Chapter 19 - Chasing A Happy Ending (2/2)

Xiu interrupted her mid-sentence as she said, ”Doc, we encounter some defeats in life after which there is no desire of winning left within us. I honestly don't want to stand back up. It seems to be a tiring thing and I'm too tired and lazy to bother about it.”

”How can you give up so easily?”

Xiu couldn't help but scoff at her words as she said, ”Do you think I'm giving up easily?” She smiled bitterly as she added, ”Let me introduce you to myself again. Hi, I'm Chen Xiu. People call me Goddess Xiu. But do you know who I really am? I'm the girl who studied how to cook, so I can cook his favorite dishes. I couldn't stand being apart from him, so in every break during the shoot, I called him to remind him that I exist. I always saved up and planned everything for his sake. My morning started with his thoughts and ended with only him in my eyes.”

Her tears had finally broken through and flooded over her face as they fell like a stream of water.

Dr. Xi passed her the box of tissue and with a gentle gaze she asked, ”Do you know how you ended up here?” Xiu hiccuped and shook her head. ”Instead of finding your happy present, you kept chasing a happy ending with someone who wasn't even written in your fairytale.”]

Xiu's eyes opened with an erratic heartbeat drumming throughout her body. She touched her face to find it stained with tears. She looked at the familiar bedroom and sighed.

'The past of Chen Xiu is still haunting me as Bai Xiu.' She mused to herself before pushing herself out of the bed and opened the curtains to let the sunlight stream inside.

These dreams were a common occurrence to her and she was quite used to them now. But if it was in her own abilities, she'd rather probe into Bai Xiu's memories than her own. As she was brushing her teeth, her heart hurt looking at her own reflection.

Not because of the girl she was today. But rather for the girl, she was five years ago. That girl who begged and groveled for someone to stay by her side. Anyone. But no one stayed beside her. She used to wonder why she wasn't good enough but not again. She didn't want to lose herself in the endless cycle of self-torture all over again.

After her morning routine, she came out of the bedroom and found Nora all dressed up.

”What's the hurry?” Xiu asked since she knew Nora would never get ready so early for her job.

”I have to deal with some foreign guests. Also, you remember it's Friday.” Nora reminded her with a toast in her hand.

”I do. I'll finish my work on time. You better not be late.”

Nora came to give her a small hug and said, ”I won't be late. Wait for me.” Saying that she ran out the door in a hurry.

Xiu ran after her and shouted, ”Nora, stop!”

”Huh? What's wrong? I'm getting late.” Nora tapped her shoe impatiently. Xiu pointed towards her feet and Nora followed her sight and groaned in annoyance. ”Urgh! Why am I wearing two different heels?”

Xiu muffled her laughter saying, ”Maybe it's your new fashion.”

”Haha... Very funny.” Nora gave a dry laugh while changing out of the oddly mismatched heels.

Xiu watched her running and shook her head at this girl. She was really forgetful whenever she was in a hurry.