Chapter 59 - Had I truly lost everything? (2/2)

'Not tonight. You'll have to answer me. You called me your sister, and I considered yourself as my brother. As a brother, you've to give me answers I'm seeking, even if that means I have to force them out of you.'

I clumsily stood up, but because of sitting in the same position from very long, my legs had gone numb, and my knees buckled. My whole body started falling, ungracefully, and I closed my eyes expecting the heavy fall. The fall never came, instead, I found Arjun supporting me. With his help, I managed to sit on the bed.

”Yes, you are.” I looked into his eyes after I comfortable sat down. I still had held onto his wrist. There was that nagging feeling somewhere in the back of my mind as if telling me to not give up this time. I didn't realize where this courage was coming from, but it was for better because, without it, I wouldn't have been able to hold my ground for much longer.

”Innaya.”

I brushed away his warning tone, and I continued, ”Arjun, why are you still with me? You hate me, right? Then go ahead, let out your anger on me. You… you can hit—”

”SHUT UP!” His eyes blazed with anger, and he pressed his lips tightly. He tried sidestepping, to which I just shifted, blocking his way. I blinked back tears at his indifference.

”I am sorry, alright. Punish me how you want, but for God's sake, stop behaving like this...” my voice broke in the end as I pleaded, ”Just take me to Eshan.”

I fell on my knees before I joined my hands, begging him. I couldn't handle the distance between Eshan and I. The separation was killing me.

”Please Arjun, try to understand... You had said— you understand how I feel.” Lowering my forehead on my joined palms, I pleaded to him, reminding him of his own words. Maybe, it would soften his steely resolve.

”Yet you forgot what I said after that... I had told you to let Eshan help— not to let your past ruin your relationship.” He said through gritted teeth.

I sucked a sharp breath. He was right, but only partially. I had tried, and I would have told Eshan, eventually, if things had not turned out this way.

I raised my head to look at Arjun, to confirm that there was no hope. He was not going to forgive me ever. Dreading to lose myself into more despair, I averted my eyes even before they could meet his.

Had I truly lost everything?

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