Chapter 22: I Don’t Want To Be An Edgy Character, I Swear! (1/2)

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I walk through the snow at a good pace, although my stomach already begins to rumble.

I quickly eat some snow and it shuts up.

Yeah, the good ol' trick of eating snow to appease my hunger, even after evolving it works wonderfully.

Now, as I walk around, I began to think about what I should do with my life.

Aside from surviving!

I should really look for some kind of civilization, maybe.

But can I even fit in one?

I mean, I was a former human, and even as a Dragon I have intelligence and thoughts, I doubt I can live in solitude for the rest of my life.

…It would be honestly depressing.

Life is enjoyable when you have those you love around.

Emotional pillars are essential for my own sanity, which is slowly fading away with every day…

But if I find civilization or some kind of people or talking monsters… what do I do?

If they are nice to me, I can be nice to them too, right? I don't like to be overly aggressive without any actual reason.

But if they try to attack me because I am a monster… well, I might freeze a few and then run away, perhaps.

Well, depending on how aggressive they are.

Or if they are simply scared and don't attack me, I might just go away without doing anything to them.

I mean if I am going to be aggressive against them I have to justify it!

Even as twisted as I am now, I need some justification for what I do so I don't simply become a chaotic evil asshole.

And because I am a person with emotions and this is real life and not a video game, I want to support my own emotions and sanity in beliefs and a bit of pride as well.

Attacking anything on sight is also not good unless it is a delicious prize or a nice prey and I am extremely hungry.

I am not saying that I am a pushover or something, but not being completely wild and insane doesn't mean that I am a coward, I am just… I consider myself a person, okay?

Being a monster makes me work like a monster, but what about this mind of mine? I am thinking and feeling emotions, thereby I am a person.

I cannot neglect this essential part of my very self, as I don't want to become a mindless monster.

The reason I have survived for so long is because of my intelligence above other monsters (and my cheats).

Losing that strong point of me would be terrible.

Especially in a new world filled with so many wonders and dangers.

I really want to explore this world, to find where the heck I am.

I want to know its history, its origins, what is up with monsters here, why there is magic, what kind of civilizations exist, and more.

I want to find out about what I should do, and what could be my purpose aside from simply surviving.

As a person, I have to think about these things.

I know that I said that I wasn't a person before, but that applies to… well, anyone else except my own mind, I see myself as a person, but people outside will most likely not.

And there's the big dilemma, should I hurt people or not?

I will if they attack me.