286 How much he missed her (1/2)

The waiter returned with their orders and served it on the table. Abalone rice and steak, Jin Yue wasn't really a fan of it, but at that moment, it was his favorite meal.

They ate quietly, not talking to each other, as though they were strangers eating on the same table.

After the table was cleared, Xin Yong broke the unending silence which had reigned between them since the beginning of the meal.

''I think this is for you…''

She opened her bag and took out a brown envelope and passed it across the table. Jin Yue did not need to open the envelope to know what was inside of it; he recognized it as soon as he saw it.

''I read the letter …and saw the pictures; ''

Xin Yong continued after some seconds of silence. ''I'm sorry for not replying earlier. ''

Jin Yue's heart hit rapidly, he looked comported on the outside but only he knew how much he was struggling with himself on the inside.

''I'm really glad that you found a way to tell me all these, even when I was so adamant on not wanting to speak to you ever again. I mean, after reading that letter, it eased a bit of my pain. At least I knew I wasn't dreaming all the while. ''

She paused again; at this moment, Jin Yue began having a bad feeling.

She was not sounding like she wanted to come back to him; rather like… like…she was saying a final goodbye.

As that thought came into his mind, he involuntarily sat up on his seat;

''Sweet…''

''Jin Yue, please, don't interrupt me, i don't want to miss anything I want to say to you now. ''

Jin Yue took in a deep breath as a sharp pain coursed through his heart.

''I want you to know that you caused me so much pain, although you didn't mean to, but that cannot be changed.

I also want you to know that I forgive you, for everything, for not trusting me enough and for everything I went through because of that silly mistake.

I don't blame you entirely, because I lied to you, although it wasn't my intention, and I had planned to tell you the truth later on, even though I didn't have a chance to.

I also want you to know that it's in the past now, the pain, the hurt, everything is in the past now. I have moved on, from them… from you. ''

''No, please, don't… don't say it…''

Jin Yue clutched his heart with his hand as the other hand palmed a handful of his hair. He felt a sizzling headache as his throat knotted.

''I've forgiven you Jin Yue, but I cannot be with you anymore…''

As the words left her lips, a drop of tear fell from his eyes. Jin Yue shut his eyes tightly praying earnestly that what he just heard wasn't true.

''You're a good person, Jin Yue, but it's sad that you aren't the one for me. I really loved you, Jin Yue, with all my heart. But even you know it would be foolish of me if I go back to you, after everything that has happened.

''I don't want another person! Please, I don't want any other person, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry… I'll make it up to you…''