Chapter 197 - His name is Zi Han (1/2)

"...buried underneath this tree."

DX's mind kept repeating Kai Xin's words. He could not help but stare blankly at her as he tried to digest her words. This was out of his expectation and he did not know whether it was a cruel joke made by Kai Xin to throw him off.

"What did you say, Kara? Zi Han is buried under this tree?" asked DX nervously.

When he reached out for her, she took a step back until her back was against the tree.

"Kara?"

She was looking at her shoes as she snapped, "Don't touch me! You want to know so I am telling you."

Unable to face him, she turned around so that she was facing the tree instead. She placed her hand on the tree before she started telling him about Zi Han.

"12 years ago, I killed my own son."

....

12 years ago, as Young Kai Xin was laying down on the cold metal bed in the small operating theatre, she heard the doctor talking to her and turned to face the man.

"Are you sure you would like to go through with this...," asked the doctor as he glanced at his chart board, "...Ms. Chu?"

"Yes, please..." replied Young Kai Xin.

He nodded and did an ultrasound imaging on her. Even though it was his bowl of rice, he always made sure that his patients were completely on board with the idea.

"From the looks of it...You are at least 4 months pregnant."

As she gazed at the image of the fetus on the screen of the ultrasound machine, Young Kai Xin could not stop herself from reaching out unconsciously. However, before she could touch the screen, she heard the doctor said, "It's a boy..."

When she heard him, she immediately stopped herself and pulled her hand back. With her eyes closed tightly, she turned her face away from the machine.

After he placed the ultrasound machine away, the doctor asked for the last time, "Are you sure you want to go through with it, Ms. Chu?"

Young Kai Xin grasped the hospital gown tightly. She looked up into the bright lights on the ceiling while she tried her best not to cry. After a while, she answered in a soft voice, "Y-Yes."

As the doctor told her about the procedure and all the possible complications, Young Kai Xin listened half-heartedly while she kept her eyes on the screen.

"We will begin now..." said the doctor. Young Kai Xin turned to him and she nodded tersely.

He gave her the medicines that would induce uterine contraction before placing her under general anesthesia. As he placed the oxygen mask on her, he said, "Please start counting down from 10, Ms. Chu."

"10...9...8..." Young Kai Xin began to countdown while the doctor prepared his equipment.

"7...6...5...4..." Glancing down at her belly, she placed a hand on it and gently caressed it for the last time.

"3...2....1...." Before she lost her consciousness and with a heavy heart, she apologized, "I'm sorry..."

By the time she woke up, the operation was done and Jane was standing next to her. She was so worried about Young Kai Xin that lines were forming on her forehead.

Young Kai Xin noticed the blood-soaked towel at the basin and asked weakly, "The child..."

Noticing where she was looking at, Jane moved her position so that she could block Young Kai Xin's view. She smiled and patted her best friend's hand "The doctor said you should rest for a while."

Young Kai Xin tried to sit up but when she felt the pain that was emanating from her lower abdomen, she cried out.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing...Just slight pain," answered Young Kai Xin as she tried to push herself up.

Young Jane stopped her and said, "Lie back down. The doctor said it would hurt a little when the general anesthesia wears off."

The pain was getting slightly unbearable so Young Kai Xin listened to her and lied back down on the cold metal bed. As she waited for the pain to subside, she placed her hand on her belly and noticed that it was slightly flatter than before.

With a rueful grin, she murmured, "Looks like he's really gone..."

"Kai Xin..." Young Jane looked at her worriedly.

"I'm fine," Young Kai Xin said with a smile but the tears that were slowly rolling down from her eyes told Jane that her best friend was just trying to be brave.

"I can't..." said Young Kai Xin right before a great sob escaped her. Clasping her hands over her mouth, she tried to hide her face away from Young Jane. She was too ashamed to meet her in the eyes.

However, it was hard for her to hide the truth when her body trembled violently as she tried to hold the tears back.