Chapter 22: I Don’t Want To Be An Edgy Character, I Swear! (2/2)

And I will not if they don't attack me.

As simple as that, seeking trouble without reason is stupid, and I might get myself chased away and killed.

Being ”evil” is not my cup of tea, and I am neither a ”good” person either, I am just… a normal person, although I was thrown into this body and given these cheats, I used to be a pretty ”chill” guy.

I a not simply going to give a complete shift in personality and become the edgiest man alive just because I have the body of a monster…

I have to first look for what I want to protect.

Everyone in their lives always seeks something they want to protect.

Aside from our own lives, what do we fight for?

A father or a mother fights by working every day to maintain his children and his wife.

A cop works hard every day to protect people and the law (well, this varies a lot depending on how fucked up they are).

A fireman fights every day to protect people from… well, fire.

And so on.

I know this example is incredibly childish and perhaps stupid, but this is how I see things, so deal with it.

So? I want to find people to be at my side.

I am not into the whole ”edge lord solo player” bullshit, and I don't think anyone can really be such a being, to begin with, anyone with intelligence is born and fated to meet people and interact with them.

I don't know what kind of setting would make a person really think that they can be alone by themselves forever, it is completely retarded.

Yes, I know that there are shady people everywhere that you shouldn't trust, but there is always someone good for 10 bad people, honest and nice persons that you can trust.

Do I sound too childish by thinking that there are brighter sides to everything?

Perhaps, but what's so wrong with it?

Do I simply want to live in a gloomy world where everyone hates me for no reason? Of course not, that's horrible.

Why should I resign myself to become a lonely loser?

The whole ”OP Badass solo player” retarded crap really gets into my nerves, this setting is not simply a game, this is real life, as fantastical as it is, I can smell things, feel pain, breath, eat, and feel hunger.

I am definitely not playing a game, even with a System at my side, therefore, being that stereotype is complete and utter crap.

I will never become such a being, even if I try as hard as I can.

And if I want to find out where I am and what is even this world, I will have to eventually interact with other intelligent beings.

Exploring the world and growing stronger is a nice goal, alongside surviving, but along the way, I also want to forge bonds.

I know… it will be hard.

But I really want to believe that I can do this, I really want to see the bright side of things, even more, when I have delved so deep into the dark side of life in this new world.

But for now, I have to concentrate on the present.

As I finish my mental ramblings, I suddenly hear the footsteps of something.

I quickly hide beneath a thick pine tree, as I glance at the creature roaming around… creatures, in fact.

Three wolves are sniffing around the snow… they are all Initial Stage.

This is my chance.

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