Chapter 113 (1/2)

Chapter 113: Chapter 113

If I take her forcibly, would she still look at me? If I ruin her, could she stay beside me? I know it’s heartbreaking to think irrationally like this, but it’s better than seeing you with somebody else. So, stay with me in this deep darkness. Stay with me in this dark shadow. Even if you go out into the world of light, you will only have a hard time.

I was very pleased with my reflection in her golden eyes. As I lowered my face gradually, the other things reflected in her eyes disappeared little by little. Yes, that’s what I want, my lady. Just look at me like that, reflecting me alone in your beautiful eyes.

“Hey, what are you doing? Don’t…”

I suddenly came to my senses when she shouted at me, shivering with fear. Her eyes were trembling with fear, and her face turned white. My heart jolted when I saw her calling me in fear.

I felt her shivering in her trembling wrists.

What did I just try to do to her? Am I really going crazy now because I’ve been stuck in the darkness too long? I’m sorry, Tia. I know better than anyone that I’m not ready yet, but I’ve been craving for it so long that I often forget it. I’m getting more and more impatient these days.

I’m afraid you might fly away from me with wings. I’m scared that you might walk into the bright light, leaving me in this darkness.

“Because I’m going home after work, so I don’t need this hair band. You’ll make me uncomfortable if you keep doing this.”

Even though she was so frightened, she came back because I seemed uncomfortable and gave her hair band to me.

Suddenly, my heart ached. Apparently you were locked in the deep darkness like me, and you were living in a rage of madness. When did you come into the light and began to shine like this?

Teach me how. Give me your hand, too.

Now that I know the joy of being with you, I no longer want to live in the shadow on my own. Please don’t forsake me, Tia. Do not leave me.

“Duke Verita is waiting for you.”

“Got it. Let me hurry up.”

On the day when the crown prince’s birthday banquet was held, I kept dawdling because I really didn’t want to go. In the end, I arrived there belatedly to find her laughing heartily before the crown prince.

“Ha…. ”

I made a hollow smile. Feeling heartbroken, I headed to the place where people were chatting.

Hearing their conversation aghast, I suddenly came to my senses when they mentioned the daughter of the Monique family.

‘What? Did they try to kill my lady several times? Did they put it on hold for now, looking for a chance to kill her?’

At that moment, I thought it would be okay. I thought she would rather disappear from this world rather than be taken away by some other guy. Anyway, Tia would be alive in my memory. The little girl in my memories would smile at me brightly, showing a blind trust in me. I thought that if I closed my eyes and ears for a moment, I would be able to live with my lovely lady in my memories forever. Although I couldn’t hear her calm voice calling me in person, although I couldn’t see her smiling at me brightly, I thought I could accept it. I thought it was better than losing her like this.

But I suddenly broke into tears when I came back home and took out my young lady’s dark hair tie from the drawer and saw her initials embroidered on its edge and the letter she wrote to me even after her blind trust in me was gone.

‘Ah, Tia.’

Even though I knew that she was going away from my heart, even though I was aware that she would not stay with me anymore unless I took some action, I could not harm her.

Although the girl in my memory was important, it was more important for her to live and breathe under the same sky.