Chapter 59 - Had I truly lost everything? (1/2)

|Innaya|

”ESHAN—”

I jolted awake. Frantically, I searched for him only to realize it was another nightmare. My hands met the cold floor beside the carpet I was sitting upon; I looked down and found myself in the same place where I was writing the letter. I had fallen asleep while crying when I had decided to leave Eshan's life for good.

I exhaled heavily. Wiping the sweat beads on my forehead, my fingers automatically went to the beaded wedding chain on my neck, curling around it. Somehow, the wedding chain comforted me. Lately, I had the feeling that something was not right with Eshan.

I wiped my face with my hands. In my sleep, I had cried, and traces of all the fresh and dried up tears were visible on my face, I could feel it.

”Water.”

The gruff voice of Arjun had me open my eyes that had closed on their own accord. Giving him a grateful look, I accepted it. The owner of blue orbs kept avoiding my gaze, instead focussed them somewhere on the carpeted floor.

”Thank you!” I mumbled softly. Without saying anything, Arjun turned to leave, but I had enough of his aloof behavior just as I had enough of his best friend's, my husband's.

Anyway, after this night I was leaving this place. So, I should take this opportunity to confront him.

For almost close to two months, he was staying beside me. Most of the time, he stayed out of my way. He appeared only with food three times a day if I didn't appear on my own in the dining room. Though I barely touched the food sometimes, his one glare was more effective than his words. I had to force myself to eat for I felt guilty whenever Arjun looked at me with those cold eyes.

Eshan's other friends didn't bother to visit me again after that fiasco Sahil created. It was a good thing, from childhood I was never good at dealing with people. I got scared easily, and that made it harder to deal with them.

I raised my right hand and caught his hand. Gripping his wrist, I asked the question that was swirling in my mind for so long. ”Why are you tending to my needs? Let me suffer, you don't have to be with me when you don't want to.”

His silence once again graced me; he tugged at his arm without turning to look at me.

”Arjun, I am asking something.” I made myself sound sterner, but I didn't think it made any difference for my voice was all squeaky and rough due to all the crying I had done.

”I am not answerable to you.” He removed my hold with his other hand before he started moving away.