Chapter 70 - Eshans Innaya (2/2)

”I am fine, Arjun.” Again, I did not even let him finish. I turned to him, and forced a smile, chanting the same again. ”I am fine. I really am.”

I was foolishly going to repeat it a couple of times more to make him believe, but his stare shut me up and my eyes were again wet for I knew Arjun knew.

I hated my tears. I hated myself. I did not consider it an embarrassment to cry in front of people. I just felt sick for dragging Arjun in my issues, my fears, my insecurities, and the entire fiasco that happened due to them. My tears hurt him, and that hurt me even more.

”I believe it's going to be okay, Innaya. I believe you two will be back together exactly the way you were.” Arjun dropped his handkerchief in my lap, and he took off the car keys.

My eyes lit up at his words. ”You do?” I asked out of pure desperation. The desperation of the assurance that Eshan and I had a chance.

Arjun nodded. ”I do. Now, you go and take some rest. This has been an emotionally exhausting day for you. I am going out of town for there is some unavoidable work. I have arranged everything here.

All the vegetables and fruits are in the fridge. Cook for yourself and eat because the maid isn't coming today. I have ordered a meal from outside, but I know you don't like it. Suit yourself. Bye.”

The piece of information Arjun fed me did make me a little upset, but I was in control of emotions. I had decided to stop playing the victim card and to take responsibility for everything I had done, and everything that had happened because of me.

I, no longer, was going to trouble people the way I did in the past two months.

I, no longer, was going to invest time in blaming myself.

I, no longer, was going to sit and spend hours, wishing it had not

happened what had happened.

I, no longer, was going to do any of that.

I had enough of myself, and more than that, people had enough of me.

I had a past. A brutal one. A sickening past that would shatter anyone the way it has shattered me, but I, no longer, was going to allow it to affect the people I loved and the people who loved me.

Eshan had spent days and nights to stabilize me, to get me out of my darkness, and to see the light. I wasn't going to let it all waste.

I was going to transform myself, into a better person.

I was going to transform myself into a version of mine that I never thought was practical and possible.

I was going to do what I had believed all along that I could never do.

For Eshan.

For him.

For me.

For us.

I was going to transform myself and become the one he deserved.

Eshan's Innaya!