone was finally connected back to wifi, I received a message from Ma.

[Did you see King? How was it?]

[Hi, Ma... I'm good yeah. Just got back home.]

[Good your home.]

[Hmmm...]

[Whats wrong?]

[Nothing, I feel like the world is against me.]

[Honey, the world is not against you. Always remember that were here for you.]

[I know...]

As I continued messaging with my mother. I started crying and feeling burdened within me. We talked about the pain my family has done and now the man I loved did this to me. All this past years has just been so painful. I felt like life has been so cruel to me and I just wish everything to end. I did not want the life I'm living anymore. But then the words my mother said change brought light to me.

[Honey, past is past. Move on already, live life the way you want it to be... Keep moving forward with your life. Its your life not theres to control. I gave you and your brother freedom to do what you want for I want you to be happy. Since I am still able to support you. Go and do what you want. Let go of all the pain and nightmare that are killing you inside. Come on, you are still young and you need to live. I gave life for you not to be in pain but for you to be happy.]

After our long conversation and I was exhausted from the travel and all the crying. I lay down my bed and keep repeating the words everyone has told me this past few day. 'Past is past' 'move on' 'keep moving forward' 'it your life' then it hit me so badly that tears were falling down my face again. They did not fool me at all I was the fool. I was a fool to change who I was for them and I was a fool to be controlled by them. From now on, I'll live my life the way I want it to be.