44 Time to act like a leader! (2/2)

She then leans forward and plants her lips right on mine. While that's happening all the times that I went and kissed my ex go through my head again, how she was my first kiss, and well my only kiss. I took her to a carnival and while we were both in a double bumper cart she leaned over and kissed me since I was not the kind of person to be the first to do it. Then I remembered how when I was making cookies another time and she snatched a bit of cookie dough and ate it, since she had some on her lips I went and kissed her as vengeance. We had a lot of good times didn't we? Sometimes I miss her a lot.

(A/N: If you think this is sudden, well it is. She's Darkness though and get's turned on by someone looking at her. I'll explain her reasoning later though. Also yeah, I'm showing you guys even more of the MC's character. I'm somewhat proud of the background I came up with for him, and I like his personality.)

Without noticing it, I started crying, Darkness who felt the tears touch her pulled away quickly and spoke, waking me from my daze, ”Am I really that inexperienced and bad that I made you cry?”

I quickly put my hand to my eye and rub it, and when I pull it away I see how much my hand was glistening from the tears, so I shake my head, ”It wasn't your fault... the last person that I kissed, she, in nicer terms, didn't treat me well at all. I was just remembering some of the times that I had with her when it was still fun.”

She looks down for a moment, then looks at me, ”So, you aren't mad at me?”

I sigh and lean back, ”In all honesty? Nope. I was surprised that's for sure. I was just taking care of you when I noticed that you weren't kidding when you said you weren't wearing anything and that it was thin, so I wanted to wake you up and try to see if you wanted to go to your bed to rest.”

She then went and got a deep red blush on her face, ”D-did you touch me at all?” I don't know if she's turned on or embarrassed right now.

I sigh, ”I rubbed your back while I talked to Olivier. You can ask her to confirm later.”

She then looked down dejectedly, ”You know, I wanted to ask, why are you such a masochist?”

She then got off my lap and turned around from me, ”IT'S A SECRET!” She then looked at me and I saw her face was bright red, and then she ran off.

Leading my summons huh. How in the fuck do I manage a country/town/village/ what the fuck am I in charge of anyway? when I can't even help out the people that are supposed to be part of my team. God, one stabbed me, one tried to stab the others, one is a playboy, one literally does whatever the fuck he wants, and the last one seems just to exist to taunt me and take me over the edge.

God, system what do I have left that I can do right now since I am fairly bored and have some time to wind down?

'Host is advised to rest instead of worry about anything else, especially more summons.'

That's reasonable. Well now that I unsummoned Esdeath I have my bed to myself, hehe.

I walk to my room and see laying on it, Darkness still in the robe and her face is in a deep blush. I walk forward to go and grab her off my bed (it's my bed. I wanted to sleep in it in comfort), but before I could, she starts tearing up again, ”Please, don't go. I don't want to be alone tonight...”

I sigh, it's not the first time I've slept with a girl, but the only time I've done it was with my Ex! God dammit, I am nowhere near emotionally ready for how fast Darkness is going. I like dealing with Tsunade more, even if her personality seems to change by the hour sometimes. I go and sit on my bed, ”Fine, just for tonight, and please don't try anything. I am pretty tired from today, okay?”

She sits up and nods at me before blushing, ”well... don't touch me either then... especially not when I'm vulnerable and sleeping since my kimono is thin. I hope that a perverted man like you can resist.” Is she teasing, trying to get me to act, or is she just going through things in her mind? I can't tell sometimes.

I just chop her lightly on the forehead and say the word sleep to her as I lay down under the covers. I have to resist her for tonight, you can do it Joe. Use that willpower that you were bragging about to Esdeath.

(A/N: If you think about Joseph's mindset he would not want to sleep with Darkness, or anyone yet for that matter. He started crying after a kiss, imagine how broken he would feel if he had slept with anyone right now?)