Chapter 103 - The Distant Past (1/2)

The first thing he saw upon entering the room was Xinyi with her diary and not just that. She had opened the page where she had written about her feelings for him and disappointment filled him. Something pricked his heart.

That meant that seven years later too, Xinyi hadn't forgotten about that guy. She still thought about him. She still remembered him.

Pain gripped him and he clenched his fingers into a fist.

Why am I so affected by this? I have no right to feel sad or disappointed, Zhiyuan said to himself as if consoling himself.

After all, Zhiyuan hadn't forgotten how he thought of Caihong these past years. He didn't think or feel in a sense of getting back together with her. That would betray Xinyi and their marriage and he would never do that.

But it was in the sense to know the truth. He just wanted to know the truth and that was linked to Caihong and Xiaosi.

If I didn't let go of my pursuit for truth, then I have no right to feel sad if Xinyi remembers him too. Maybe she still loves that guy. She couldn't forget him. Was that why that page was open?

And this happened right after last night when they accidentally kissed. They kissed and then the next morning, she was going through her diary to read the part where she loved some guy.

When Zhiyuan approached her as he entered the room, he saw how Xinyi was brushing her fingers through the page. He saw the expression in her eyes, the trance in her gaze and the soft but painful smile on her lips.

Maybe she really…didn't like the kiss that's why...

Zhiyuan laughed, despite an insurmountable pain surging in his heart. ”I am just surprised. I or anybody else never knew of you having a crush on some guy.”

Xinyi stiffened. She maintained her countenance as she looked at him. Even if he didn't see the name, she couldn't now deny the fact that she did like someone in college.

”Yeah...I mean that was in college. Ju-just a crush,” she lowered her head and fiddled with her fingers.

”Who was he?” He asked in a daze. The question came out of his mouth even before he knew it.

Xinyi slightly widened her eyes. She was panicking again. She averted her gaze left and right but couldn't think of any answer to give.

Zhiyuan suddenly realized what happened. He parted his lips to tell her to ignore his question and let it be.

But he couldn't do it. The words didn't come out because he really wanted to know the man's identity and he thought…

Maybe just maybe...she will tell me herself.

Xinyi took a deep breath and just randomly took out a guy's name from her class that came to her mind first. ”Q-Qin Fuhua.”

Zhiyuan stiffened. He tried to recollect any man with the name Qin Fuhua. ”Who is Qin Fuhua?”

Xinyi cleared her throat and clutched her dress in panic. ”W-we were in the same class. But that is already in the past now. It was just a small crush though.”

”O-Oh…” Zhiyuan looked away.