Chapter 81 - Since you are here with me (2/2)

I have also wanted to cross paths with him again.

Li Hua turns his back on me and walks away.

I worked as a servant in some places. When I saved enough money, I moved around. I was stabbed once and my money was also stolen. I made some friends, but I always had to leave them. I watched them grow old from far away. I was nearly sold in the brothel once, but I managed to escape. I had some bad times, but I managed to live through it. I couldn't stay anywhere for a long time.

We leave for K country. I plan to stay with him in the mountains. I want to live with him somewhere nobody bothers us. It will be just him and me. I want a home with him.

”Since you are here with me, I am not afraid.”

Suddenly, people are screaming loudly. I hold the urn protectively when I see a large tsunami wave coming toward us. I close my eyes as it swallows us all. I find myself sinking deeper into the sea. If I go to the bottom of the ocean, I won't die. It will be dark, but Li Jun will be there with me. I am sure that I won't be alone.

His ashes spread out of the cracks of the urn. I feel his warm hands holding mine. Li Jun gazes at me with his smiling eyes. He is saying something to me. I can't hear it. He wraps his arms around me. I rest my head on his shoulder and closes my eyes. The waves sway us for a long time. The water doesn't feel cold. Li Jun's body is warm.

I find myself all alone on an island. Li Jun left me again. I sit there, looking at the outstretched sea for a long time. He is probably holding a grudge on me for leaving me once. I have seen his death twice. If it's not a grudge, then what is it?

I lay down on the sand and stare into the horizon. The color of the sky changes every day. The day becomes night. The night becomes the day. The rainy days turn to summers. The brazen summers turn to winter. Then, the spring comes and teases me. The rain arrives again.

I am tired of looking at the moon that changes every day. I don't change at all. Even after Li Jun died, I am here. How many years do I have to wait for my death?

In the original timeline, I accepted death gladly after Li Jun's death. I saw the memory of his death and changed the past. Still, I had to see him die again. This time, even death abandoned me.