Chapter 106 - Breaking Down?!?! (2/2)

After some minutes I just lay down in the crater that I created into my backyard… crying silently… in a more controlled way…

Damn… I guess I really am lonely… I just point my hand upwards as if to grab the sky…

This must never happen again… I need a release state… or I am going to start doing irrational things and letting my emotions lead me… they are a part of me so I would never get rid of them but… I need a way to take care of them…

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<Genjutsu Sharingan: Self Hypnosis 1000 Happy Memories>

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*fwosh*

I look at the world around me… I see that it is my apartment where my family used to live…

I know this is a lie… and I know that I am in a genjutsu that I could break out of whenever I want but… I guess I will truly rest… after seventeen years of wearing a mask… I can let go…

I guess spending some time with the real family is good…

I open the door to the kitchen. I see my little brother with his blond hair and brown eyes just drawing. He was always worthless, he liked comparing himself to me. I was his role model. Though I know and he knows that I know that he is jealous of me. I truly did portray myself as perfect in front of him.

I just smile and go forward… he stops drawing and looks towards me. He smiles and says. ”Hey brother do you want to play D&D with me.”

Unlike that annoyance that I felt in my first life when my little brother used to ask this... I just smile a little while saying. ”Sure let's play a little then.”

I grab a couple of drinks as I hear my little brother say. ”I will be an elf archer named….”

I never liked playing D&D with him… but now I guess I will get what I can...

Even while thinking all that... for the first time in a long time... a truly happy smile appeared on my face.

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(I know that this might seem out of character for the MC. But if you have read his backstory in the Auxiliary Chapters. You will know that his first life story was quite a tragedy and he truly loved people before he died and even gave up his dream to Immortality (that he got from seeing loved people around him dying from big things to small things like just a small rat bite.)

(He truly cares for his first life family and him acting for 17 years he… had a crack appear on his mask. Since he also kept the people here far away and didn't care about any of them. He can't give up one family just to have another. For someone like him a  person can only have one family that is why he doesn't trust anyone in this world. They would kill family for something like a village. For him even if the whole world is to torture in hell he wouldn't care as long as his family is OK.

He chooses and will always choose his first life family. His love is psychotic and twisted but in a way also true he will never care if his real family is rich, poor, evil or good… they will always be his one and only family… he will never abandon them just because he got Reborn in another so called 'family.' Even if his first world family could be people that torture and eat babies for fun he… would still love them… no matter what.)

P.S: Yami will still be cold and cruel like always. He won't be changing. He just had his inevitable 'burst.'

P.P.S: Also does anyone know some type of reference with HolyJoker and HolySaintJoe... a comment asked me in the last chapter about it... I didn't get the reference... I am disappointed in myself. I googled it but I only got some Christian stuff about it...

P.P.P.S: In patrėon Yami and Hachi have already met..????