84 Weirdness (2/2)

”Don't tell anyone,” she had said to me with that mysterious smile on her face.

That was the last thing I could remember before we left the hotel room and I escorted her home. I was perplexed by that statement. She didn't want anyone else to know so why did she let me know? Why let me of all people suffer from knowing how short your life expectancy was? Why only torment me? And... how can she still smile when you know you're going to die?

The silence was disturbed when the door opposite to mine opened, revealing Irina and Muria. Both were dressed in their school uniforms and appeared extremely well-rested when compared to me. For some reason, seeing them this morning made me quite happy. Happy to the point that I smiled when I saw them walk up to wait for the elevator as well.

”Can you not?” Muria had a disgusted look on her face as she saw my smile. ”It's disgusting.”

”Good morning, Alevian,” Irina greeted me with a pleasant smile.

Upon seeing them, I felt as if my troubled mind was soothed somewhat. It was as if seeing something beautiful and the healing effect it would have on one's heart. I yearned to approach them and touch them. I want to feel their pulse and know that I'm not alone.

I realized that I was still staring at them, probably in a dreamy way, but I didn't care. My mind felt weird... Like it wasn't normal for me to be thinking in this way. Then, before I realized, I had walked up to them and brought my arms around the both of them.

”A-Alevian!”

Irina blushed as I brought my left arm around her while I brought my right arm around Muria. Both made no efforts to push me away initially, but after a while, that resistance arrived, although not as heavy as I had anticipated.

”What's wrong with you?” Muria's face was red as she drew herself and Irina back and away from me. She stared at me with a somewhat frightened and concerned gaze, and as for Irina, she was to occupied with being embarrassed as she avoided eye contact with me and gazed at the floor.

”Sorry,” I said, frowning and taking a step back from them. ”I...”

I wanted to say I felt weird, but... that was probably obvious to them. However, I didn't know what else to describe my current mental state with. For some odd reason, ever since last night, I have an urge to make physical contact with others... That sounds weird, but it is what I truly felt.

The two slowly recovered from the shock my sudden embrace had brought them as we rode the elevator down. They seemed to have noticed the abnormality in my behavior so instead of being offended or frightened by my embrace, both of them were worried about me. Even Muria had a look of concern on her face as she gazed at me.

I didn't know how I became this way, but I believe I know when I became like this. My desire to interact with others and have physical contact... this all started following that one interaction I had in the hotel room last night. It all happened when I was struck with the fact that Luna, the girl who is the polar opposite from me, was dying.