20 My Name (2/2)

Xiaolin stares at the Wawa in my hands with no particular expression on his face, he commanded the maid next to us to help, ”You take her and go to the pharmacy to grab some medicine for her wounds, this lad is always so clumsy.”

”I want to go too!” I raised my hand in a flash.

Xiaolin and Wawa both says discouragingly, ”Master Shen Jun was looking for, you should go over there for now, we can take care of this minor injury ourselves.”

They both looked very firm, but I refused to leave, until Xiaolin threatened me to tell this to Bi Qingshen Jun and put me in solitary confinement, I hesitantly stepped back to leave the hall.

On the road, I think back at Wawa's tears.....I suddenly forgot what I was going to say, so I turned around and went back. When I arrived at the door, I heard Wawa cry, ”Headmaster, you should go, Wawa wants to change location.”

Xiaolin sighed and said, ”You think I don't want to? Would anyone be willing to leave right now? Didn't you want to become the head servant? If you continue to work hard, your efforts will be rewarded.”

Wawa's cries grow louder, ”I'm afraid that I will die before I become the head servant..... Master Miao Miao's strength is too great, every time she plays roll with me, I end up purple all over.”

”You must endure it, later I'll see if I can find anybody to switch with you, who told you to lose the lottery sticks.” Xiaolin's voice was helpless.

Wawa's cry becomes even more sorrowful, I quickly go in, when they saw me return, they were somewhat stunned, unable to speak.

I held Wawa's crying face, then I gently kissed her tears, and whispered, ”Wawa, don't cry.....”

I thought this sentence could heal all the pain, and get rid of all the sadness.....

However, Wawa's eyes were very evasive, and very afraid when she looked at me.....there was something different I think, but I could not tell the where the difference was.

This feeling.....hate.....

The emotions in my heart were chaotic, unable to be resolved no matter what, I saw that Xiaolin and Wawa don't wish for me to stay here.....I had to go to Bi Qingshen Jun's study alone.

Bi Qingshen Jun was holding a thick writing brush and was scribbling doodles on a piece of paper, seeing me come in, he clears his throat, takes the brush and places it into my hand, he says, ”I'll teach you how to write your own name.”

I look at the sheet of rice paper on the table, it was full of large and small symbols of the same thing, I curiously ask, ”What is this?”

”This is the Miao(苗) character,” Bi Qingshen said gently, ”This is your name.”

I did not want to write, I place the brush down and snuggle into his arms, his embrace was cold, but I felt a type of warmth, enough to drive away the pesky emotions and attachments.

”What is it? Don't be lazy now, quickly go write.” Bi Qingshen Jun lightly taps my head.

Normally, writing the ”one(一)” character was already hard enough, but today, I obediently grip the pen, and earnestly try to write down the symbols he had just written down.

”That's not how you grip the brush.” Bi Qingshen Jun's hands reached forward, his hands were very big, large enough to cover my entire hand, he grips my hand tightly and drags my hand forward, he dipped the brush in ink, and slowly drew the characters.

”Miao Miao, Miao Miao, Miao Miao.....this is your name.” He said.

”Miao Miao, Miao Miao, Miao Miao.....this is my name.” I remembered.

The night gradually fell, in his arms, I continued to write, and write.....

Until all my unease and anxiety was driven away.