Chapter 238 - Godhood: Closure. (1/2)

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They aren't my family for more than 2000 years, Allessa is.

That kept echoing in my mind while I walked towards my bedroom. That information is completely true and not even for a moment I thought differently. But I acted kinda excessive and out of character there. And that is worrying.

I know, since I came back that my brain was different, slower, more muddled, but I just failed to see the bigger picture here.

From my parent's perspective, their very incompetent son just said he was moving to another country and got pissed about a girlfriend that they don't know about. That got to look weird no matter how you look at it.

Allessa is my family and my world, we spent years together and love each other more than anything. But they don't know that. For them, my mysterious girlfriend could be just some weirdo trying to scam me on the internet. Just the thought of them thinking about Allessa like that already made me pissed.

And then come to another problem, since when I lose control of my emotions like this? I am literally in the process of becoming a f.u.c.k.i.n.g Buddha, how the f.u.c.k something like that can possibly happen. That is simply absurd...

Wait... I may have a theory when it comes to that... Maybe my past-self body had an extremely weak Yin, like really weak Yin. It could explain a lot of things, my lack of overall emotional control, my slower and dumber past self... That kind of makes sense in some way. But it could also just be something more mundane, like finally standing up to my parents, or it's just that emotions are a complicated thing after all. Find authorized novels in , faster updates, better experience, Please click #._51737575848738258 for visiting.

Bringing back the Stacy event was also quite a d.i.c.k move on my part, my mother said sorry for that way more times than I could count. She even made a formal apology to Stacy and Stacy's mother, we agreed to drop that and I was being an idiot for bringing it up again.

I admit this wasn't one of my proudest moments by a long shot, I also bet if I even show this scene to Allessa she would first laugh it off, then think I was being cute, and then it would all evolve in a steamy romantic moment. *Sigh*, I miss her already. But maybe all of this was a necessary thing, finally confronting my past self parents, and finally close this chapter of my life.*Golden Ligh*, my right eye immediately started twitching... This shitty golden light again.

I finish eating and then I finally take a good look at my past self room. It was cleaner than I remembered, must've been mom that cleaned it... My room was relatively simple, there was a bed, a small nightstand at its side, some shelves with books and all kinds of things, a wardrobe, and then a very big table containing my computer, my PS3 and some papers and other things that I use to write on. Yeah, this PS3 is almost an ancient artifact at this point, but I had some pretty good moments playing with it, but after the PS3 I started using basically only the computer, I will always prefer a PC to a console.

I quickly finished eating my dinner and sat on my chair, looking at the unlit screen of my PC. Then I heard some knocking on the door. It was my mother. She entered the room and looked at me, she seems troubled about something. Then I decided to act like the bigger and more mature man that I am and said sorry.

”Sorry for that mom.”(Aizen).

”Don't worry son, I think I should apologize too. But you need to understand that I am also worried about you. You quit college when you were 20, and spent the next four years...”(Mom).

”I know, what you were thinking... That maybe if I had a girlfriend, I could change for the better, right?”(Aizen).

”Yeah. It ought maybe if you had someone more in your life you could...”(Mom).

”Well, now that I think about It. You are not wrong, a girl did indeed change my life a lot. ”(Aizen).

”That is another thing I wanted to talk about. This girl you are talking about... You know about scammers right? ”(Mom).

”What the f.u.c.k? Do you think I am one of those simps that keep showering those twitch thots with donations thinking they care about me? Shit mom, I may be a loser, but I am not that much of a loser.”(Aizen).

My mom visibly relaxed, a huge tension being lifted off her shoulders. It was like I just told her she won the lottery or something.

”Thank God. Thank God. Thank God. You don't know how relieved I am at hearing this. ”(Mom).

”I may be a failure in a lot of things. But I would never give money to a twitch thot.”(Aizen).

”That is truly a relief. Now tell me a little bit more about this girl...”(Mom).

We ended up talking a lot. I told her a very edit and different version of how a met Allessa, as the truth is way more unbelievable than the fiction, I wonder how she would react knowing I was already a father of a girl my sister's age.

She was also worried that I was being scammed or something. I thought that worry was funny seeing as Allessa is way richer than me... Technically, I can be richer than her with my Yin-Yang Release, but in the real sense of things, Allessa is way richer than me, but money is kinda worthless to both of us, it has been a long time since we tough about money or something of the sorts.

That may also be one of the points of this test, to know what is to be a normal human again, to make me remember what it feels to be mortal, what it feels to do wrong, to fail, and don't have a quick way to fix things. For me to become a god I need to know the whole coin, its two sides, its two faces. In the end, how can I know what a is god, if I had forgotten what is being a mortal in the first place? Now I can understand a little bit more of this test purposes.*Golden Light**Sigh*.

I ended up talking with my mother for a long time, we were able to rebound as mother and son. I may have already mentioned it, but my relationship with my family grew strained and distant in the last years of my past life. But in just this short time that I was back, I was already able to somehow reconnect and gain a little bit of respect from my father, and reconnect with my mother. That is actually something pretty great.*Golden Light*

After that, I went to brush my teeth... Now that I think about it... How long since I brushed my teeth in a normal way. Normally I use Yin-Yang Release to clean my teeth and my mouth perfectly, so it has been years since I last touched a toothbrush. And if there is a thing that makes you really feel human is brushing your teeth and taking a shit afterward, that is literally something that every human being does.

Then I went to sleep, and that was when I missed Allessa the most. I've not slept alone in years, every time I went to sleep Allessa was there with me together cuddling and basking in each other's presence. And sleeping alone felt hollow cold, and I would constantly shift about feeling there was something missing.

Waking up on the next day I felt different, more refreshed. I guess my body really needed this rest time. Breakfast was a simple affair, a cup of coffee and one bread with butter, and everyone was ready to go on with their day. Both my parents went to work, and my sister went to school.

Seeing as I had a lot of free time right now I decided to visit my grandmother. Thankfully she lived close by so I could go walking.

Halfway to my destination, I was already wearing like a pig on a summer day, breathing heavily, and I felt like I couldn't even move anymore. Being fat f.u.c.k.i.n.g sucks, I could barely make this simple walk to my grandmother's house. I forgot how infuriating being fat can be. First priority right now is to put my body on manageable and healthy levels. I know due to my genetics I won't even be a thin man or something like that, but that doesn't mean I can't be chunky. Being chunky means that I will get rid of the unnecessary and unhealthy fat, but due to my genetics still maintain that squarish and large figure. I am almost crying at how difficult it will be to get rid of my fat belly, this shit is always the worst to get rid of, and I know for a fact that this body will never have a six-pack, but that doesn't mean I can't get rid of the fat on my body.

The rest of the way to my grandmother's home was difficult, incredibly difficult. My body simply can't or wouldn't collaborate with me. But after a lot of time basically dragging myself, I was able to arrive. My grandma bless her soul, was sitting in front of her house, and she immediately opened it when she saw me.

”Are you okay? What happened? ”(Grandma).

”*huff* I *huff* just *Huff* came* huff* walking *huff*.”(Aizen)

”Oh my god. Don't worry, I will get you some water.”(Grandma).

After some moments grandma returned with a big water bottle and I was thankful for it. I greedily drank the water to satiate my thirst, grandma simply sat there waiting patiently. After some time to get my bearing, I looked at grandma and explained.

”I came here today to visit you, and to give you some news.”(Aizen).

”Oh, do tell.”(Grandma).

”Well, I will be moving to Tchola.”(Aizen).

My grandma was a little bit surprised at first, but soon a look of nostalgia and reminiscence appeared on her face like she was remembering a similar event in the past. I patiently waited, until she gave me a smile and said.

”You know... Your father did almost the same thing, all those years ago... When I look at you know I couldn't help but draw the similarities.”(Grandma)

”Father mentioned something like that...”(Aizen).

”Hah, you wouldn't believe it. It was a day almost exactly like this, he just straight up looked at me in the eyes and said that. As a mother, I was very worried, but your father's determination convinced me. He had the same fire in your eyes you have right now you know... The semblances are uncanny... Like father like son I guess. But I guess that is part of growing up.”(Grandma).

”Hehe. Do you want any help around?”(Aizen).

”Don't worry, I am old, not dumb, I got those things covered. I wanted to talk with you a bit more, it has been a long time since I saw my cute grandson, so how have things been going...”(Grandma).

I continue talking with grandma and we had quite a good talk together, it even grew funny towards the end when she started telling some histories about my father and some of his adventures when younger. Never thought my father had so many interesting things happening to him... Huh, peoples' lives are way more complex and complicated than I remembered, but I guess that is the typical syndrome that affects everyone who becomes too powerful, we start to see the other and we oversimply their lives and then we ended up forgetting that life is equally complicated for everyone. Even if someone lives isolated and in peace, they would still have multiple different stories to tell, haha, I forgot how being a normal human can also be interesting in some way.

Before my previous elf died, I saw everything as boring, I had stopped with human interaction because I thought it fruitless and boring, that life was lame, I thought it was meaningless and boring and had probably given up. I was especially always angry with how I couldn't advance, how I couldn't evolve, at how limited I always felt by being a normal human. I hated the boring normalcy.

But now with my literally more enlightened mentality, I was able to see things from a different angle. I was able to see beauty when I didn't find any before, I was able to see hope when all I saw before was hopelessness, I was able to make amends when previously I only saw burned bridges.

Hah, I was able to see through so many new perspectives, I literally opened my eyes to new ways right now. This test is really enlightening, worthy of a test for a future Buddha. Eventually, the talk with my grandma had to come to an end. But before I went back home grandma gave me a Chaplet.

”Here, take this. And God will always be with you, and remember to pray every night okay?”(Grandma).

”Thank you, grandma, I appreciate it.”(Aizen).

I wonder... How would she react if she knew I literally talked with God and are friends with him. That's got to be something, right? And if technically speaking, the highest religious authority in the world is the one who is closest to God, don't I qualify as one? Technically, I had more contact with god than the pope right now. It sounds absurd, I know, but at least it's funny to think about it. The same could be said about Buddhism.

After taking the chaplet I went back home, walking back home was somehow way more difficult than I expected, but I guess my body was already tired of the distance I walked previously, and now I need to walk the same distance back to my home.

It was difficult, and I reached home in a state almost worse than when I arrived at grandma's house. I made a direct beeline to the kitchen and drank a lot of water. Something pretty important to do as I am sweating heavily and losing a lot of liquid, so drinking water is something necessary for me to not dehydrate.

- Time Skip - Six Months -

It took me six months to get citizenship on Tchola. In these six months, I of course didn't stay still. I used my time to the best of my abilities.

I started exercising daily with eh clear objective of losing my useless and unhealthy fat. and it has been working. Thanks to my knowledge and experience I didn't even need a gym for the simple training regimens I am doing, I've long since mastered the art of exercising the most without the need to use any external factor.

Of course, if I want to get really put on some huge muscles I would need to go to the gym and do things differently, but for now? Just spending some good hours doing my variations of the Saitama training is enough for me to remove my fat and get healthier. When my body reaches a better level I could try some of the exercises I did while I was training to be a shinobi, fo course most of them are useless because they expect me to have chakra, but the lower level ones I could probably do if my body is prepared enough.

Losing weight and exercising changed a lot of my appearance, don't get me wrong I still look fat, very fat. But now my eyes aren't sunken anymore, there aren't any dark circles around them. I started taking care and trimming my beard regularly, I made sure to not let my hair get too long. I took more baths during the day and every time after exercising. I don't get as exhausted and huffing when I make a simple walk to my grandma's house. My quality of life has overall improved.

Besides the exercises, I also started on my secondary citizenship on Tchola, and I gotta say: Bureaucracy sucks, the amount of padding I had to undergo for no reason whatsoever was mindboggling. The amount of money on small taxes and pays I spent should be a crime to even be allowed to continue running. But finally, after six shitty months, I was able to obtain my second citizenship.

My mother was quite surprised that I was serious about that, and I won't lie to you and say she accepted it instantaneously. It took some time but eventually, she came around and accept things as it is. My father was extremely supportive, he suffered almost the same amount as me as he was the one who went with me on this bureaucratic boogaloo. But like a total chad that he is he took it in stride, for someone who works with something similar I guess he is already used to this shit.

Grandma has been giving some tips about Tchola, apparently, she lived there when she was a kid so she knows a lot about that nation. She told most me most of the things she could remember and with the internet help, I was already pretty informed about that nation.

Preparing for my trip and arrival wasn't easy, but I am someone who has created the best metal in the Omniverse, a little trip like this won't stop me. It was an extra month making sure everything was arranged and prepared, I didn't mind the extra month of waiting as it was a good time to spend some moments with my family.

During these months I also became a better person somewhat, I was able to repair a lot of burned bridges and what previously looked like hopeless situations ended up only being something that required a little bit of patience and kindness. I could comfortably say that my relationship with my family right now has been the best I had in years, and they all felt it too.

My changes definitely didn't go noticed, but as I was literally changing for the better no one was complaining about it.

Heck, I was even able to give some pointer on martial arts to my sister. she first didn't give it much thought, she keeps quizzing me and asking me strange questions, it was like she simply couldn't believe I could give those kinds of advice for her. I told her that some times an outside perspective and sometimes a fresh perspective can help us improve, she was already doing a good job going for a very different martial arts black belt, and it may also improve her skills if she went and watched different arts on youtube.

At first, she didn't believe thinking it was the usual bullshit I keep saying, but seeing as I had taken some real effort to change she thought on hearing my advice and ended up not regretting it. She definitely improved a lot, and if I was able to interpreter this correctly she will probably want to go pro in the future. She has some pretty good chances, principally if she listens to my bits of advice.

How would her reaction be if she knew I am way above master in a bunch of those martial arts. But I guess my most important advice for her was the way of life I adopted after my reincarnation ”Be better than yourself from yesterday.”. In my opinion that was one of the best pieces of advice I gave her, it's something that I always adhered to, be better than myself from yesterday. I don't need to always have huge leaps or learn some new and big technique, I just need to be better than myself from yesterday.

Finally, the day arrived. I said goodbyes to my family and entered the plane towards Tchola.

The first week in Tchola was quite complicated, but eventually, I was able to settle myself. I found a job at a supermarket and started working. It may sound like a strange job for someone with so many skills like me, but I literally had no experience or any college degree in my resume, so I simply accepted.

Working at the supermarket ended up being a very nice experience. I got to know the staff. Jeff the weird cashier, Rosane the goth chick, Jumbo the ex-soldier, Carlos the Uruguayan janitor, Patrik the tea obsessed guard. I had some kind of strange function in the supermarket, I started as an auxiliary to Carlos helping him clean everything, but a month later Rosane needed some help, in labeling the products so I was assigned to helping her after that Jeff had troubles keeping up on the rush hours so I aced as another cashier. One day too much meat arrived a the same time so I went to help Jumbo on the butchery, and soon I found that my varied skills had a pretty high value.

At 26 I was promoted to manager of that supermarket, it didn't change much of what I was doing previously. It was just a bigger income and a bigger amount of paperwork.

My personal life was also doing great, I was able to rent a small flat in the city at a fair price. I continue exercising and becoming fitter by the day, this reminded me that soon I would need to go to the gym, liking it or not that is just more efficient and less time-consuming. I didn't forget to call my family at least every week to talk with them and update them on the things happening.

With the extra money I now and as a manager, I was able to buy a car. I prioritized functionality over everything, so I bought a car that needs the least maintenance I could find, I didn't care much about appearances.

A funny thing also happened one of the clients a woman roughly my age asked me out on a date. I politely declined her, saying I already had someone. I don't care if this is just a test or whatever, I will never betray Allessa, she is the only one for me.

When I was 27 years old, the supermarket chain I was working on broke. It was a relatively small chain that spanned some cities around, I was quite sad about having to say goodbyes to my fellow employees, but everyone ended up following in their own way.

When I was researching for another job, my older boss called me saying he had a proposal. Apparently, the supermarket part of his business broke, but he still had other types of business around. He proposed to me a job at a butchery he owned. I found it strange but went with it nonetheless. Well, I technically didn't stop searching for a job, because this boss has already let me down once, so I expected him to do it twice.

In the first week working at the butchery, I quickly discovered some interesting things. The butchery was a front to a criminal ring that operated underneath it, so I quickly connected some dots and discovered why the supermarket chain I worked previously was closed, it was probably due to some police investigation so they'd decided to lose it before the police found anything, or the police did find something and ordered them to close it.

Well, this bastard of a boss was playing with fire, and I was going to show him that. I started gathering information and clues, anything discriminatory I could find or perceive. For someone like me, that was part of the ANBU this was extremely easy, these guys are just normal people and I worked with super ninjas that were high on chakra and paranoid to a fault. Compared to that this almost seems way too easy.