101 100. Four people on different paths.txt (2/2)

I need to make sure I have something more important to do.

As much as I want to solve Snow's problems, I have a lot to say. I have a lot to say to you. But I had to make sure my sister was clear.

If I'm going to do something for Snow, it's obviously better to have her memory back.

I'm determined to get out of the conversation.

Just like with Rowen, I openly asked for help in destroying the bracelet.

When Snow heard that, her expression hardened.

''-- What, what ......?''

'I will restrain my will to the limit. I want Snow to destroy the 'bracelet' with all his might.

I repeated the same request.

As soon as I heard the word 'bangles', Snow's expression fell.

The room instantly goes quiet and Snow and I stare at each other.

I continue to stare at her with a serious expression on my face.

In contrast, Snow looked away and muttered.

'...... I don't want to.'

I refused with a shaky voice.

He had recommended destroying it when they met, and I had a faint hope that he might smile and help me out.

But the hope was shattered and Snow shook her head.

''No. Absolutely not ......!

He kept his eyes on the ground and shook his head like a child.

The anxiety I was feeling was right on target.

''Sonoono ......, you can't do that when you get to this point ....... I can't imagine life without Kanami. If you break that 'bracelet', I'm sure Kanami will stop being an 'Epic Seeker'!　I'm leaving Lauravian!　That's ......, and that's the only thing I'm not going to do!

Snow: ......

I was pressured by Snow's true intentions in front of me.

I was desperate.

That reeking Snow has become so desperate.

That alone leaves me speechless.

'Hey, Kanami. Can't we continue as we are?　What's the lack of anything?　You'll get your position, your honor, your money, your security, and everything else, right?　What more can you do?　Please, don't do it: ......

Snow makes a twisted smile and begs me to reconsider.

'...... I'm missing the real truth. Maybe that truth is more important than my life. So I'm going to break the 'bracelet'.

I return the words I had prepared in advance.

Snow, who answered immediately, forced a smile and said, ”Ehehehe ......” and continued to persuade me.

''Wow, I'm going to be a good wife!　So stay the course, Kanami!　I like Kanami as it is!　Let's get fooled together (・・・・・・・・・), all the way!　Hey, Kanami!　There's a world out there for everyone to be happy in!

'Yeah, you'll be happy: ....... It seems to be happening (・・・・・・). But it's no good, Snow. Snow just said to himself, ”Let's get fooled,” ....... I know I'm being tricked and I can't just accept it. I can't 'get my wish wrong' ......!

I borrow the Reaper's words, feeling the pain in my palms.

I want to be fooled. ...... I want to be fooled for a long, long time. So Kanami should be fooled with me .......

It can't be done: ......

He shakes his head coldly.

Feeling the coldness of the situation, Snow's expression changes as he realizes how determined he is.

''Nah, then!　Just give me a minute!　Win the tournament and be the hero and help me!　That alone is--

'That's not true either, Snow. No matter how much you shout about it, no convenient 'hero' is going to come to your rescue. They won't come to .......

I hear the word 'hero' and tell Snow the answer I arrived at last night.

'What?　You're not coming here ......?

'I'm not going to be a 'hero'. I've found that path to be wrong ....... So the 'hero' that Snow wants will never appear: ......

I have nothing but distrust for 'heroes'.

That's what I was convinced of when I attended the ball with Snow.

Perhaps it would have been better to tell him this after my memory returned. But I couldn't help but admonish him. If possible, I want Snow to realize her true wishes before the 'dancing competition' begins.

The time until the example marriage is short. Otherwise, we won't be able to make it.

''Ugh, uu......, uu, ah......--''

At last, tears came to Snow's eyes.

My heart aches. But I keep my cool.

Snow is relying on me too much. If you can, I want you to get over that. Otherwise, she'll always be in pain.

”I've found my true desire. I don't remember any of it, but I'm pretty sure it's my wish. I will get the truth back. And I'm not going to let anyone else's mind be messed with anymore. It's ......, so I hope the Snow doesn't go the wrong way. I'm going to grant Snow's own wish, not that of the Walkers, but Snow's own wish.

I told Snow about the Reaper's reception.

Snow prods his knees and sits down on his inner thighs.

Then he covers his face with his hands.

'Oh, ah, Kanami ....... My (...) Kanami is .......

...... No. I don't belong to Snow.

I regret that I may have rushed things a bit.

There could have been gentler ways to say it. There could have been better timing.

Snow looks down and starts to let out a dry laugh.

'...... Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. ...... I knew it was no good, didn't I? I'm no good.

Guilt turns around my body like poison.

Still, I must aim to destroy The Bracelet for the sake of what's important to me. I maintain my coolness.

'Me and Snow were never supposed to mix in the first place. ...... Snow may like The Hero's Kanami, but I don't like The Hero's Self .......

She adds more words to get Snow to give up.

When she hears this, she returns it sulkily.

'...... Kanami doesn't like me. ...... He wants me to marry Elmirad Siddharq.

'The marriage should be Snow's decision. It's not up to me. It's up to you to decide for yourself.

It's not something that someone forces you to do, nor is it something you don't want to do. And moreover, ”it's easy” is a reason that must be wrong.

'But Kanami will decide for me!　That's what Palinkron said!　He said that Kanami was the only one who could guide me: ....... He said it, and yet ......

If I don't change my mind no matter what I say, Snow must have noticed the look on my face. Halfway through, his words lose their momentum.

'No. Think for yourself and only believe what you decide, Snow ......!

I wanted him to move on.

I wanted him to get his wish, like the Reaper, and I told him to make his own decision.

'Well, I can't do that ....... It's hard .......

But it won't come true.

Hearing those words, Snow shows a look of despair. It seems to be the most difficult thing for her to accept. Then, she continues to mutter weakly.

'Kanami has abandoned me, Palinkron ....... And, as usual, no one is helping me ......!　No one is ......!　Aaaaah ......, ugh ......

”Snow has the power. He can help himself with Snow Walker's own power, which is no one else's. So--!

Like the Reaper--

I can't--.......

But Snow answers without a second thought.

'More desperately, more seriously, if Snow Walker lived for Snow Walker, things would change!　I'm sure it's ......!

...... Oh no. ...... I can't stand that.

When I tell him not to give up, Snow continues to answer nonchalantly.

'...... because if you're a little desperate, this is it. If I really wanted Kanami, I would be so sad that I was abandoned. It's so sad that it makes me want to die. Oh, after all, you can't get serious. I shouldn't have been serious: ......!　It's a real pain in the ass when you get serious: ......!

He continues to complain with an empty expression on his face.

I don't see any intention to change myself there.

Snow has given up again.

I'm annoyed by that.

It's irritating because I feel like I'm seeing the person I was a little while ago.

'That's normal, real human emotion!　Don't run from it, Snow ......!

I try to get him to reconsider somehow, calling his name as I approach him.

'Somehow, Kanami: ......'

But I stop when I see Snow calling my name while continuing to spew weakness.

'I don't want to do anything else ....... I don't even want to decide ....... Kanami ......!

Snow reached out and tried to hang on to me.

I was wrong.

I just thought I knew.

Snow is weak.

His mind is much weaker than I thought it would be.

Without something to cling to, the girl named Snow Walker can't even walk by herself.

But my reaching out here would change nothing for Snow.

It's just more of the same.

I keep my distance from Snow. I retreat until I'm absolutely out of reach, take a deep breath and calm down. Then I say the last word.

'...... I've decided on my own path. So I'll be happy if Snow decides her own path, too.

I turn my back.

Then, without looking back, I open the door and leave the room.

From behind me, I hear a voice calling my name.

But don't give it a second glance.

I'm also responsible for Snow's weakness to this point.

It's because I coddled him too much. At the very least, that was definitely a contributing factor. Because of me, Snow has been hoping for an impossible hope, and her heart is breaking at the natural consequences.

If I coddle Snow any longer, she won't be able to make decisions for herself.

For Snow's sake, I can't look back here.

I leave the room and walk through the 'Epic Seeker' in silence.

There's no one else in my group who is likely to break my ”bracelet” with this.

Even Volzak-san, the most talented person in Epic Seeker, would not be able to even let me get a scratch on him.

I'll have no choice but to look for someone else.

It's easy to find them now. It's a good thing that people with confidence in their skills from all over the world have gathered in one place.

If you go to the giant mobile theater ”Vualhura”, there may be someone who will help you depending on the reward.

But before that, there was someone I had to say hello to.

I changed my mind and walked to the top floor of ”Epic Seeker” and opened the door of the room.

'-- Maria (...), good morning.'

I smile as best I can and address the girl, who may or may not be my sister.

'Oh, brother ......,'

Maria sat on the bed and turned her head towards us.

The sight of her was painful to watch.

And lovely at the same time.

Adorable but .......

There is a good chance that Maria is not her own sister.

No, I'm sure she's not my sister. The circumstantial evidence for this is all there is.

Therefore, I judge that this love for the girl named Maria is due to this 'bracelet'. I've been manipulating their memories, so that much is within my control.

I suppress my feelings for Maria and say goodbye for a while.

I'm sure you've heard about this, but tomorrow there's an event called the 'Dance Tournament'. And I'll be representing Lauravia: ......

...... So I'll wait here then. I'm blind and I can't even watch the game, it would only get in the way.

'Yeah, right. I'm blind. ......

The identity of this blind girl bothered me.

I thought she was a good actor who cooperates with Palinclone, but the 'bracelet' on her arm denies it. This girl is in the same state as me.

I'm worried about the destruction of the girl's ”bracelet”.

If the bracelet is destroyed, the girl will remember her true self. If I destroy it, she will remember her true self, and there is a high possibility that she will get new information.

But I can't step into it.

I can't allow my memories to be played with. I can't allow it, ever. But the girl in front of me doesn't have the same determination as I do.

So I can't allow the girl to recall the memories of a horrible misfortune at my discretion.

This is the same problem with the Reapers. If I don't get my memories back first, I won't be able to make any judgments.

I tell Maria with a smile on my face.

'Then I'll be off for a few days or so. 'Maria,'

'Oh, you're going to go already ......?'

Yeah, it's just an urgent matter. Sorry.

...... It's no use, then. Have a good day, brother.

I leave the room without much conversation.

Maria was sorry to see me leave.

But I'm not sure if Maria's sentiment is genuine or not.

There was no way I could have a pleasant conversation with her in such a state.

I walked through 'Epic Seeker' with my face contorted.

Then I get the information about the ”Dance Tournament” that was sent to Guild Master Kanami from a guild member. The guild members gave me the information about the tournament and where to stay.

The place to stay was a first-class room on a high-class lodging ship. It was a room on the top floor with a great view.

I looked at the entirety of the mobile giant theater ”Vualhura” in the reference material and was surprised at its odd structure.

I thought it was just a single large ship, but I was wrong. It is said that during the time of the ”Dance Contest”, huge ships from all over the world gather there.

I've heard that these ships are connected to not only battle ships that serve as guards, but also circus ships, spectacle ships, and ships that house restaurants.

Since it's already the day before the 'dance competition', all the ships will be chained up and ready to be moved by foot.

There are more than 10 ships for accommodation alone, and ships carrying nobles from all over the world are also coming, so the total number of ships will be staggering.

The fleet assembled around the giant theater ship Vualhura is the largest fleet in the world, without question. And from today, that fleet will be called ”Vualhura” by the people.

I feel a slight excitement at the prospect of touring the area.

But soon that excitement dies down.

If there was just one person next to me who could share my thoughts, the excitement would be palpable.

But there is no one.

I'm alone, and I walk towards the north of Lauravia.

The loneliness was deceptive.

Not long ago, I had thought that the 'Dancing Tournament' would be a festival-like event to participate in with Snow, Rowen and Reaper.

But the reality is the opposite. It's splendidly disjointed.

We were all alone, unable to even share our thoughts with anyone else.

Along with the feeling of loneliness, I felt ashamed of myself.

Then I suddenly thought.

”'Christ Eurasia' would have been ......, could I have done better ......?

As Aikawa Uzumi, I think I did what I could.

However, I am not sure that this was the best I could have done, especially with Snow. I could have done more, especially with Snow, but I don't know if it was the right thing to leave him there. I don't even know if it was the right thing to leave him there.

When I came here, I became aware of my past.

Maybe he could have done better if he had taken on the name 'Christ' and resolutely challenged the labyrinth.

He could have solved the problems of the Reapers, Rowen and Snow, and the four of them could have walked together.

'Haha ......, that's something to think about. ......

It's not a good idea to think about it now.

I know that.

But I'm hoping.

I'm hoping that I can be the kind of person who can help the Leapers, Rowen and Snow, now that I've recovered my memories.

I'm sure my mind is churning over my sister.

Still, I wanted him to be someone who could help everyone who was suffering.

That's what I want to be, I hope.

In order to do so, I'm going to Vualhura.

To break my ”bracelet”.

You must be there.

At last, the girls' interests are aligned.

Rastiala Fuzzyards. Diablo Sith.

The two of them.