175 Nothing has Changed, yet...Time will only Tell (2/2)

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We remained silent for the remainder of the visit hours, and sadly, that time soon passed by quickly. It wasn't long before the setting sun allowed the sky to darken, and the in-hospital broadcast urged visitors to leave for the night.

I picked up my coat from the chair and slowly walked over to the hospital door, still feeling somewhat reluctant to go. I stopped at the door and looked over my shoulders at the frail girl who smiled in a charming and beautiful manner that was directed towards me.

”Alevian,” she said. ”You still have that key I gave you?”

I brought a hand to my chest and felt through the fabric the metallic object. Then, I nodded in response.

”That's good,” she nodded. ”Don't lose it.”

She then paused momentarily as she gazed down at the white, hospital bed with a depressed head. Yet, on her face was a content smile.

”Alevian,” she said with a happy, joyful smile on her face. ”Goodbye.”

I nodded in response to her, and then went on my way. I felt a great sense of fatigue in my system as I walked down the hallway of the hospital toward the elevators, and felt extremely drowsy when I boarded the train home. This fatigue...it must be from crying for such a long time. But, it's also the reason why my mind felt strangely at peace now. It was as if weeping was able to soothe my mind of all the stored frustration and pain, allowing me to be slightly more optimistic.

Things will work out in the end. There's nothing that I can do to prevent her death, so...looks like the plan hasn't changed at all. I'll just keep creating lasting memories with her, make her happy as the days leading up to her eventual passing. With the limited time we have left, it'll be difficult trying to satisfy my thirst for her presence for the rest of my life. But... I must do the best that I can such that she can truly rest in peace. Besides, once she dies, maybe she'll even become a ghost and haunt me. That doesn't sound too bad... According to Noah, after death, spirits reincarnate. Maybe I'll meet her again in some other way. Life has to go on, and nothing has changed at all in what I have to do.

Later that night, I sat before my desk in my room with my phone in hand. I stared at the blinking cursor in the textbox of the messaging app, thinking of what words to type in. I've been sitting like this for hours now as I struggled to think of words that I can use to communicate my feelings to her. I had failed in the hospital room, and even though I will have another chance tomorrow, I cannot wait until then. I must get this done before I fall asleep.

What is something that can encompass my feelings for her? I repeated to myself once more in my mind.

All of a sudden, my eyes were caught by the sudden appearance of the light in the sky. Looking out the sliding glass doors, I saw that the clouds had parted, revealing the celestial object in the sky. The moon, as if a crystal made of ice, shined in the nighttime sky, granting the world with the opportunity to bask in its gentle rays. Upon seeing the moon, I suddenly recalled the wish that I had written down on the paper lanterns that were released into the sky while in Saroff.

With a smile, I began typing in that message into my phone as it encompasses the entirety of my feelings for her.

The moon shall remain eternal.

With my heart rapidly beating, I held my breath as I pressed send.

A smile appeared on my face when I saw that it was successfully delivered and had appeared in our chat history. With a relieved sigh, I walked over to my bed and collapsed on it from the fatigue that I had endured for the entirety of the day. With my phone, I switched off the lights in the room and climbed underneath my warm, bed sheets.

It was pretty late already with the time being 2:15 A.M. so I know that waiting for a reply from her is pointless. Since I am extremely tired, I decided that it was time for me to go to bed. Lucky for me, it's a Saturday the next day so I can sleep in a bit. My plans are for me to visit Luna for the entirety of tomorrow.

What should we do then? I asked myself. What is something fun that we can do that can create lasting memories?...

My eyelids became extremely heavy as the comforting warmth of my bed slowly lulled me into a drowsy state.

What game can we play tomorrow? We could...

My eyes were closed when the sound of a notification popped up on my phone. I was extremely tired and sleepy, but just the thought that it might've been a response from Luna made me exert the energy to reach over for my phone to check the notification. However, I was so tired that I fell into a state of slumber moments after reading fragments of what was displayed on the dim screen.

[Objective Completed]