Chapter 81 - Since you are here with me (1/2)

I stay until Li Jun's funeral is over. I pretend to be the son of the soldier who served him once. There is no one who recognizes me here. Nobody questions my identity.

I am going to take his ashes away with me. He couldn't stay with me when he was alive. He can stay with me after his death. I don't want to be alone. I can't bear to leave him behind again. There is no Wu Qiuyue or the timekeeper. My aunt is dead. Li Jun is also dead. The timekeeper can't threaten me anymore.

In the dead of the night, I enter the building. The dim light of the lamp flicker near the altar. I sit in front of his portrait. The artist couldn't capture his light in portrait.

My Li Jun was not the sun. He was the gentle moonlight that comforted me even on his death bed. We were both selfish. I didn't say goodbye to him when I left him. He didn't say goodbye to me when he left me. The distance between is so far now. I can't die and grab onto his soul. I wish I could die. At least in the afterlife, we could be together.

”You are coming with me,” I pick up the urn and hold it to close to my heart. ”I left you with your family for long enough. You must stay with me from now on.”

When I walk out of the building, I find some waiting for me. He was a toddler when I saw him last time. He is a man in his late 60s now. I notice that his fingers are curled around the cane tightly.

”You are Mo Wei,” He tells me with a low voice. ”He made your paintings and my mother burned them. You were the reason behind their sorrow.”

The words are sharp. My legs tremble. I feel heavy. Too heavy to move. I want to sleep and dream about Li Jun, but I can't even do that. I am not even allowed to sleep.

”My mother went through hell every day. She wanted to be acknowledged by my father atleast once. That never happened. She died, wishing for him to come and see her once.” He inhales sharply. ”Before she died, she told me that she hated you for leaving him.”

I clutch the urn closer to my heart. I don't have anything to say to him. I can only stand here and listen.

”Now that I look at you, I finally understand why you didn't stay with him. My father must have known it. His eyes always searched for you.” He stares at me for a long time. ”Take him. I am sure that he wouldn't want to stay here either.”