54 Ease the burden (1/2)

Xavier pulled the door closed behind him as he walked carefully into the tiny room with a hot cup of tea. He set it down on the wall-mounted desk before sitting down on the edge of the bed. He sat back against the built-in headboard. Once he was comfortable, he leaned forward and pulled her onto his lap. When she didn't fight against him, only curled into a tight ball on his chest, he began stroking her hair. Noting the cold, clammy feeling of her skin, he retrieved the blanket and covered her. Her silent tears soaked through his shirt, staining the white fabric.

A scowl furrowed his brow as he continued to soothe her. ”Shhh. You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to, but I'm here when you're ready… Shhh….” He removed the thick shaded glasses and sat them on the desk beside the tea. His eyes blazed with the fires of his anger as he gently hooked his fingers under her chin to lift her troubled eyes up to his. Set firm in his resolve to ease her burden he said, ”Joslyn, look into my eyes… You've had a rough day, but it's all over now. You are with me now. I will protect you and care for you in ways… others haven't. I need you to rest now, do you understand? Let me help you relax, alright…”

The tears stopped and her eyes became intensely trained onto his. When she only nodded her head; he took it as understanding and as a confirmation to the effectiveness of his abilities on her. He released her face and retrieved the tea. ”Here drink this.” Once she took the cup from him, he began working his suit jacket off and working the tie loose.

She watched as he worked the first button free… then the second… then a third and fourth. She lowered the cup in her hands as she watched him pull the shirt free of his slacks before unlatching his belt and removing it. Jos could feel a deep blush burn across her checks, but she couldn't help watching. Everything about him was mesmerizing.

Xavier chuckled as he kicked off his shoes never taking his eyes off her. ”Now it's your turn.” He couldn't fight the grin that spread across his face when her eyes bugged from their socks. He crawled across the bed toward her in a slow, seductive manner. He splayed himself out beside her. He sent her a mischievous grin from lash shaded eyes as he took her leg by the calf. He moved it upward with one hand, placing a light kiss on her knee. With the other hand, he worked her shoe off. He repeated it on the other leg, before cupping her face. ”I only meant it was your turn to get comfortable.” He scooted back against the headboard. He rubbed the bed beside him, his eyes glowed brilliantly, ”Come here.”

Jos didn't know whether it was her own desire or the control she had asked him to see several times that was causing her body to move, but she didn't try to resist. {Whatever happens, happens… I'll never see him or Russ again after this weekend… Should I just say fuck it and make the first move???} Instead of sitting beside him, she crawled back onto his lap. She felt the blush deepen and couldn't look him in the face. Instead, she ran her fingers along the open seam of his shirt.

Xavier pulled her face up to his, his brow was furrowed, ”You don't have to do this…” He ran his other hand through his hair. ”I'm sorry, sometimes my will gets pushed on people by accident.” He looked away, ”It's why I keep glasses on…”

Joslyn ran her fingers feather-light across his bare chest, ”I… I…”

He frowned, ”What happened while you were at the apartment?” He gently pressed her hand into his chest to stop its arousing movements. ”I know I said you didn't have to talk about it, but I can't help but… wonder…” {I know good and well what she's doing… but I want her to at the very least admit it to herself.} ”Did he hurt you?”

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Her eyes shot up to him at the word 'he'. She shook her head, ”Russ was there… but nothing happened between us. We actually just talked…”

His frown deepened, ”Something must have happened.” She tried to move off his lap, but he held her in place, ”Jos, look at me. I told you I want to be here for you. I want to help you. I can tell you are hurting right now, and believe me, I want nothing more than picking up where we left off last night… but… look at me… I don't want just a piece of you, I want it all.” He cupped her face with both hands, ”I have fallen in love with you. Please, tell me what is hurting you so much.”

Tears built in her eyes before overflowing, ”He wasn't alone...”

Xavier frowned and pulled her up against him, misunderstanding what she was trying to say. ”I'm so sorry.”

She shook her head against his chest, ”No… I don't mean in that way… It was… another guy… That… that…” She choked on her tears.

”Shhh.” He whispered against her head as he stroked her hair. ”It's over, just tell me…”

Tears streamed down her cheeks, ”I've only ever been in love once before… and… and… He was there today…” Her words began to carry a hint of hysteria. ”It was too much… It's been too long… I… I… couldn't…. I didn't even know he was in the area…”

{Wait, what????} He held her tight against his chest. ”Tell me about it… I'm sure it would help you to get it out.” {Say a name, baby… All I need is a name…}

Jos thought it over for a short while. {Raven is the only other one who I've ever talked to about… him… Maybe he's right…} ”He… He… was sent to help me when I was young..er… I… I fell in love with him, but he made it very clear he didn't feel the same… He was seeing someone else… several someone elses, actually… I was jealous…” She frowned squeezing her eyes closed as tightly as she could. ”There was so much that happened… I… guess it left a horrible taste in my mouth that I could never really get over.” She began crying again, ”I'm cursed when it comes to love…”