Chapter 1093: A kiss (2/2)

'I do notice you'

Azief nodded

'But, I do not know that at the time. I am a man with many flaws. When I try to be confident, it backfires on me. But when I become timid, nothing changes. Nothing ever seem right'

'With you, together, yes, I did admit that I felt affection for you because you were my first love. But, that is not the reason I fell in love with you again. That is not it at all. And I would not let you distort this'

Azief come closer to her, so close that she could feel his breath on him and his hand moves to her cheek. She did not stop him. And slowly Azief hold her cheeks and wipes her tears with his finger.

'I am not that kid in high school. That is in the past. I am here now and I fall in love you all over again. I don't know if this is fate or destiny or simply a set of coincidences'

'But if you want me to say that my feeling is not entirely affected by my old feelings then I could not give you that. Because you were once beautiful in my heart, and so when we meet again, you were still beautiful in my heart even when you were a mess. As for the answer you want, I don't know. I could not separate the girl that I love in high school and the woman that I know now. Love is not so easily separated and analyzed like that'

Sofia did not know what to say as she looks at him.

Azief lean in closer, his lips coming closer to her lips. She could stop it but she did not. Azief kiss her gently and for a few second they stay like that, feeling like it could be the last time.

Azief understood it the moment she rejected the rings. She is finding excuses to end it. And he knew why.

Because they talked about this before

And because of that he did not want to stop kissing her.

He wanted time to stop, right at this moment, this perfect moment, when he kisses her and everything felt right in the world

And she too wanted it, yet at the same time knowing that it could not work. She fears pain. And he fears losing her.

That is the thing about them. She fears pains more than losing him. And he …. he fears closing her more than the pain that might come along the road.

It is not like Azief don't know that trying to keep her with him would give them each other pain. But he felt that if they could overcome it, overcome all of it…. together, then maybe, along the journey, they would find a way to make it work

But he could not blame her. He is the least qualified person to blame her. Her pain is because of him. How selfish would he be to keep holding on to her?

In romance novels, drama stories, the boyfriend would let go of the girl, trying not to be selfish. It is a good story

But that is just that. A story. Real life is not that simple

Love is selfish. And only those who were selfish enough to fight for love would win it. And Azief is a selfish person in love.

He did not want to let her go. But he could not force her either. There is a difference between this selfishness and other kind of selfishness.

It is not the selfishness of oneself for the sake of oneself but a selfishness to dare ask the world all that is good and kind.

And it is only when you are in love the way he is now, that he knows he could not be selfish with her

And as they kissed each other, time stopped.

The wind stopped. The leaves falling from the tree halted in midair. The flapping of the overstretched tent flaps also halted.

This time phenomenon only happens in the radius of ten meters around him

He wished for time to stop and his feeling is manifested to the real world

But, he knew he could not stay there forever and then he breaks the kiss.

Sofia look at his eyes, that dazzling eyes that seems to know and see her no other person could and by God, she is tempted to let it all go.

So, she come closer to him and kiss him.

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