Chapter 392 - Guilty (1/1)

Chapter 392 - Guilty

Su Wan looked up when there was a knock on her door Mother Lin She knew she would be visiting her sooner or later, and Su Wan was actually hoping for her to come and visit her Ever since she would up, everyone came to see her, even Father Lin, but Mother Lin was nowhere to be seen

Su Wan wanted to set the track right with Mother Lin but didn't kno to She tried to tell Mother Lin not to beat herself up Still, she never got a chance to Mother Lin was such a faint-hearted woman that she believed herself to be the culprit just because she hid the facts that she knew

Su Wan sat up straight "Mother-"

Then before she could say anything else, Mother Lin had her aret the words out that she wanted to say She was hugging her so tightly that she couldn't even breathe

"I'm so sorry," said Mother Lin Su Wan didn't stop her; she knew that Mother Lin had to get this baggage off her heart or she ht pile it up inside her until she exploded

Su Wan caught sight of unshed tears in Mother Lin's eyes when she pulled back and felt her heart break a little Mother Lin didn't have to cry It doesn't matter whether she told her or not Yeah, it hurt a little when she realized that Mother Lin chose Lin Yan over her, but truthfully, even she would select Lin Yan over herself

So there was nothing for ize for

"You don't have to apologize I would have done even if you didn't tell me"

Mother Lin inhaled a sharp breath and then let go of a shuddering breath as she shook her head "It's not that It's not about whether you have gone or not The thing is, it's my fault I should have told you the truth, but I didn't I deliberately hid the inforo then, it would have been your choice But I didn't tell, I hid it because because I was -"

"Afraid?" helped Su Wan gently

Mother Lin nodded, her head wiping the tears falling uncontrollably on her cheeks now "I - I thought if you found out as at stake, you wouldn't go, and I - I will lose my son I was scared to lose you, but I was more scared to lose my son I know I shouldn't have done what I did because that choice was yours to make, but I didn't want to scare you I was afraid that if you found out, you would back out and then And then I will lose Ah Yan I was selfish, I know You can hate me if you want My sons hate me too But what - as I supposed to do? I couldn't just watch my son die, I know that I was really insensitive, but I had no other choice!"

Su Wan sighed and helped Mother Lin sit down beside her before handing a handkerchief to mother Lin to wipe her tears She waited for Mother Lin to finish wiping away her tears before she began "You are right, mother You were selfish You were really selfish I was really hurt when I realized that you deliberately hid soht whether or not you love hter as you claimed-"

"Of course I-"

"Don't lie, mother," said Su Wan calmly as if she wasn't hurt at all Actually, she wasn't She has always kept mother Lin and Father Lin at bay as well If someone asked her did she treat Mother Lin and Father Lin because she loved them? The ansould be no She didn't love the to serve the the kind of situation

She never had any expectations from them, she hoped to be accepted and loved, but she didn't anticipate it She knew that even if she was nice to them and they kind to her - she was, in the end, an outsider

It wasn't hard to expect If Su Wan was in their place, she would have chosen her child too instead of their spouse It was cruel and selfish, but so was ot

She couldn't understand a mother's love, but she knew that her child was the most precious treasure for a mother She couldn't understand, so she cannot blaet this either She will never blaive either

Mother Lin stared at Su Wan, her eyes turning red as her lips curled in asmile "It would have hurt less if you blahed and looked up at Su Wan again calmly "you can be really cruel sometimes, Wan Wan But I don't blame you if I were you -if you didn't savelike this too, I would have never blaiven you either I would have left you to forever live in guilt You and I are the sa and let Mother Lin continue what she wanted to tell her She knew that Mother Lin wasn't here just to apologize to her

"I wish I could have done better than I did," saidvoice "I kno important you are to my sons, and I don't blame theive them a new identity and a chance to live a better life I understand their anger in one way or another, but the truth is I don't regret it" Mother Lin's voice grew deterret it, but that doesn't uilty"