Chapter 5 (2/2)
His house didn’t have a father who stayed inside day and night
He had one who alorked hard in a “bro-ker-age fi-rm”
I didn’t knohat a brokerage fir transmitted to me
Looking at the wonderful house furnished with stairs ascending 3 floors, it was obvious that all children admired it
That birthday party was the best time of my life
Everyone ate K●ntucky Fried Chicken!
The homemade strawberry shortcake filled with fresh cream which his aunt made for everybody!
That’s the thing!
The quality of a fresh homeht cake!!
The moment I noticed that I seriously trembled…!!
Everyone ate a delicious feast (I later knew that all the children’s parents, except for mine, called in to say their thanks)
Everyone exchanged presents (I was the only person who didn’t bring a big thing, but no one said anything, and it armly received)
It was the most fun time of my life
It was the most blessed time of my life
And then, when the party’s excitement reached it’s climax—-I returned home
Of course, I told an obvious lie of “so came up” so this and that person’s
I realized, for some reason, my heart would be dyed in a murky black every time I felt happiness
Even though I ignored it, I couldn’t shake it off, and soon, the dark feelings in my heart exploded
The s
It was “jealousy”
“Why isn’t my family like this?”
I felt the ed his knees alone on the other side of my heart, ask this
I ignored uy was very obstinate
It was an i his knees while covered in a dark aura, floating and co here with a “zuun” (fast motion)
While laughing with an ghastly laugh of “ufufufufufufufu”
Honestly, that’s quite annoying Go die
It seems my old self was in a fairly crowded place
But luckily, s exploding in my mind on other people, and it finished where they were just a bit suspicious
In order to prevent the side of the despair-like guy, as sitting and hugging his knees, frouy’s butt to the opposite bank
I think ain control of his emotions, only because ”other people’s expressions
Only there I thanked
Otherwise I would have vented er on the one rare family that was nice to me
At that time, I requested “I want a birthday party too!!” tothe party midway
There wasn’t really a basis for it, but I felt that if I invited the other person and they were happy, ould be even
Thinking back now, it was a reckless action akin to suicide
Naturally, what awaited was violence, and my birthday party was never held
Did my 6 year-old self really want to hold a birthday party because of the feelings of guilt fro home from the party, or was it because I wanted to show my classmate “you and I are equal after all”?
I can’t reht now
I don’t want to remember
“I want a birthday party like Sudou-kun’s too, Otou-san”
My 6 year-old self haven’t opposed my father yet
There’s oneI recall
Theability But I still didn’t want to withdraw
I clung ontoat the straws of the humanity of the man known as my father
“I don’t give a damn, just do whatever you want”
“But I can’t call them to such a house…there’s lots of trash laid around, and we don’t even have tableware…”
“Then go wash it yourself”
“Sudou-kun’s house was clean”
“Sudou? Ahh, that fa ith that faht?”
In other words, ood people ere unusually kind to me
Just how rotten is he
“Even I want an otou-san like the one in Sudou-kun’s family…!”
“Ah!? What did you just say!”?
shi+t,
Please shut up, any more above this and
I begged like this, but this is a drea me my past memories
Right noasn’t able to interfere
In other words, a speech resulted, as if nited a dynamite fuse within himself
“Why does otou-san drink sake all the tih everybody is nore! I wish I was never born!!”
“This son of a bitch, if I let him say what he wants…”
Ahh mou, I’m really embarrassed…
Even a dark history has a limit
Frohtmare
My father hit an” (wham) and my dream ended