447 Loneliness is the greatest enemy (2/2)
Her face was stained with tears as she endured all sorts of difficulties. After countless close encounters with Death, she learned how to avoid danger and hide herself. She managed to find a space to survive amid the beasts, poisonous bugs and man-eating plants.
Of course, simple evasion and hiding was insufficient for her to live on because hunger was the second difficulty she faced.
In order not to starve to death, she needed to find food.
In the beginning, she ate sour fruits, dry and hard tree bark, or gross earthworms. Finally, she began psionic cultivation from the books from her memories. She became hungrier as the amount of energy needed to make up for her energy expenditure increased.
Therefore, in order to survive, she needed to know how to kill.
Hunting beasts was her only path for survival.
Kill!
Kill!
And more killing!
In order to survive, she needed to turn those ferocious beasts into her food.
After she learned how to kill, disease was the third difficulty she faced.
At the beginning, she did not have the ability to make fire. By enduring the grossness and nausea, she ate raw meat and even worms. The unprocessed food sent germs into her stomach constantly, so it obviously caused her physiological health to suffer.
However, even though she was sick, so sick to the point of death, she had to maintain her clarity of mind because she needed to avoid danger. She needed to hunt. She needed to survive on that uninhabited island.
No one could help her and no one would fall from the sky to become her hero.
Therefore, she could only save herself. She could only become her own hero.
Through her vague memories of text that described holy light treatment, she managed to create and modify through trial and error a healing technique that was unique to her. She called it Healing of the Dawn.
She used Healing of the Dawn to treat herself of her sickness.
Through the knowledge of sword techniques in her mind, she used tree branches as swords and would brandish her 'sword' whenever she had the time. She would constantly brandish it and gradually went from knowing nothing to possessing sword attacks, sword beams and finally Sword Intent.
And when she used Sword Intent to slash out a fiery sword strike, even a tiny flame made her finally tear up. Because from that moment, she could finally eat cooked food. She finally did not need to endure the feeling of torturing her throat as she swallowed the gross and nauseating raw meat.
After settling her danger, hunger and illness, she finally managed to have a slightly more normal life.
However, the test of the greatest difficulty finally befell her—Loneliness.
At the beginning when she was only bent on surviving, she did not have that much time to consider other matters. However, once her life finally stabilized, loneliness and boredom began flooding her senses, drowning the young her.
She did not know how long she needed to survive on the uninhabited island. Neither did she know if anyone would come rescue her. To her, the uninhabited island was a prison. It was a life imprisonment without parole.
And in this prison, there was no other human except her.
That was a world where only one girl lived.
In that world, no one could hear her voice.
Her voice only produced words that did not reach anyone, neither would it receive any response.
Loneliness and boredom began to slowly devour her determination.
Finally, one day, after enduring countless difficulties while she remained strong, she finally had the first thought of committing suicide despite the fact that it was not easy for her to survive for that long.
So loneliness was the greatest enemy.IChooseDogLeading (我选择狗带) when read in Chinese sounds like I Choose Go Die. It was a meme that resulted from a former member of famous Korean boygroup, EXO, TAO (Huang Zitao). At a concert, there was a part in a rap that where he said ””, but due to a mispronunciation, it sounded like he will not easily choose to be led by dogs. This phrase now means 'I'd rather die/I choose death'.