52 51. The fighting spirit obtained by Aikawa Whirlpool.txt (2/2)

Then, having eaten all the remaining breakfast, Rustyala sat up.

'Thanks for the meal. I have to get ready for tomorrow, so I'll go now. I don't think I'll be able to help you explore the labyrinth for the rest of the day, so go play with Maria. And also tell her I said hello to her while you're at it.

Just a little more...

As if to say that all the talking was over, Rustyala showed his back.

As it is, she tells me goodbye.

'I think I (...) will come tomorrow night, so wait until then ....... Baibai ......

With that, Rustyala left the house for the last time.

I wasn't sure if I should fight to stop her. But while I was wondering, Rustyala left quickly and I was left alone in the house.

'Oh ......'

When I think that those were Rustyala's last words, I'm almost crushed by the feeling of incompetence.

Just then, I heard a door open from behind me.

Maria was standing on the other side of the door.

She was looking at me with an expression as dark and serious as mine.

From the look on her face, I realized that Maria had heard the conversation we had just had.

'Did you hear me ......?'

Yes, sir.

Maria affirms it without lying.

I guess she had difficulty getting into the living room when she saw us talking in an unusual way and just listened in.

'Rastiara-san is at .......'

I'm out. You heard the man.

I weakly point to the aftermath of Rustyala's departure.

'Are you sure about this, Master ......?'

'Nothing. The problem is too big: ......

And I'm going to be honest with you about something that is out of my control.

If I had to describe the current situation in one word, that's all I would say.

'So, when the new Tiara-san arrives, you'll think of it as Russ Tiara-san and you'll still be ......?

...... That's not Rastiala, that's a different person. It's not going to happen.

If it's really as the story goes, that rastiara with its tiara in it is now a different person. I have no intention of treating a different person who has no feelings for me like Rastiara. I'm going to have to say that it's my enemy.

At the very least, they can't be my friends: ......

Maria hears this and returns with a very clear voice.

'Good ....... I'm really glad .......'

There was no emotion of sadness or anger there.

Maria was there, relieved from the bottom of her heart.

I felt a chill in my heart as Maria smiled.

'What ......?'

The reason for that relief was unknown to me.

I thought I would be more sad to say goodbye to Rustyala. But quite the opposite. Was I mistaken that the two of them seemed to be close in their own way?

As I wondered at Maria's reaction, I quickly got an answer.

''I thought the master was fond of Rustyala-san, so...''

Maria replied.

That I like Rustyala.

I didn't know what those words meant, and I couldn't answer anything on the spur of the moment.

Nevertheless, Maria continued to speak.

'Of course, Rustyala-san has some strange qualities, but--'

Maria said that I like Rustyala.

I know what she's saying, but I don't know what she means.

I'm confused by an answer I wasn't expecting.

Speaking of love, wasn't it Maria who was doing it?

Why do you want to talk about me all of a sudden?

She's so beautiful.

Oh, indeed, Rustyala is a beauty.

It's impossible to describe her in two words: beautiful, she embodies a beauty so far removed from reality. It's a beautiful girl that you won't see even behind the television in my world.

She's so strong and bright...

Physically, you can be sure that he is stronger than anyone else.

He is foul. He has a lot of skills and has a close eye for me.

My personality is bright to say the least. Aside from my insecurities and craziness, I have a very positive and cheerful personality. He's a mood-maker who pulls people around him with his cheerfulness and makes them smile.

He's a prankster, but at his core, he's a friend to his friends...

That's right.

The man is dangerous in many ways.

He likes the thrill of the moment, and he wants the dramatic. But that doesn't mean he doesn't put people in danger for no reason. On the contrary, he has given a lot of advice for Maria and me. He said the things that were hard to say because they weren't good for us, even if he was a villain.

'It's dreamy, but it's ideal for a labyrinth explorer--'

It was probably because of the environment that he was prone to dreaming.

Rastiara was naturally induced to prefer stories of heroes in order to become a hero. Dreamy heroic tales made up most of Rastiara's life. That's why he has more enthusiasm for adventure than anyone else and is an excellent labyrinth explorer.

''I'm very much like my master, so we're very much on the same page--''

Rastiara and I were on the same page.

The reason I'm taking such a cautious stance now is because this is a different world and there's a reason I can't die. If it weren't for that, I would be a dreamer and game-player just like Rustyala. Even though my mouth says the opposite, in essence, I know exactly what Rastiara is saying.

'I thought you would like that kind of Lastiara. But it's not, is it?　Isn't that right?

Did I like that kind of Lastiara?

If I put labyrinth exploration first, I'd probably be more inclined to cut off Rastiara.

Still, is that why I was trying to bite the bullet and do something about it, like today: ......?

If you think about it, it's strange that he didn't think anything of such a beautiful, complete girl as a man. Was it because of the way they met and the circumstances that he couldn't acknowledge the fact that he was attracted to her?

But it's true that I'm in a hurry to lose Rastiara now. Subconsciously, I'm wondering what I can do about it.

Maybe, really, I am--

A skill? ?” is out of control.

Stabilize your mind in exchange for some emotion.

A +1.00 correction to confusion is added.

--What?

The skill '??' was activated, and the heat in my heart cooled as if I had been bathed in cold water.

My heart began to beat calmly, and the information swirling around in my head became clean and tidy.

At the same time, I realized that the ”something” that had been making my heart race was lost.

The important ”something” is lost through the skill ”? The ”??” traded the important ”something” for calmness on its own.

Analyze this fact with a cold mind.

I know what that 'something' is.

I'm not going to be able to say that I'm not going to be able to do anything about it.

I can understand that.

But now, I'm incredibly cold.

I give a thirsty laugh.

I'm going to be able to use the skill I know, ”? is triggered in two ways.

The first is when your emotions are out of control.

I wondered if this was the reason for triggering it, but the earlier one is clearly different. I wasn't confused enough to call it a runaway. Rather, I was trying to come up with an answer while trying to logically sort out the situation.

Then the other condition.

The second condition - do you say I deserved it when I was dying?

Ha, ha, ha, ha ......

In other words, the skill ”? judged 'love' or 'love' to be life-threatening?

Are you trying to tell me that if I fall in love with Rastiara, I'll die?

That may be true.

Maybe so, but--

That doesn't mean you can't redeem it without permission.

It's not nice: ......!

The flames called anger flared up from the flames.

It's the kind of anger that can ruin the calmness you've acquired with the skill ”? It's anger from the bottom of my heart that could ruin the calmness I've gained with my ?

This is ridiculous.

It's too inhumane.

My heart is not a toy.

This isn't something that should be allowed.

My emotions are running high.

I've never felt so angry before.

But it doesn't make the skill ”? doesn't respond to it.

I'm not sure if I'm going to be as calm as I was before, but even so, the ”??” skill is not activated. I'm not going to be able to get it to work.

In other words, if you think of ”love” like a child, you're out, but this anger that makes you want to kill someone is safe.

That fact only increased my anger.

'Duh, what's wrong ......?　Master?

Maria was dismayed when I started laughing and then didn't move with my face twitching.

But I'm in no mood for that.

I think back on the skill '??' I think back on the skill '?

It's a good idea to have a good idea of what you're looking for. I'm not going to be able to get rid of it. I remember activating it before and after the second encounter as well.

That's why you can't notice your emotions.

It's no wonder that they can't develop proper emotions.

The seed of the seed had been cut down to the roots.

The way we met, Rastiara and I were the worst.

I laugh in anger.

'Haha ....... No, it was a little funny ....... You're right, Maria. I don't like Rustyala. There seems to be no doubt about it.

What?　I see. ......

Maria is surprised by my answer.

Apparently it was an unexpected answer. And in order to confirm the truth of the answer, she peeks into my face. But no matter how much I peek, it's useless. He has just disappeared.

You said something more interesting than that. You said that me and Rustyala are similar ....... You're well aware of that.

Really, Maria's skill 'penetrating eyes' is a useful one.

It's because it allows you to know things that even the person in question can't realize without being told, in a plop.

'More than that?　...... Ugh, I can't really explain it, but I thought we were similar in our roots. From my point of view, both of you are perfected, as if you were 'made up'.

I let my dry laugh grow louder at Maria's apt point.

It's even fun because it's so on target.

If Rastiara is a 'make-believe' created by the environment, then I am a 'make-believe' made up by the skill ”? It's a 'make-believe' neatly arranged with the skill '?? I'm sure Maria understood that intuitively.

I'm not going to be able to say that I'm not going to be able to do that. We have similar roots.

Yes ......

Maria is frightened by my continued laughter.

Even with Maria's penetrating eyes, she can't seem to see through my current change and thoughts.

I'm not going to be able to get the same thing done. I'm not going to be able to get it right.

I'm not going to be the only one.

I'm just as unstable as Rustyala.

I'm sure I can understand Rustyala's feelings a little better now.

Even though I know there is a mistake, my mind can't catch up with it.

Perhaps Rastiara knows that it's wrong to undergo the ritual, but he doesn't have the emotions to accompany it.

So he can't move with confidence. He can only move according to his most reliable duty, remaining lost. Receiving the ritual is the only thing that keeps me grounded.

--What will I do?

I, too, know that I had feelings for Rustyala, but they weren't accompanied by feelings.

Likewise, do I go to the labyrinth unmoved and out of duty?

I can't do that. I can't be dishonest to put myself on the shelf after saying so many great things to Rastiara. My anger at disorder won't allow me to do that.

'Maria, I'm going out for a bit. I'll be back at noon.

'What, what ......?　Master, where are you--!

I walk out, leaving Maria confused.

Time is running out.

Like Rastiara, I go out the window.

--then what should I do?

The skill '??' I keep my head cold with anger in the bottom of my heart so that I don't trigger the ”?

To be honest, I know what I should do, but I'm not sure of my decision. I really want someone to check it out.

Maria would not be the right person to confirm that.

It's too much of a personal affair.

-- so I'm going to go find someone else.

Not to an insecure person like me, but to a friend who's secure in himself.