122 The bottom of misery (1/2)

The misery in the world is not death

Not diseases

Not the fucking ideas waiting for you every night before you close your eyes

Misery is humanity itself

The humans who made everything in the world miserable

Am I miserable?

Or just a fool waiting for his end quietly.

I don't know, but when I heard Dima's voice coming out of this little body, I was shocked

I felt like everything was weird

Really everything's weird

I wanted to scream

Enough!

I had enough of this world.

But I didn't talk, I didn't say anything.

I wanted to break this world with my fist

But I don't have the power yet. I have nothing but misery…

Dima looked at me with her cute little face.

She was originally a fairy

that fact made me shocked

Because it looked weird, and even though most of her is covered in black, even her wings, she was still beautiful so it looked so weird.

She wasn't missing any beauty

But I didn't have the effort to say anything

A looked around, this place was so bloody and sad like a paper that was about to fall off the tree.

It falls in the fall, without anyone looking at it.

Without anyone noticing it.

It Just falls and touches the ground, then nature runs over it like it didn't exist.

it moves with the wind until it finally reaches its end.

Without one person grieving it or even taking care of it

The wind rises it and embraces it, and then in a moment, it leaves it to fall and die without giving it any choice.

I was still at the shadows of Union headquarters.

I stood, around me a lot of bodies, a lot of blood and a lot of death.

I looked at everything without any care in the world.

I felt that nothing from what happened Mattered to me

Like it had nothing to do with me

In the midst of that fear, that horror a voice appeared ageing

”Master, you don't recognize me ?”

But I didn't have any psychological power to answer it

There's some time you don't even have the power to talk

To argue

To move

You want to throw yourself on your pillow and sleep quietly

Far from the noises of the world you just want to fall asleep in silence

This world is fucking ugly

It Destroys everything inside of us without mercy and no way to resist

It's like the world hates us. But we didn't do anything to make it hate us

He hates us just because he hates us

It is what it is I guess.

Fuck everything

Damn it

I don't know why all this misery is controlling over me wanting me to destroy the world

I didn't look around and I didn't look at her

I was looking at myself from the inside.

But only seeing a broken man

Fuck this world

Fuck this place

Why didn't I die the last time? Why am I still alive?

”What do you want from me?”