Chapter 71 - Sixty-Nine (1/2)

By reflex I take my hand off, that second being enough for Aeglos to escape my grasp, jumping back towards my brother, massaging his neck; he will definitely have a mark later.

”Came back here you coward and fight me!”

”No! I don't want to fight you! You just have to calm down and-”

”Oh, calm down, CALM DOWN?! Not when you f.u.c.k.i.e.d my brother behind my back you sly fox!”

”Brother, stop!” My brother says, standing in front of him.

”Hunthor, get the f.u.c.k away from him, right now!”

”No! You don't tell me what to do!”

I bare my teeth at him, but on the contrary of what I expected and what he used to do my brother bares his fangs back, not cowering even though I've always won against him.

By instinct we curve our backs and spread your legs, ready to pounce at each other, feeling the adrenaline pulsate hard in my veins and a fierce fire burn in both our gazes, my shadows curving and turning as if eager to leap out and attack, at the same time that balls of fire erupted around my brother and hovered around him like little living things, the usual invisible markings shinning a bright red against his skin as if he had tattoos of his own.

I could feel myself salivate in expectation of a good fight as I did before every chase, my anger threatening to overtake my senses.

And yet… some not as animalistic part of me was still aware enough to not let me hurt my own brother, my own flesh and blood, the one I would risk my life for without hesitation, the one I cared for so much… which led us to this stalemate where none attacked neither backed off.

”Brother, back off, let me teach this sly fox some manners.”

”No! You are just going to hurt him, I won't allow it!”

”Allow it? He just used you!”

”I did not.” Aeglos answers for him.

”Shut up, you will have enough time to grunt in pain later, so save your breath.”

”He did not use me, who do you take me for?!” Says my brother, getting annoyed and angry as well.

”Of course he did, you are too naïve for your own good.”

”Pff, oh, come on, seriously? That bullshit needs to stop.”

”Language.”

”No, don't give me that, now you listen to me, I'm not naïve, I'm not a child anymore, can't you see?!”He opens his arms, as to make his point clear, but I could see his eyes watering, which did not help his cause.

”You are far too young to understand such things! Can't you see that he used that against you?!”

”No! Stop! J-just stop, ok?! Can't you trust me a little bit more? You have always been like this, always thought low of me, as if I could not even decide when to play with someone…!”

”That's what I'm saying, is not a pla-”

”No! Even if it was you who trained me, who taught me, doesn't it show how little trust you have in me and in your own teachings?!”

”And it is wrong to worry about you?”

”Is that you worry too much, is suffocating, and for what? You don't even trust me.” At that some sneaky tears manage to roll down his cheeks, being angrily wiped out from his face.

”Is just that you don't know what the a.d.u.l.t game implies, and don't even know love-”

”Don't know love?” He cuts me short, angrier than before. ”Then tell me, do you know about it? Or rather, no, never mind, I'm done, there is no point in talking with you if you don't want to listen, let's gone Aeglos.” He says, pulling him by the arm.

”You are not going anywhere with him!” My brother turns as we growl at each other again.

”I am, you are not my freaking owner to tell me what to do! I hate you!”

He turns, ignoring my protests, sulking like a scowled child and disappearing from my sight, making me want to punch something at the same time that cry rivers on the side.

Leo was beside methe whole time, giving me space but close enough to let me know that he was there; probably to stop me from making a grave mistake I bet; as I mumble under my breath.

”T-that is the first we fight, that we seriously fight…”

Now that my anger was starting to subside a little I could properly discern the situation with a strange sensation growing in me, and it was not a good feeling, like I lost something that, for sure, I would not be able to get back, I just wasn't so sure of what that thing was.

”I… I need some time to think, alone.”

I barely see him nod as I walk outside, my mind full as I keep shaking my head in negation, but worst then knowing that my brother had taken part in such lewd acts behind my back was the words he threw at me.

Never knew he thought of me in such a way… was I such a nuisance?

It was all… too much.

I wasn't sure what really bothered me the most, in the end, and maybe he was right, maybe I still saw him as a child, maybe I still thought that I needed to protect him for the world, that he was not ready to choose someone, to have s.e.x even.

When did he grow up I wonder…

My day was lost as I spend it entirely thinking about what just happen, a heavyweight on my chest as I walk around the house and garden.

Today was hot and promising for some rain in the afternoon, but I could not care less as my eyes kept staring at the view, unfocused as my mind seemed to buzz with too many thoughts.

I end up on top of a tall tree on the back that had the side glued to the end of the house, curved a little sideways and making it easier to hop on and have a nice view of the clearing.

The whole place looked like it was amidst in the sky with the mist surrounded it as thick as clouds, hidden even more with the tall old trees around, their tops poking out of the white fog.

At the center of it all stood our little hidden base, the lights being turned on little by little through all the house, shinning from the windows and illuminating the garden as the sky darkened, making me look up at the palette of magical colors standing on top of my head.

The blue and purple were mixing together with the dark orange-red as the ball of flame turned white and disappeared on the horizon behind the trees, only to increase the shadow on the clouds, making it all worthy of a photograph; no, only a painting would be able to engrave such great mixture of colors.

Now I'm just avoiding the subject, aren't I?

I sigh, looking down, wiggling my legs on the air and feeling my head and shoulders heavy.

With my arms close in front of me and supporting my chin I fell depressed all of sudden. I mean, since I have been reborn in this strange world I have always stayed with my brother, almost every second of the day. Not having him around, beside me, was weird, like losing a limb; even if you knew it was not there, you could still feel it, enough to be reminded every time that you looked beside you that he was not there.

I guess I never thought that way… every time so worried about my brother, about how to keep him safe, that I never thought, I never imagined…

How depended of him I was, if, in the end, I was not the one who needed him all this time, that clung to him…

Was I that scared? Of being alone?

No… It was not that either, but… Sigh, I don't know, and I'm tired of thinking about it right now, is only feeding the anguish in my heart that's wants to spread.