Chapter 19 - A letter to grandpa (2/2)

Seems like, this is a dawn, after the dark night.

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Tears prickled in my eyes once again, after reading the feelings, I had penned down on the letter addressed to my late grandpa, which I could not share with anyone. Lighting the matchstick, I put the paper on fire from the corner. As the fire consumed letter bit by bit, I felt the heavy burden on my soul lessening.

The yellow-orange flame died down while the only remnants of my feelings were left in the form of ashes, inside the trash bin kept outside, in the balcony where I had been from past one hour.

Eshan's friends had left immediately after dinner, promising to meet me soon but not before giving Eshan earful for not telling them about our marriage. Eshan had an important video conference to attend, regarding some deal with clients of his company and he was in his study, leaving me all alone with my depressing thoughts.

Somehow, the day's event had shaken me and I knew, him too. With the time we had been sharing, I knew he was not the person to lose his patience or his demeanor. Yet he lost it today. I had felt his anger, I had sensed his frustration, and the main point was, it was not directed towards me. He was frustrated at the fact that he was not able to help me.

I had remembered the exercise Grandpa, had made me do in the past. He had asked me to write the problems or feelings I could not share with anyone, on the paper and later to put that paper on fire.

”Let that fire burn away all your tension and let that smoke carry them away from you. It is not about the paper that you are burning, it is the emotion that you are letting out in the forms of words, you are freeing himself from that burden,” were his words, when I had asked the reason behind it.

Unable to suppress the turmoil, and handle my emotions that were all over the place, I had let my emotions guide me through it, while I just gave them a form of words.

I was so lost in my thoughts, that I did not apprehend Eshan entering into the balcony. When his arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer, I realized how cold I was, as the sudden chilly wind had me shivering the little bit and snuggling into the warmth of his body.

Turning us around he escorted us into the bedroom saying, ”You will catch cold, sweetheart.”

Leading me towards the bed, he walked back towards balcony door after I sat down while adjusting the room temperature with the AC remote, he had picked on his way from the side table and promptly closed the door.

My heart soaring in delight at his hassle, over such a trivial matter and I felt my lips curving up into a silly smile. I shook my head to clear the fuzzy feeling rising in my stomach as the dim light gave him the alluring look. His hair was still well kept and his face looked fresh despite it being midnight. I guessed his conference was to blame for it.

”What were you doing outside at this time?” His question brought me out from checking him out silently. I turned my face slightly to avoid looking at him. I lied down at my side of the bed before answering him anything when his teasing reply rendered me speechless for a while, ”Couldn't sleep without me?”

”I slept whole afternoon and evening,” I replied, ignoring the way he sauntered into the room while removing the blazer, he had worn.

”Still sweetheart, standing outside at this time without any warm clothes can make you ill.” He disappeared into the washroom, taking out the clothes for changing while winking at me on his way. I rolled my eyes and picked out my mobile from the side table unlocking the screen. I logged into my Webnovel account, checking for any new updates as he took his time in the washroom.

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