Chapter 72 - Seventy (1/2)

At that I see my brother downstairs, looking side to side with a heavy expression on his face, ears down and a hand on the chest.

”He is probably looking for you.”

”Pff, is alright, he never looks u-”

”Oi, in here.” Leo says, catching my brother's immediate attention, not before earning a glare from my part. My brother trots closer, then as if hesitating goes back to a slow walk, opening and closing his mouth like a fish as he tries to find the better way to say what he wanted to say.

I felt tired of all the sudden and sigh. I had always been the best one with words and languages from the two of us, guess one more thing I may as well help him out with.

”Brother, we need to talk.” I say, making him surprise as he nods at me when I jump down my hiding place and walk towards him, feeling Leo's gaze on my back, somehow managing to take off a little of the pressure as his serene aura always manages to calm me down for some reason.

We walk further away from the buildings until no light could be seen, making sure that we were alone so we could talk in private. I look the place over and find a good spot to sit down on the grass, watching the light pas by the tree leaves as I pet the ground beside me, motioning for Hulthor to sit beside me.

We stay in an awkward silence for a while, pulling grass from the ground or throwing some small stones away, a strange tension between us as none knew what to do, uncomfortable with the situation as both try to think of something to break the ice. We have never fought before, well, not like this at least, not this… seriously, so that was a first I wished we never had.

”I'm sorry…” My brother starts, but I just nod my head sideways.

”No, I'm sorry, I lost my cool there and I should not have slashed out as I did, I could have hurt someone seriously.”

”Uhm.” He mumbles, and we are back to the awkward silence.

”But…” I start before I have no more courage to do so, and continue, feeling a weight on my chest: ”What I tried to say was that… I don't want you to give yourself away like that…”

”I know, I know, but I really like him…”

”I bet you do, but you should have told me before, we should have talked about it, about safety and stuff, and is just… Look, I just don't like you doing things behind my back and have you simply going on with the flow just because it feels nice or because you like the…”

”S.e.x, yeah, I know, I'm an a.d.u.l.t now ok?”

”Pff, I doubt that.” I say, making him puff his cheeks as he gets ready to retaliate, only so see a smirk on my face as my tail wiggled slightly behind me.

”Hey.” He says, bumping my shoulder lightly as I continue, looking him in the eyes, serious again.

”I just want you to know that being in a relationship is far more than just skin deep and touches. What keeps you both together no matter what is love, and I want you to stay with Aeglos because of it, not just because you experience something new and thought that that passion and pleasure was love. Can you understand?”

”Uhm… So-so, but I understand that I should not have my relationship based on what we do but in what we feel for each other, right?

”Y-yes, geez, that's hard to explain.”

”Haha… So, what about you and Leo?” What! So direct!

”What about it?” I say, looking out in the woods.

”Are you two going out?”

Wait, my over the clouds brother noticed something? He actually noticed it? What now? We will see flying cows?

Ok that's totally possible here and I'm exaggerating a bit, my brother used to notice things I do not, so we are even in that area.

Still…. I thought we were being discreet. Well, better say it now than ever, right?

”… Yes, but I wanted to tell you about it, we just got together not long ago.”

”Uhm… did you do it?”

If I was drinking I would have choked to death.

”Oi, you, that's not something you ask!” At my fl.u.s.tered face he laughs, and soon after I laugh as well, like two dumb brothers enjoying a not so funny joke.

I put my arm over his shoulder, bringing him into a half hug, shaking my head sideways, very happy yet very sad.

How was that even possible?

I see Aeglos and Leo perching in the corner, far away not to hear us, only looking at us, making my brother instantaneous happy as his tails wiggle furiously behind him.

”One last thing...” I say before he goes running about like he always does. ”I…I do accept and support your relationship.” I say, making him look back at me. ”I may not look like that right now, but I want you to be happy and what is best for you, I'm just very worried…”

”You always are, especially since mother died.” He gives me a small smile, joining our hands together.

”Haha, that's true. I just want you to know that… Love is a very complicated thing… Is like giving the other person a knife for him to hold right against your chest, and the only thing stopping him for piercing the skin is his will and his alone.”

”I don' understand…”

”Is like… Giving them the power to hurt you deeply because of how much they matter to you.”

”… I don't think that's true.”

I frown. ”Why?”

”In that case I would have a knife too, wouldn't I? That's just stupid, why not just let go of the knife? And how the hell do you hug someone with a knife between the two?”

”But what if the other doesn't let go of the knife?”

”Uhm… Well, you can always dodge, but even if it hits you I don't think you would die from one stab, so I would just let it heal on its own. Why? Do you have a wound in your heart?”