189 Orders are Absolute POV (2/2)

Something that I should have embraced in the first place.

So many people like me died in the process, but I didn't. I endure, as death didn't want me. Never has, no matter how many times I wanted to die.

Since death didn't want me, I have grown to not wanting him anymore.

And when I was able to see myself in the mirror once more, I still couldn't recognize the monster that is looking back at me. Even so, it has a human face now, not some sort of disfigure abomination.

I was happy. Very happy. It wasn't only because I look like a person again, but it was also because I get to see my own face everywhere that I had looked. It was as if I had many sisters who I had never knew about.

And those days were probably the happiest days of my life.

But like everything, it did not last, for she appeared.

Dreadful and suffocating. Her very presence brought back an emotion that I had casted away. Fear. It was fear. She is a true monster, capable of unimagine atrocities, far more than I could never have the stomach to do.

She tears through anyone and everyone as if their lives are meaningless. My life is meaningless despite having just found some sort of meanings.

It was when I have started to fear death. Fear of losing what I finally gained ever since I was born. An actual family.

How many of my sisters had she killed at her displeasure? How many plead for mercy, only to become something out of a nightmare.

I wanted to live. To continue to live. To continue being a part of the family, a family that dwindling by each day until only I remain.

Even my family is gone, I remain prostrated, trying to climb the ladder and gain some sort of status. If I continue to live, I believe that my family they would too through me.

Through my own reflection even though I hate her face so much.

But no matter how high I have climbed and no matter how many people I have killed, I continue to be at the bottom, prostrating and struggling to live. Not for myself anymore, but for another.

For her. The life of Xi Shi.

I am her in every way, beautiful and deadly like she has wanted. I am never anyone else, not now and in the future.

Never ever.

I honestly don't even remember my birth name anymore.

The very name that my parents had bestowed upon me. It is the only thing that they had gifted me in my entire life, and despite how they had treated me, I had cherished that name until it had been taken away by my master.

My master. Who is that now? I don't know anymore.

There are just so many monsters in the world. More monstrous than me regardless of how much of a monster I have become.

”There is no other master than the Master, Xi Shi. His command is absolute and preceded everything else. If he tells you to die, you have no choice but to die. There is no other option.”

Lu Bu speaks up as if he could read my mind.

It is the same as that Shinobi, who didn't even give me his name. His powers are terrifying. He manages to kill an infector, something that not even those higher up on the ladder are capable of.

He is a true monster.

And from the look of it, Lu Bu is also the same kind of monster. A monster that I hope I would be able to become one day. Maybe then, I can finally take revenge.

”Yes.”

I answer and bowing my head in submission.

It is expected of me, who is at the bottom of the ladder. I am always at the bottom even if I managed to climb one. Another ladder would just greet me. Endlessly.

But this ladder seems to reach places much higher than the organization, so I will climb it despite how fearful I am.

It only takes a light nudge from those above, and I will be at the bottom again. I must not offend them, ever. Never.

”There is actually no need for any of that, Xi Shi. The Master has acknowledged you, so therefore, we are of the same rank despite the vast differences between our respective strength. Although, you may call me senior brother if you wish, considering that I was acknowledged by the Master before you.”

Lu Bu tells me with a faint smile. He also pays some attentions to my naked body. The same attention that the Shinobi with telekinesis and telepathy did.

Strangely, neither of them has acted on their desire unlike so many others. Those men had all died for it due to the venom within my body, capable of dissolving anyone to nothing very quickly.

Lu Bu chuckles as if he is mocking my venomous ability.

”Yes, I am, junior sister. That level of poison isn't capable of hurting someone like me. And the reason that I did not bend you over and have my way with you, it is because of a simple rule. A rule that you must abide by unless you wish to feel the wrath from the Master. Obviously, it isn't the only rule that you must obey.”

Lu Bu points out, making me curious.

I would need to know these rules in order not to break them. I do not wish to be punished for anything, especially when I could avoid it.

”In that case, please guide me, senior brother.”

I request and give him a sincere bow.

”Of course, I will, junior sister. I am actually happy to learn that you are as smart as you are pretty.”

Lu Bu compliments with a smile.

”As for the rule, you will learn them all after the mission, but here are a few important ones. No fucking while on the job or I will have your balls. Always be respectful and speak your mind clearly. Answers when being asked and do not bullshit or I will make you eat shit for real.”

Lu Bu continues before becoming amused about something. I wasn't sure what he is thinking exactly, but I think it was because of what happened with the Shinobi.

Even now, I could still feel the pain all over my body.

”You are lucky that you only get flayed, Xi Shi. People have suffered much worse than you can imagine, and even death will not save you from the Master. Trust me on that.”

Lu Bu points out and then looks at the pool. Steams begin to rise from the surface.

”Now. Please clean yourself and make yourself presentable. We have a mission to do, and we should try to look our very best.”

He adds before taking a seat by the poolside. He is intending to watch me taking a bath from the look of it. It wouldn't be the first, so I shouldn't be bothered by it.

”Don't mind me. I have to keep an eye on you. Master's order.”