146 The fall of a godess pt 1 (1/2)

Ultimately this is the same story. It is the love story of Alex and Yuri, but for now it will begin again. This time it will focus on Alex as the main character, as she is once again reborn, but her rebirth is different this time.

I warn you, because many of you might not like the way I am planning to take this story, so I have decided to inform you before I even begin. I do not know if this story will have a happy ending. But regardless I do hope you give it a chance.

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I opened my eyes, The last thing I remember was my soul being taken from my body. My body, what a joke, My body had long sense disappeared. I had died, and perhaps I should have stayed dead. That abomination I had become was not my body.

When the spider demi goddess had taken control I was not panicked, nor did I feel grief or anger. What I had felt was relief. Ever since we had entered the inverted tower my life had been a mess, and I had felt Yuri slipping further away from me.

She had done so much for me, she had sacrificed so much for me, but ultimately I had let her down. The last time I had seen her she smiled at me. That smile had been full of sadness, but I did not feel sad in return. Once again I had felt relief. Relief that I would have some time to think. Relief that I would not have to feel grief at the things I had done and said.

Being around her had made me feel suffocated. She had changed. I could see the madness in her eyes, and could feel the disappointment in her gaze. I loved her, but I couldn't stand the site of her any more. Not because of her, no it was because of me. I had been in the wrong.

It was safe to say that I was disgusted with myself, and her disappointed gaze only made that feeling stronger. Like that I disappeared from her view. The relief I felt was tainted with a small amount of sadness, just enough to make it bitter sweet.

When I had reappeared in the world we waited for a long time for her to appear. Time passed, and days had become months. My feelings had become even more complicated in this period of time, but it only added to my confusion.

We had decided to leave the city. It was nothing more than ruins, and we gained nothing from waiting. It was my idea, I needed to do something to escape from my feelings.

We traveled through the waste lands, it had been a hard journey, but we did not encounter much trouble. The monsters and plants were easily taken care of by our group.

When we left the wastelands we had encountered a group of survivors. They told us stories of a resistance group, seeking to take back the world from the insect beasts that had conquered the land.

After a month of traveling we decided to make love. It was supposed to be a glorious night, but it had been my downfall. The woman was under the control of Peur. That night had been an ambush, and the demi-goddess had easily taken over my body.

I could only watch on in horror as my body no longer was my own. I watched as I bound my comrades in my webs, and staggered towards their bodies. I had created a dagger with my steel threads, and placed it against Bailey's throat.

I struggled to stop the action, bashing my conciousness against the invader. My actions were futile, but seemed to amuse the demi-goddess. She moved the knife from Bailey's throat, and instead slashed it across her face.