190 Darkus (1/2)

What is evil and what is good?

I really don't know the difference. I just know that I have to survive and have fun.

So I don't know what is evil and what is good .

Since I was a kid till now I always survive.

I'm always running.

I used to run away from death.

Now I'm running away from myself.

It's the same thing.

this time… as I remember Khalid. I feel like I'm losing a part of my body.

He was a good friend.

Someone you can depend on.

Someone who hides his sadness in the deepest part of his soul And smile

Shard Hind and Zed woke up,.

Everyone was crying.

But Hind didn't do anything.

She didn't cry and she didn't smile.

She just sat and looked at us in silence.

I also sat, too, looking at them.

I took out the transformation ball and turned it into a cigarette, as i tried to forget.

It's better to make my chest hurt than to lose the last part of my mind.

Shard stood up And went to the tree next to him. Approach it.

And with all his power as tears come down from his eyes.

Hit the tree and made it fall to the ground.

Then head to another tree.

And so on.

He was getting angrier, and he was shouting in anger.

I approached him.

”Calm down.”

He looked at me and hit the tree next to him and sat next to it then said it sadly

”I couldn't protect anyone, I couldn't protect my little brother from the demons, and I lost another brother to giants .”

”We know from the beginning there will be casualties.”

He didn't answer. He hit his hand on the ground so hard and said

”Next time I'm afraid it will be your turn.”

”It's not my time to die, I must take revenge on the demons King. I must take avenge for everyone.”

”And why should death be the end.”

”And do you see any other end?”

”I hate death. It takes every dear on.”

”This is the role of death to pick young flowers.”

He looked at me and thought a little after he raised his head slowly then looked back down again to the ground

”What would you do if you had a chance to live forever?”

I looked at him in confusion and said to him with a sharp voice

”I'm gonna be bored, I don't want to live forever, this is gonna make me die of boredom.”

Shard laughed in a cold voice and then stood up

He went and sat next to Zed

Today I lost Khalid.

And tomorrow I don't know who I'm gonna lose.

But I have to keep going and make sure the end is going to be what I want

I said that as I remembered the words of the girl that was sitting next to me.

The unknown girl that I only heard her voice.

I remembered her and I smiled.

And after a whole day of grief.

And I started heading to the place lina told me about.

The cave

I don't know how her father passed by all these creatures

We've been avoiding

All those giants And strange creatures

At every point there was some kind of trap

Every moment there was danger. I didn't feel comfortable in this place at all

So I got everyone into my inner range

At first they refused

But when I told them, It's safe for us so we don't get noticed they agreed

So let them in then I started moving

My face at that moment had a lot of injuries

My eyes were black and underneath them were black

Wonds filled My body

I was exhausted

I was sick

I was miserable

But I kept moving

”master, why don't you take something from the store for your body”

”Not now”

”master, why do you want to feel pain”

I didn't answer het. I just kept moving forward

”master, don't avoid answering me why are you hurting yourself ”

I looked at her angrily and said

”Because I deserve this fucking pain, I deserve to die. every time I lose someone close to me because of my weakness. I always have to lose someone.”

”master, you must punish death, not punish anyone else”

”you idiot is death who puts the knife inside the body that burns the soul, is he the one that passes the bullet from threw the neck.”

”But death takes the soul after the knife hits”

”What do you want, Dima?”

”I want you to hate death, not hate yourself”

She said that and disappeared

After I moved a little forward

I saw something weird

I felt a strange feeling inside of me

I sat somewhere far from the eyes and entered my inner range

I felt a lot of power it was coming from the store

So I went into the store

I found Athena's sword high in the sky and the rest of the stuff was lower

But I felt the power coming from somewhere else

I looked in the distant

And I found a wooden horse

Flying in space

It was the horse I got after i killed the dragon in the Heaven Fort

Why does it have all this energy inside of it

I got close to it

And I tried to hold it with my hand

But it's temperature was so high

My hand started to burn

”Damn it, why are you so hot?”