50 47 気分を切り替え、糧としろ！！ (2/2)

”Tanaka, dude.

The taxpayers' tax on dating beautiful women has gotten you in a lot of trouble today, but it's not bad if you can laugh at it.

I would like to hug Suela for removing her make-up, but we'll talk about that later.

I know you're stressed out, we have plans later on, why don't you go have a drink with your friends?

Don't get carried away.

I'm telling you I'm persistent.

Suela said what she wanted to say, which took away most of my anger, but it didn't take away the spark.

My voice came out so low that I thought it came out well.

You don't really apply force to interrupt me, but you grab Kato's right shoulder with your left hand with a squeezing force to stifle him.

Thinking back, I was more than a little jealous of this guy.

I could hear the stories of the woman I met in between sales assignments during work, she had free time, and while I was working overtime, she was just going home.

I don't know if it's true or not, but I heard a rumor that Kato's salary was better than mine.

My boss would scold me and then smile when he arrived.

I blamed myself for my bad judgment and wondered again and again why I was different from him.

Now I feel that things have changed.

Is it because this way, I'm beginning to realize that even if my work is not going well, I'm still getting solid results.

Kato's presence, which I thought would be far away or above me, now seems small.

I have no further use for Kato, who looks at me as if surprised.

I grab her shoulder and shove her away, making her turn around.

Let's go.

”Yes.

This time it was my usual voice.

When Suela answered me, it was her voice, too.

I pulled my hand from her grasp and slowly walked away, but she didn't speak to me from behind.

”I'm sorry to bother you, but someone I know is bothering you.

Well, I'm actually a little angry, aren't I?

”Huh?

A short distance away from the place, there was silence, albeit for a few minutes.

Normally, Suela would reply with an apology for trying to get out of it, but this time was different.

Perhaps subconsciously expecting such words, I slowed my walk to look at her face in surprise.

”Do you know what I'm angry about?

It's not a smile, but a serious look into my eyes as Suela looks at me.

I'm sure there's a connection between this and Kato's earlier conversation, but she doesn't seem to be angry that she was picked on.

...... Sorry, I don't know.

I'm sure that if he had known, Jiro-san would not have responded in the way he did.

”......

I seriously don't know what Suela is upset about.

Hence the silence.

”Jiro.

In my previous company, I would have just apologized and made an excuse, but now I don't want to lie to her and I don't want to make excuses, so I choose silence.

She put her hand on my chest and called out my name, slowly and admonishingly, as if to keep up with my pacing, which had stopped before I knew it.

You're not a god. In everything you do, you will fail, you will falter. It's human nature and it's inevitable. But...

Isn't it good to have confidence?

”Huh?

Her words dropped into me like a stoner in my chest and got me hooked.

I'm angry that you despised the confidence that you should have. You were sincere about everything, but you didn't have the confidence that should have accompanied it. You are straightforward, but you do not trust yourself. You're trying to do something by forcing yourself to believe that you can do it.

Slowly she tells me what she's seen and felt herself.

I'll just listen.

Sure, maybe I'm insecure.

Part of me hates to work hard like that, but I was afraid that if I retreated here, I would lose something.

I was afraid of desperation, of being lost, of being next to Suela like this.

I've seen what you've done. I've seen what you've done. So, Jiro, please believe in yourself. You may think you can do it, but you can't rise to the top, but that's not true.

There is something deep inside, something like a pillar, and her words support me.

I can do it, because it's Jiro, who I fell in love with.

”......

Jiro?

For now, stay tuned.

”Yes.

There's something nagging in my chest.

I'm being watched in a very uncool way today.

Being seen frustrated at work, comforted when you are down, saved by the words of an acquaintance.

And it helped me build my confidence.

Yeah, I'm so uncool today.

Thank you.

I love her more than I can say, and I love her so much right in front of me.

I don't care about the street.

I hold her softly.

Yeah, I'm just taking it.

But I feel like I've finally left the nest.

So far I've just been a cog in the wheel that relies on the power around me, and now I'm going to be the cog in the wheel that turns.

Oh, I'm ashamed that I thought the job was a hassle.

I must be a fool for thinking it was a hassle.

It's not just Suella.

The supervisor, Kaylee and Kaido are giving me a job (a chance) because they believe I can do it, too.

So why didn't I have the guts to respond.

Thank you, Suela.

You're looking great, Jiro.

”I was uncool today, so I'll be cooler,

I'm not worried about it.

I hug her again as she finally says the words of thanks and receives them with a happy smile.

I want to meet her expectations that I can hear from her chest.

It might be the first time.

I want to work.

If I can think that way.

It's because of her.

Do you want to go somewhere to eat?

Yes, I'm a little hungry.

Still, just close your eyes for today.

Resist the urge to work for a little while, and go into town with Suela to accumulate more fuel.

The stares I felt along the way don't bother me anymore.

I can proudly announce that her seat is mine.

Another side

Retraining Proposal

I loosen my mouth when I see that the paperwork, and the attachments that seem to accompany it, are far better than I expected.

The atmosphere that I thought was lacking is improving over the next few days.

”I thought it would end in prospect, but it's come out of its shell faster than I expected.

You're happy but frustrated that you weren't the one who did it.

I'm not naive enough to hide those feelings, and I think I'm honest enough to play along.

I was going to take some action if it had remained unchallenged, but I decided to think that I could cut down on the effort.

I'm looking forward to the future.

Some resumes placed on the desk and visible next to it, the second cohort is approaching.

Another side END

Tanaka Jiro, 28 years old, single

Her Suela Hendelberg

Memory Tris

Occupation Dungeon Tester (full-time)

Magical aptitude 8 (general class)

Post Warriors

Word of the Day

You need results for your efforts.

But it's important to believe in yourself to support it.

I came to know that today.