Chapter 102 - Panic (2) (2/2)

She tremblingly but hastily shut the diary and stood up in attention. ”Z-Zhiyuan…you returned from your walk.” Her smile faltered as she spoke.

Zhiyuan too snapped from his daze. He stared at Xinyi and there was a beat of silence between them that felt as long as a year to Xinyi.

Zhiyuan took a step in front of her. His unreadable gaze made Xinyi made her heart skip a beat.

”I saw that Xinyi.”

She froze.

”I saw what you wrote there in your diary. This is unbelievable. You actually….”

The more Zhiyuan spoke, the more Xinyi felt as if she lost her strength. She never wanted to let Zhiyuan know about her feelings and now he suddenly read it out of nowhere, exposing them. Her heart wasn't prepared for this.

This cannot be true. What will I say to him? How should I explain myself?

In her mind, she was already thinking of any excuse to dodge his question, but her messed up heart wasn't letting her.

Zhiyuan narrowed his eyes and observed Xinyi. She seemed really anxious for some reason though she was trying to hide it behind her smile.

”So you had a crush on somebody in college.”

At that point, she almost collapsed. She forced herself to stay steady.

”Who was that lucky guy?”

”Ah...ah? What?”

Zhiyuan shook his head. ”I was this close to reading his name but you shut the diary.”

Xinyi was dumbfounded. When Zhiyuan had entered and saw her diary open, he was surprised to see the same page open as that day when he discovered that Xinyi wrote about her feelings for some guy. That shook his heart for a moment.

It's the same page…

He clearly recollected the date and some of the words he had read that day. Unfortunately, the locks of Xinyi's hair fell upon the part where she wrote Zhiyuan's name, so that obstructed his view.

And he couldn't help but give in to his vice. Even though he knew it was wrong to intrude upon her privacy like that, he couldn't help but lean and try to read further to know that man's name. But at that time, Xinyi already closed the diary as he was about to see the name.

Zhiyuan scratched his chin. ”Sorry. I shouldn't do that but I couldn't help it. I was really curious to know about him.”

Her eyes rapidly blinked trying to process what he said.

So he didn't read it? He didn't see his name?

She fell short of words to describe just how relieved she felt to know that she wasn't exposed. The thudding in her chest finally stopped.

She anxiously laughed. ”Oh-oh haha. That's nothing…it's just…”

Zhiyuan felt a distinct uneasiness well up in his chest. He had completely forgotten about that guy. He could only think about what happened between them in the last few days. The lessening distance, the closeness, the kiss… Their relationship was slowly and unconsciously taking a new turn that always filled his heart with unknown happiness and excitement.

But now he felt as if somebody poured a bucket full of cold water on him.