Chapter 13：... YOU IDIOT! (2/2)
The position I'm in is starting to feel a little uncomfortable, so I sit up and lean my back against the couch. Honey twists her body and rests an arm over the sofa and continues to listen to me talk.
”Things are less confusing that way. Just like how the world seems to dislike the 'grey' areas.”
”I'm sure you know of the saying 'Not everything is black or white.' It's precisely the type of thing a lot of people can't get behind.” I shift uncomfortably in my seat.
”It's not that I'm claiming that no one will understand me. There aren't many people who would TRULY get me, of course. Because of that, it will make it harder for me to find that 'someone'.”
”... How I am as a person is one of the primary reasons why I got divorced. When my more... 'unique characteristics' started to surface, it's like everything else that's hidden within me began to come out of the woodwork. Things I never even knew about myself.”
Smiling wryly, I continue to tell her my story. ”I'm too dominant at home or at work. I'm not cute or feminine 'enough'. I'm not 'romantic'. I act too much like a 'guy'. Whatever that means.” I couldn't help but roll my eyes.
All of a sudden though, I bite my lip and remember a part of a memory I wish I could forget.
It's not what I meant by acting 'like a guy', but it just reminded me of it anyway.
- - -
{Flashback}
- - -
Inside our room, some rough breathing and moaning could be heard.
We were lost in our world, right at the peak of ecstasy in each other's arms.
Adrenaline was rushing through my veins; my heart was pumping into a frenzy.
Although my brain was muddled in fog, a single thought came to mind.
Yes... that's right. That strap-on dildo that we own.
He's been using it to double penetrate me sometimes when we have sex.
Right now, though, all I wanted to do was to dominate him. I had the strangest desire to use that fake member on Kieran instead.
It was a feeling that's entirely foreign to me. My cheeks flushed from the thought of it, and I got even more turned on.
I suddenly had the urge to grab Kieran's ass. Use a strap-on dildo, and drive it right into his back hole (after being prepped, of course).
- - -
{Flashback end}
- - -
Covering my face with my hands, I suddenly recall that scene like it was yesterday.
Without thinking it through, I whispered what I wanted in his ear.
What came next, however...
That look of utter confusion, disgust, and horror on his face...
It was, unfortunately, more than I could take.
The expression Kieran had was impossible to misunderstand; it was nothing but pure rejection.