Chapter 197 - His name is Zi Han (2/2)

"Kai Xin..."

Young Kai Xin could no longer hold the heartbreak as a flood of uncontrollable tears escaped from their confinement. Gut-wrenching sobs could be heard throughout the room as realization dawned in upon her.

"I've killed my son...I've killed my son..."

Looking at Young Kai Xin who was covering her eyes with her arm while she cried, Young Jane could not help herself. Feeling helpless, she too started crying.

Unable to deal with the pain in her heart, Young Kai Xin cried out loud as she yelled out, "ARGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!"

"Kai Xin!"

Like a madwoman, Young Kai Xin kept banging her fists against her chest as she cried.

Alarmed, Young Jane caught her hands and cried, "Stop it, Kai Xin! Please!"

"Why me?! Why do I have to make this choice?!" Young Kai Xin cried angrily as she banged the back of her head against the bed.

The guilt was making her unable to breathe. She wanted to feel more pain. All she wanted to do was to hurt herself as badly as she hurt her poor innocent child.

Young Jane tried to stop Young Kai Xin from hitting her head but it was futile. The latter was too adamant in punishing herself.

When she realized that she could not stop her, Young Jane started to shout for help.

"SOMEONE! PLEASE HELP!"

When they heard her shouting, the doctor and his assistant immediately rushed in. The two of them managed to hold Young Kai Xin down long enough to give her a shot.

"What are you injecting in her?" asked Young Jane worriedly as she watched the doctor administrating the shot.

"Don't worry! It's a muscle relaxant. It will help her relax for now," answered the doctor as he continued to hold Young Kai Xin down. It was only when he stopped feeling any resistance from her that he released his grips on her.

"She's bleeding! What's happening?" asked Young Jane as she looked in horror at the small pool of blood that was forming on the hospital gown.

The doctor took a swift check and after a minute, he reassured her, "It's normal for abortion at such a late stage. She would be bleeding for a while. After that, she would feel better. If she felt uncomfortable, bring her back here."

Young Kai Xin heard them talking but she was too tired to pay attention to them. The injection had completely drained all her energy away.

Even though she lost the energy to move, her brain was fine and she could still remember what she had done.

When she thought about it, her tears would not stop flowing. She kept her eyes on the ultrasound machine that was unplugged and placed against the wall.

As she stared at the blank screen through blurry eyes, her heart hurt as though someone was gripping it tightly.

"My son...is gone..."

.........

When she was done telling him the entire story, Kai Xin was afraid to look up. She was afraid of seeing the eyes of disdain in him.

How could he ever love someone like her who was capable of killing her own child?

When she was telling him the story, DX had to use all his efforts not to stop her. Throughout the entire time, he was able to hear the pain in her voice. He knew that she was blaming herself.

Staring at her back, he was unsure of what to do. However, when he saw her trembling, it broke his heart. When she hugged herself to make herself looked small, DX closed the distance between them.

Turning her around, he hugged her tightly and whispered, "It's alright...I'm here now..."

Kai Xin sobbed quietly for a while before a loud wail came out of her. As she hit him on the chest repeatedly, she yelled, "Why are you not hating me? You should leave! I'm hideous! I'm a monster! I don't deserve you! Hate -"

DX hugged her even tighter and said, "I would never hate you! You were a child! You were not supposed to be making such a decision at that age!"

"I killed him! I killed him! Hate me! Please hate me!" cried Kai Xin as she cried into his chest.

"Don't think that!" yelled DX. When Kai Xin looked up and stared into his frustrated face, DX lowered his voice and pleaded, "Please don't say that...Please..."

When she heard him, Kai Xin's tears slowed down to a sob as she glanced down at her feet. After a long silence, she said in between quiet sobs, "His name...His name is Zi Han..."

"En." said DX as he placed a protective palm at the back of her head to hold her closer.

Still protected within his embrace, she glanced at the tree from the corner of her eyes as she told him softly, "I named him after that day...The only regret I have in this lifetime [1]."