Chapter 53 (1/2)
In the next few days, Li Shuo didn't go out. Wen Xiaohui would come for an hour or two every day to watch him eat his meal, and then he would leave safely. People who usually shout at me are very careful at this time.
Li Shuo was a bit of a loser most of the time, except when he had to pretend to be light on the phone with his mother. He is a man of good face. Fortunately, only Wen Xiaohui can see what he looks like now.
These days, there is always a sense of unreality in the clouds, sometimes I feel that everything I heard that day is a dream, sometimes I feel that everything I heard with Zhao Jinxin is a dream in itself, because the reality should not be so dramatic or ugly. In any case, it is hard for him to accept that he will fall down like this. He knows rationally that he should be free and easy to say goodbye to the past of failure, but emotionally he can't do it. The despair of seeing himself out of control but helpless and unable to save is the most painful thing for him.
This time, it doesn't work to give yourself a big reason.
On Monday morning, Li Shuo received a call from his assistant asking him why he hadn't arrived at the company.
At that time, Li Shuo didn't wake up. Hearing this question, he felt confused.
Assistant dundun: ”Mr. Li, you are not still sleeping, are you?”
Li Shuo suddenly remembered that he was going to study the quarterly report in ennan today. As early as when he was in Yangcheng, his assistant reminded him, but now his mind is empty and he can't remember anything.
Li Shuo rubbed his eyes: ”I'm sorry, I Too much. ” He made up a poor excuse casually. He wished he had drunk too much. When he woke up, people would wake up. Unlike now, people can't get drunk without drinking.
”Wow.” The assistant said with emotion, ”Mr. Li, I've been with you for four years. You've never delayed your work. Isn't it lovelorn?”
The assistant was just a casual joke, but lishuo's heart was tense, as if he had been pulled off the veil in public, and his whole body trembled.
Seeing that Li Shuo didn't speak, the assistant realized that he was speechless and said: ”Mr. Li, I'm joking. If you are not feeling well, please rest at home. We will report to you after our research.”
Li Shuo knows that he scares the assistant. He is easygoing and gets along with his subordinates like friends. Today's abnormality - whether he forgets important business or can't make fun of it, is really enough to surprise the people around him. He blocked his eyes with the back of his hand and said wearily, ”well, send a summary to my email. If you have any questions, please call me at any time.”
”Yes.”
Hang up the phone, Li Shuo slowly put down his hand, get up the remote control on the cabinet, open the curtains.
As the curtain retreated to both sides, the dazzling sunlight diffused into the bedroom, which was more and more affected by the golden color, until it was sprinkled on him, he narrowed his eyes under the strong light, but felt a long lost warmth.
If the sun can really kill bacteria, it's better to kill his depression. He was lying in the sun, holding a funny piety.
He didn't get up from the bed until the sun made his head dizzy. He walked into the bedroom.
In the mirror, there is a bearded face. The upper eyelids are puffy and the lower eyelids are blue and purple. In a few days, the cheekbones can be seen faintly. It's different from Li Shuo, who is usually in high spirits.
He looked at the mirror without blinking, and the more he looked, the more angry he was.
Why do you make yourself such a virtue
He forcibly took off his pajamas, walked into the shower naked, and without hesitation turned on the tap. Now it's early autumn, the water temperature is very cold, he was excited to shake, and his skin instantly gave out pieces of gooseflesh, but at the same time, he was very happy.
After taking a bath, he shaved in front of the mirror, but he didn't know whether it was hard to concentrate or whether his eyes were dry and swollen. He cut the skin with a knife, and the blood immediately flowed down his chin. He took out a tissue to cover the breach, and the tissue was soon soaked with blood.
He threw the razor angrily, his hands powerless to support the washstand, unable to raise his head for a long time.
Ears inexplicably ring again Zhao Jinxin that frivolous ”haven't played enough.”.
Not enough fun.
Not enough fun.
What was Zhao Jinxin's expression at that time? Mocking? Proud? What is Shao Qun's expression? Despised? Cheap? All he knew was that he was standing outside the door, his face seemed to burn in the next second.
His cultivation is not enough, his mind is not broad enough, so that he can't let go until now.
He clung to the marble platform, his fingerbones turning blue and white with too much force.
Suddenly, the doorbell rang.
Li Shuo raised his head. He thought it was Wen Xiaohui. He rubbed the blood off his chin and put on his bathrobe to open the door.
The moment the door opened, he froze.
What appears in the sight is not Wen Xiaohui with a bright and beautiful smile, but Zhao Jinxin, who has no expression.
Li Shuo felt that the blood was frozen in an instant, and then the tiny blood vessels broke and exploded in his body one by one, and the body kept sending bursts of pain. He lowered his head subconsciously and didn't want Zhao Jinxin to see his embarrassment. His hand became a fist behind his back and he said in a deep voice: ”come and get something? Just give me my key. ”But Zhao Jinxin reached out to him: ”your chin...”
Li Shuo's eyes changed and he suddenly opened them.
”Pa” sound is like a slap on someone's face. Where they have been touched, bone collision, skin friction, and spicy pain, both of them are frozen.
Lishuo knew that he had overreacted, but he could not resist the resistance in his body. He said coldly, ”shaving is all. Give me the key.”
Zhao Jinxin lowered his eyes and stepped forward to come in.
Lishuo didn't get out of the way. He stopped at the door: ”your things have been packed.” He bent down, picked up a bag from the door and threw it at Zhao Jinxin's feet. If Zhao Jinxin didn't come, he was going to throw it away. He reached out and repeated, ”the key”.
”I'm here to send you materials. You didn't come to the meeting today. I'm worried about you...” Zhao Jinxin shakes the information in his hand.
”I just overslept.” Lishuo took the information and added, ”key.”
Zhao Jinxin stared at lishuo's eyes and said softly, ”I didn't take it.”
”Then throw it away.” Lishuo is going to close.
Zhao Jinxin propped up the door, raised his head, looked directly at Li Shuo, and said solemnly, ”Li Shuo, I'm sorry.”
Li Shuo's heart trembled violently, and his anger went straight to his head. He stifled: ”I don't accept it. Go away.” That's about to close again. But the hand against the door didn't know how strong he was. Li Shuo pushed hard and didn't push it. He narrowed his eyes and said, ”what do you mean?”
Zhao Jinxin pursed her lips, looked deeply into her eyes and whispered, ”I don't want to do that.”
”Of course you don't want to. After all, you haven't had enough fun.” Maybe I'm used to it. It's no big deal to cut the wound repeatedly.
”No.” ”I'm not going to hurt you,” Zhao said clearly
What a funny thing to say, but lishuo couldn't laugh: ”how do you plan? When you don't have enough fun, tell me to have a serious relationship. When you have enough fun, find a ”decent reason” to break up. Everything is in your mind. That's your plan, isn't it? ” Li Shuo shook and bit his back teeth. ”Why should I be teased like this? Just because I like you? ” The word ”like” was almost chewed and swallowed by Li Shuo and spit out with blood.
”Like” is clearly one of the most beautiful words in the world, but now it has become disgusting.
”Like” what Gu, want to be so spoiled.
Zhao Jinxin's eyelashes trembled slightly: ”I really like you...”
”You don't deserve to say these two words.” These two words are like curses to lishuo now, ”do you think I don't know what you are thinking? You are still young, like me today, maybe like others tomorrow, so you want ship. ” He sneered. ”But, I, no, I want to, do you understand? I don't want to. Everything you do makes me feel sick. It's the same as your cousin. You deserve to be a family. ”
Zhao Jinxin's eyebrows twisted, and he looked at Li Shuo sadly: ”Uncle Li, I'm sorry...”
”Let go.” Li Shuo said without expression.
“…… Thank you for my birthday. ”
”Let go!” Li Shuo pushed him hard and stumbled on the door.
One door apart, Li Shuo seemed to feel the breath belonging to Zhao Jinxin. He gasped heavily to contain the almost overflowing indignation. He squatted on the ground with his head in his hands and punched his skull severely.
After a long delay, Li Shuo got up from the ground and went back to the bathroom. His beard had not been shaved completely. He had a little blood oozing from the wound and his eyes were red. The whole man looked like a lost dog.
Yes, in this game, he lost in a mess.
Li Shuo yelled angrily and long at himself in the mirror, which made his chest tremble. The roar echoed in his mind, which had an enlightening effect, as if it roughly woke up his self in the dark.
The rubbish in the mirror is not Li Shuo! No one can change him!
He grabbed the razor, carefully hung off the messy stubble, washed the dry blood, dried the messy hair, then went back to the bedroom, picked up a suit to put on, took the key and wallet and went out.
He needs to go to the sun, contact with the crowd, and clean up all the dark gloom and grumpiness around him.
After all, it's just lovelorn.
It's just lovelorn.
Li Shuo calls Wen Xiaohui and asks him to have a meal. Wen Xiaohui is overjoyed to hear that he has gone out. He rushes to the restaurant as fast as he can.
When Wen Xiaohui saw him, he was surprised: ”brother Li, you've spent so many days in the house, and you've worked it out!”
Li Shuo smiled lightly: ”although the food you sent is delicious, I don't want to eat take away any more.”
”Hahaha, or I'll do it for you.””Leave me alone.”
Wen Xiaohui looks at lishuo without blinking, smiling.
Li Shuo touched his chin: ”well, it was shaved when he shaved. It's OK. His face is not very good, is it?”
”But still very handsome.” Wen Xiaohui winked at him. ”I'm relieved to see you.”
Lishuo smiled: ”I will be OK.”
Wen Xiaohui doesn't change his natural color. He always adjusts the atmosphere when eating. They talk and laugh.
After dinner, Li Shuo proposed to go shopping.
”Let's go. What do you want? I'm a buyer close to the professional level, and I promise to make you look blind. ”
”Take a look. It's mainly for you.”
”Buy it for me?” Wen Xiaohui pointed to himself, ”what do you want to buy for me?”
”Want to spend money.” Li Shuo rubbed his hair. ”I want to spend money for you.”