Chapter 112 (2/2)

After hesitating for a moment, I slowly extended my arms and touched her pink lips.

“Whew!”

After holding back a sigh nervously, I carefully wiped her soft and dry lips. My heart thumped when I felt her warm breathing at my fingertips.

I quickly looked out the window. The swaying lantern light was getting pretty close to the wagon. I instinctively closed the window and grabbed her dishevelled hair in one hand. With a trembling heart, I leaned my face close to my dear lady’s. As my face was getting closer, my heart was pounding fast. What if Tia woke up because of my thumping heartbeat?

When my mouth was close enough to feel her breathing, I closed my eyes gently and finally, my lips touched hers.

I felt as if my heart stopped. It was more satisfying than everything I had received from the girl so far. When I felt her warm breathing, I gently kissed her lips that were softer than feathers and a baby’s skin. At that moment I didn’t feel lonely, and my icy heart melted. Tia’s warmth, which I felt through that gentle kiss, was something I desperately longed for.

“Um.” She made a smile while asleep.

“I feel warm.” Her whispering that came out from her soft lips and filled my emptiness with her warmth. If I could have my way, I wanted to stay with her like now forever.

The moment I disengaged myself from her wistfully, the carriage door was opened suddenly. The marquis’s eyebrows stood stiffly when he found his sleeping daughter. I hesitated a bit when I saw him unconsciously taking her out of my arms coldly and her snuggling into his chest unconsciously.

‘Am I doing fine now?’

On the way back home inside the carriage, I gently wiped my lips.

When I recalled the texture of her lips, I suddenly had a deep thirst. A little while ago, I felt like I had the whole world, but I was now craving for much more than that.

I want to have you, my lady. Can you come to me, Tia?

Can you just look at and think of me like I think of you, and stay by my side? Huh?

Please, my lady!

“Allen?”

One month after my 17th birthday, I was busy preparing for the birthday party for the crown prince, the first such since I joined the government. I was too busy to see my lady for a while.

Just like yesterday, I took a nap as I was too tired with handling a backlog of work, when I felt somebody reaching out to me. I suddenly felt wide awake. Who was it?

Opening my eyes, I grabbed someone’s wrist. The moment I pushed her on the sofa and grabbed her by the neck, I was stunned by the familiar colors before my eyes. The person before me was not an assassin. She was none other than my girl, Tia.

Her disheveled silver hair and trembling golden eyes caught my eye. I missed her face so much. Even though I was snowed under with work, I recalled her face several times a day. I had a strong thirst for something when she looked up at me with her big eyes wide open. Her pink lips that I remember kissing sometime ago tempted me strongly.

‘I want to have you. I want to touch. Can’t I kiss you again, Tia? Huh?’

In fact, I had been growing anxious little by little by then. I saw that darkness within her, which thrilled me several years ago, in her eyes.

No, don’t do that. Just look at me. Don’t see anyone else. Don’t have anyone in your heart unless you’re going to have me in your heart.

I was upset when she tried to pull her wrist from me. You didn’t act like this before, right? Why are you trying to avoid me now? Don’t do that, Tia. Don’t leave me. Don’t push me out. I’m still here in the same place. Why are you trying to move away from me? Don’t leave me alone in the dark.