Chapter 121 - Stella 3 (1/2)

Their relationship can be considered as infatuation but not love. Still I wasn't confident enough to tell Regina that or even Theo. My position is quite complex. I was an outsider. Therefore I remained silent. They will either work on the relationship or break up soon. I may have not dated anyone or been in a relationship but I've seen many people.

This observation gained me so much knowledge. So, I'm like a love guru.

I had this fear that everyone will leave me at some point. Thanks to the insecurity of mine, I was unable to date anyone or romantically involved with anyone. Relationships are shit to be honest. One mistake and then you'll start to fight or argue or doubt each other. It's very fragile.

Seriously why bother being with someone when you can just stay alone.

I continued to give my advice to Theo but it finally happened. Regina broke up with Theo. It was the right thing to do. Although I wonder if I'm responsible for it. I did gave advice to Regina about life and how being in love feels.

Technically I brainwashed her, right?

Was it the right thing to do?

Will she hate me?

The guilt remains chained into my heart. I was scared. The incident from my past, I don't want to repeat it. Oh god! What have I done.

Theo didn't tell me anything. His mood seemed off. I already heard about the breakup from Regina after the second day of their separation. Personally, I had no intentions to poke my nose into his life. But he looked so sad. Even if he hides it, I can see the glumness in his eyes. At that moment I wanted to comfort him. I wanted to tell him that things will get better soon.

As long he keeps it all to himself, I can not help him.

Few days later we went to my parent's anniversary party. Vincent, Albert, Simon and Ray, all of my friends were there. I was happy to see them after a long time. But after Theo met Ray, his behaviour changed.

Then suddenly, Theo became furious with me. I went out with Ray since I was unable to meet him for a long time. My phone was switched off and it made him worry. We continue to argue and it ends up as a fight.

” I don't care with whom you have lunch with but you should have informed me about it.” He shouted out.

” Why do I have to tell you?! Didn't we agreed to stay out of each other's life? Then why are you buŧŧing in my life?” My inner lioness roars back at him which I regretted later on.

” Your life? You should be aware that what you do outside with others, it can affect my public image. So, I'm only concerned about that. Make sure you remember it.” He left me speechless although his words were correct. He was really worried about me. I could have talked more politely.

During those time I was on my periods. So, it's kinda natural for me to act that way. I started to avoid him. The distance between us grew further. The silence remained unshaken.

My mom was sick so I came to visit her. Theo informed me that he'll be going on a business trip. I stay with my parents. My heart was filled with grief. Hard to believe but I was missing Theo. Every time I think of him, my heart ached.

How strange. Just in those few days I became so closed to him.